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My 20 yr old son has ‘undetermined’ chronic inflammatory bowel disease, my 16 yr old has an ‘undetermined’ learning disability- he was born 6 1/2 weeks preemie-they had dx’ed aspergers but retracted that and called it ‘undetermined’, and my 11 yr old daughter has spina bifida w/ chronic renal failure, neurogenic bowel and bladder is ‘short in stature’- she has no learning problems that we are aware of yet, other than dysgraphia (but my husband and 14 yr old son have that also- I just call it sloppy slop monster) Wow.. 4 for 4.. guess its true “nobody is perfect”
My daughter is the ‘sickest’ of them all, I was under the impression she was my punishment for having an abortion. But when I found the Lord, He gave me this scripture:
John 9:1-3 ” As he passed by he saw a man blind from birth.His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”Jesus answered, “Neither he nor his parents sinned; it is so that the works of God might be made visible through him.”
She has a purpose.. And she is truly living it out.. She shouldn’t walk, she should be paralyzed from the waist down, she walks, runs, plays soccer, skateboards, she is as close to perfect as she can be..

umm.. necro something or another, something colitis- I’ve heard a little about this when I’ve been @ UCLA with Aimee on a couple of her extended stays! This is just the rough beginning, things will settle down as you settle in to having a ‘special’ baby. It’s rough, I know that well, I was 25 when I had my special baby girl, and 20 when my son was born, but he was a breeze once his lungs got stronger. You’re still young and there is alot of life experience that hasn’t made you strong enough to deal with this (I’m not trying to sound harsh, I just don’t know how to word this right sorry) I’m saying that my experience when I was 20 with my second son and my experience when I was 25 actually like 27 because she didn’t get really sick til she was 2- with my daughter was easier to deal with and I know it was just that I had grown up more in those years. But I know you’ll be fine- and remember doctors usually give you worse case scenario- because people are much less likely to try to sue a doctor if they tell them that the situation will only get worse and it gets better than if they say it will get better and it gets worse.. ya know.. hang in there

Hi. You really need to go to the doctor, maybe its an ectopic pregnancy that can be dangerous to your health, or maybe it’s a cyst on your ovaries.. it could be anything, better safe than sorry. Let us know how it goes

Hey there! Try hooking up with a pregnancy resource center in your area, I believe that the Crisis Pregnancy Help Line listed on the right here, can help you. If not look under abortion alternatives in your yellow pages.
I hope all goes well for you.

My heart is breaking for you right now. I know exactly how you are feeling. The good news is that you are recognizing it now and not having to suffer through years of guilt and destruction. There is hope and there is love to pull you out of it. Try to imagine your baby in the arms of Christ being comforted. That is where your baby is, waiting for the day he/she can see you and tell you that it’s ok and you are loved. Look for your closests pregnancy resource center and find a post abortion counselling, it really helps you deal with those feelings. I had to go through it before I could become a peer counselor and I didn’t realize how deep my guilt and shame ran and how deeply rooted my issues were in this. It was freeing and to know that JESUS forgives me and loves me helped me get through it, I was able to release my baby and find comfort in the fact that I had given my child to Christ to care for. It will never bring your baby back to you hear on earth but it will make it easier. PLEASE don’t wait too long, life spins out of control too quickly for you to wait. and PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not hesitate to contact me if you need to talk. That is why I joined up here, if I can be of help to just one person and make just a bit of difference it makes it all worth it. God bless you and comfort you.

Its all an adjustment. You took the first step in quitting all the things you were doing. It’s going to be rough and you might want to go back to it afterwards, but don’t its too easy to get sucked back into that world and the drugs make you thingk you’re super mom and you really aren’t. You don’t realize the affect it all has on your child until they are grown up and you start to notice what all they saw has done to them.
These feelings are all normal for you to feel before a big change in your life. Its like your mind is going over all that was and all that is going to be, playing tricks on you with all the what ifs and worst case scenarios.
The future will be better than the past, you will find joy in life and the life you have created. YOu will find any lonliness filled with companionship from someone who loves you even when you’re ugly or moody. Enjoy these years because believe me, as much as you may have heard it before it is true- these years pass by so fast and you never get them back.. I learned my lesson.. I was thinking about it the other day when I realized my first born will be 20 on weds and I can’t recall the baby years..drugs took that from me…

I pray that you changed your mind. It seems that lives will be destroyed if you have the baby, but lives will be destroyed even more if you did go through with it. The two lives that matter most, yours and the babys. If you did go through with it please seek counselling now, even if it seems to not have affected you it will and it can be masked or blamed on other circumstances. It NEVER really GETS BETTER IN TIME, its just like a piece of gum on the floor, other things stick to it until you can’t see the gum anymore, you can see everthing that has stuck to it, but you have to look realy hard to recognize that underneath all the other stuff is a piece of gum, where it all started, and even if you clean all the other stuff off of it, it is never really the same. I know that probably sounded dumb, but that’s how my life felt afterwords, things would just stick to me, and I finally cleaned up my life but my heart isn’t the same.

When my babies turned one we incorporated the ‘losing of the bottle’ in the party. When we had their birthday party we made it like a ceremony, and threw it away and presented them with a nice sippy cup (with their favorite character or color) all wrapped up shiny and pretty like it was the best treasure ever- we had trained them half time with the sippy and bottle up til then, that worked perfectly with all mine, (except when my neice gave a bottle to my 3rd son when he was 13 months old!) We also swithched to whole milk at 1.

The pill can do funky things to your body, and if you are on antibiotics or some certain other drugs they can counteract with the pill and it will be inaffective. Sounds like you have pregnancy symptoms except for the light periods, but then my best friend had hers all the way through, she didn’t even know until she gave birth almost 8 weeks earl! Let us know how goes.