im heartbroken

Hi, I am 16 years old. I had an abortion when I was 15 years old when I was 6 months in and it was the worst day of my life.

I didn’t tell my mum or dad and it was so hard to hide it. They kept on saying are you sure you’re well enough to go to school because I kept on being sick and I guess they didn’t think anything like that would of been the problem. It’s been 5 months now since I had the abortion and if I could go back, I would never of gone and I would have her in my arms now. I look at the ultrasound scan of 6 months a week before the abortion i had a scan and I look at it every day and it makes me cry.

But I have a msg to girls who get pregnant being a teen, be strong and do what’s right at the time and tell your parents. At the time, I couldn’t of coped with having a daughter, but me and my boyfriend did stick together and we’ve been together for 19 months now 🙂 So you must not be scared and do what’s right by you.

Thanks xo

R.I.P Sasha-Lou II, I miss you everyday and I love you to bits! You would of made me the proudest person to walk into a room with you in my arms and no one could ever take you off me. I’m so sorry for what I did to you and that you never got to live your life. R.I.P 10/4/08-9/9/08. Happy Birthday 11.1.09 I love you, princess.

All my love, mummy & daddy.

A m i pregnant?

Seven days ago, I had or think I had my period.

Normally it is 3 days. My nipples started to hurt, then my stomach. I decided to buy a home test & the results were positive but a few days later, I started to experience blood spots on my panties. Now whenever I’ve finished my meals, my tummy grows bigger than usual.

A M I OR A M I NOT?

she needs help…

It’s almost been two years after we graduated high school and my friends started to separate ways. Although we have plans of our own, we still never forget to see and bond with each other, share things that happened in our lives as we entered college. But then, this reunion would be the unforgettable and painful thing that we encounter. One of our friends is 4 months pregnant. After hearing the news, I cried and felt bad because of the news. And horrifyingly, she ends up with the wrong guy.

Maybe I’m just being judgmental, but that’s the truth. I heard news and rumors of him being a bad-boy type of guy and the different vices he is into. Now, I’m so very much worried for my friend. I don’t know what future she would have with the guy that according to what I have heard, they have planned to be married or to be civil depending on the decision of their parents. I felt so hopeless to give her advice. I don’t want my friend to be married with that type of guy. I know they have now the responsibility to the baby but I don’t think being totally committed at this point in time is not yet a good idea. I just hope and pray my friend would not commit  another big mistake in deciding with would be right for her and her baby. I don’t know what to say or would do to make her at ease.

Unsure

I’m sitting here watching SpongeBob SquarePants, waiting for da boyfriend to wake up. He’s taking me to the GP this morning. I should probably see a GYN soon too. It’s about time for a full check-up… But all that aside, I have butterflies in my tummy again and my mind is racing. I might be pregnant, I don’t know. I don’t want to get my hopes up again.

I had a pregnancy scare in July, not that it was all that scary… I was actually hoping that the tests would be positive. I was experiencing ALL the symptoms I’d experienced before and AF was a whole week late BUT the first HPT was a BFN. I was heartbroken. AF stayed away for ANOTHER week and I thought that I’d tested too early BUT with my luck, this one was a BFN too. A few days later, AF showed up. Again, completely devastated.

I HATE AF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I’m just worried the same thing is going to happen again now. I’ve tried telling myself that being pregnant is NOT a possibility, but I can’t help but hold out a little hope that I might be a mother again! Last night, da boyfriend also asked if I might be pregnant (I know he doesn’t want a baby right now, even though we could easily afford it). I felt like smacking him. Because if no one verbalizes what I’m thinking, it should be fine, or at least I’ll cope better with another negative test, because I know a BFP is virtually impossible, even though on another level I’m hoping for it…. Does that even make any sense?

I can’t handle another disappointment, it’s such a big set back for me, personally. I try to get over it quickly, telling myself that when the time is right everything will happen the way it’s supposed to but it’s not that final.

Anyhoo, I’m off to be disappointed AGAIN!!!!!!

I’m going through the hardest decision

I’m 18 years old as of 3 weeks ago and I just found out I’m pregnant on Wednesday.

I went to Planned Parenthood to make sure and sure enough, I was. I told my mom, and my boyfriend, and his parents.  Everyone is so supportive of me. My mom and his mom are both against abortions but they aren’t convincing me into anything. They said it’s my decision and they’ll support whatever the outcome is. My boyfriend was stuck in the middle for a day, then he told me that I should have it. I was stunned because I was just convincing myself that I should have an abortion because of my age and my future goals. I am a senior and I would be 8 months pregnant during the time of my prom (therefore I couldn’t go), and I would be sitting at my commencement very uncomfortably. I just applied for colleges and I’m not out of party mode at all. I called the place to get an abortion yesterday and scheduled an appointment. My first appointment is actually in 2 hours.  I’m still very confused, and today was the first day I cried about all of this happening to me.

I really want to go to college the way I planned my life, and finish my senior year off the way it was supposed to be.  Now I am second guessing….

Almost to adulthood

I’m 17 and a junior in high school. I’ll be turning 18 in about a month and a half. I am currently facing some of the hardest times that I have faced in a long time which is saying a lot.

There is a possibility that I am pregnant with my ex-boyfriend’s child. I will be taking a test in the next week, which is the soonest that I can because I won’t have money until tomorrow or Saturday. I know that it is entirely too early to start thinking about having a family but I know that there is no other option but to keep the baby if there is one. It is my responsibility being that I helped to create it. No, the ex-boyfriend is not in the picture but yes, he does know that I might be pregnant and so does his girlfriend and we’ve all talked about it. I’m taking this one step at a time and I just wanted to say this.

Girls, if you’re on this website but are not pregnant, then please, unless you’re capable of taking care of an infant, then do not get pregnant. I’m not trying to tell you guys what to do but please think carefully!

Love always