I’m completely confused. My boyfriend and I have a beautiful 6-month-old daughter. I’m 19 & my boyfriend of two years is 22. We have our own place & car. He works two jobs while I look for work. We’re both recent college graduates. I am currently one month pregnant. My boyfriend feels that it is much too soon to have another child & suggests abortion. I’m terrified of the thought but open to opinions. Suggestions anyone?
I’m not sure how to start off. I guess I’ll start like this…
Dec 31 was a day that changed my life forever. I was 13 and I got pregnant. When my family found out, they flipped out. They all wanted me to get an abortion, including the father of my child. His mom and dad wanted me to keep the baby and I so made the choice to keep the baby. I found out I was having a little girl at 19 weeks. I was so excited and ready to be a mommy. I choose the name Heather Ann Jordan. She was gonna be named after my sister who had died and her middle name was the father’s grandmother’s middle name. I thought it was perfect. Day by day went by and I got more excited every day and every day my family disowned me a little more. When I was 8 months along, I had to be rushed to the hospital. Something went wrong and Heather died. :'( I had to give birth to a dead baby girl.
When I gave birth to her, they asked me if I wanted to hold her. If I wanted pics of her and what I wanted to do with her body. Of course, I wanted to hold her so I said yes. I held her and cried and cried. I just prayed to God, “Just let this be a bad dream. Let her be OK.” But I never woke up from this bad dream. In the end, my family and her father all got what they wanted except me. I didn’t get my baby girl. I felt so lost I cried for months. I still cry till this day about what happened to my baby girl. I have an angel up there and every day, I just want to end my life and be with her, but I don’t. I pray every day and talk to her. Now I’m with a steady guy and we’re engaged. He’s amazing and we’re in love. He went through the same thing. He was having a baby girl. Her name was gonna be Evilin. Something went wrong with her and she died. Evilin’s mom was 8 months pregnant turns out we were the exact same weeks along when we lost our baby girls.
I just found out I’m 5 weeks along. My fiancé and I are so happy. We’re not telling anyone until I start to show so they can’t do anything about it. We both still miss our daughters and still both cry but we know they are all taken care of up in heaven
<3 R.I.P Heather Ann Jordan and Evilin Marisa Eastman. Our angels!
My son’s due date was 8th August, but obviously, he came early. So I shouldn’t be worried about his due date? I am probably making a big deal over nothing, but this day means a lot to me. He should either be on his way and almost here or a few days old. But actually, the 8th of August will be 2 months since Leo has been home from the hospital…And almost 4 months of him being here. So it’s special to me. Today(6th August), my son has reached his due date goal of 6 pounds. He finally fits into newborn clothes, woo!
We are also having a small engagement party on the 8th, but will also be a type of baby shower for him too. So yeah, we’re having a party to celebrate my son and me and my fiancé’s engagement. It’s a pretty late party, but it will be fun. So we’re pretty busy right now. We picked up the cake earlier today, hopefully it stays okay. Picking up our son’s cake tomorrow.
Well, I’m so glad my son has made it here. I don’t really care when he arrived. He made it to his due date healthy and happy. He’s just a little older than what he should be. My fiancé and I are so privileged to have such a wonderful son. He’s already lifting his head up, and he’s so active. He’s really aware of everything around him…And he clearly shows emotion. Still, no sign of teeth cutting, but I’m grateful because that’s going to be a nightmare. He is gorgeous and I love him lots!
I can’t believe the journey we’ve been through already…Hopefully, we’ll get his scan results back this week then no more hospital for 2 months! Can’t wait for the next few months to pass. I’m a lucky momma. Oh, and I apologize if I occasionally spam you with pictures.
Dear baby,
I’m writing this pretty late, but last week on the 21st, it was the 2-year anniversary since mommy decided to give you back to God.
I wasn’t so sad, baby, but don’t think I forgot about you! There is not a day that goes by where I don’t remember you. Although I was only 6 weeks and 4 days pregnant with you, from day one, I grew a special bond with you that no one, not even in a million years, will understand. I hope you’re not mad at me for my decision; abortion, no, giving you up, was the best choice and I needed to make it. It’s a horrible thing, most definitely. Thinking about how it happens and what they do…it gives me chills. But you are in heaven now, my sweet angel, and don’t get too comfy there because in a few years, you’ll be back in my tummy and I can watch you grow. Like me and your daddy say, you’re not gone forever, you’re only on a vacation waiting to come back. I’m always going to hurt when I think of you because you were just a sweet innocent child, but so was I. I was 13: a baby having a baby. I have my whole life ahead of me and there’s so much I want to accomplish. You want to know what’s in mommy’s future? I plan on continuing dance throughout high school and hopefully doing a solo my senior year. I’m getting my license in November, probably not a car but a job as well. Your daddy and I are running for homecoming king and queen this year and I plan on doing NHS this year. Next summer, I’m going to visit my best friend in the Dominican Republic and I told him all about you, my love. After high school, I want to apply to college in Arizona, Florida, or somewhere that’s not in Illinois. I’m going to Major in therapy for girls who are pregnant, who aborted, who adopted, and teen moms, and I’m minoring in dance. After that, I’ll see where life takes me. Maybe I should tell you all that’s happened since you’ve been gone. Your grandparents divorced and grandma and grandpa both have a new bf/gf. Auntie S tried to kill herself back in May, and Auntie A has nervous breakdowns every day. Your daddy and I almost broke up, but don’t worry, we’ll be together until you’re back in our arms in the future. But, I don’t want to tell you all the bad things. I’m happy now, baby. I mean, maybe I would’ve been happier with you, but I’m excited to build up my education and life to prepare for you so I can give you the life I never had. You mean the world to me, baby, and I really hope you will forgive me and understand this was the best thing for both of us. You are still my little angel and I love you with everything that I am. You will NEVER be forgotten, baby, NEVER.
With all of my love,
Mommy. <3
I’ll be 39 weeks pregnant this Friday. I and everyone in my family thought that my baby was going to be premature. I was just so big and well, I looked more like a 9-month pregnant woman than a 7-month pregnant woman. I’ve gained 70 pounds since I got pregnant. I’m guessing most of it is the water. My doctor measured the baby and says that the baby’s size is normal and on track.
My mother is leaving town in August and she is worried that the baby won’t be born before she leaves. This is my first baby and I do feel like I will need her help. She spoke to the doctor and because she is leaving, he won’t have any problem with inducing me this Sunday. He wanted to induce me this Friday, but remembered that he was going to be out of town, and won’t be back till this Sunday. So, I’ll just have to wait till Sunday. And I don’t mind.
I’m very excited. If everything goes well, and if God permits it, I will have my baby in my arms this Monday. Because I will be entering the hospital at six to be induced and I’ve heard that it’s a long process. I can’t believe it. I am very excited. I can’t believe the time is so near. And I am a little scared. I had an appointment yesterday because my doctor is going to induce me this Sunday. He had to check my cervix. It hurt!! And I’m sure that pain doesn’t compare to labor pain. I am only 1 cm dilated.
My husband and I are trying to have everything ready. Now, that we really don’t have time, we’re trying to fix the rooms so that everything will be ready. The flooring to my room is all done and this Friday, if there is money in hand, we’re gonna buy more flooring to complete the baby’s room. He’s gonna repaint the baby’s room and ceiling.
I know that all of this should have been done before. But, work wasn’t coming around well with my husband. And the week that there were lots of houses available for him to work with, he suffered a concussion. So therefore he had to take that week off to heal. Ugh!!
But thank goodness, his soccer team helped us out. My husband wins around 400 dollars weekly. And we didn’t think his team was gonna be able to raise enough money. The amount we’re used to, at least. I was shocked that my husband’s league handed us 405 dollars of donations from all the soccer players in the league and other people who helped out. I thought it was kind of funny because it was as if he worked the week before. I was very thankful to God. With the money, we bought the flooring. And other needs that the floor needed.
I’m so glad things are going a lot better. I can’t believe all the accomplishments we have made in the past two weeks. I hope things keep getting better. We can only pray.
Heya people. I’m Shreya and I’m from India. I’m 15 years.
Well, it’s been one and a half year. I’m dating a guy, and we both love each other too much. We even have had sex three times . But the problem starts from there. It was okay till this May. I was getting my periods, but from June, it stopped. I got my periods a week late in May, but from June on, no sign of it. We had sex last in April. Well, after that, in June, we twice did foreplay, but not sex. And both the times of foreplay, his sperms were all over my hand and I touched myself with my hand. Well, sometimes I feel an intense stomachache, and my boobs are a bit swollen. And I need to pee a lot also. Well, I told my parents that I am not getting my periods. They want me to do a pregnancy test. I’m too scared. What if I’m pregnant? If I’m pregnant, I don’t want an abortion. It’ll be my first baby, how can I let it go? My mind says so. But the circumstances would force me to abort my baby. In India, having sex before marriage is an offense and people would leave me and my family alone if they come to know that I have had sex and am pregnant now. 🙁 I’m praying to God all day and night to make my pregnancy test result negative. Even my guy also says he may leave me if I keep my child. Well, it’s not his fault. He has his family and his family won’t ever let him marry a single mom, even if the child is his. And I don’t wanna get married soon. If I become practical, I see the need to abort my baby, but my mind says not to abort.
I’m so scared… I think I should commit suicide. If I’m really pregnant, it’s gonna blacken the faces of my family. Better kill myself. 🙁
