I have been with my boyfriend for 6 months as of today.
I found out a week ago that I was prego. At first, I was scared but now I’m not. I’m in love with my boyfriend. He is in love with me and we are committed to being good parents. I know a lot of people are gonna judge me. I don’t care if we didn’t plan on getting me prego, but I am. So what? I’m not getting an abortion and now I’m gonna do what obviously God planned me to do.
I’m still kinda nervous in the end, but I know it will all be good in the end.
Good day all
I was 17 when it all happened. I dated someone who I thought was an amazing guy. We dated for 7 months and in the 5th month, I fell pregnant. We tried for 5 months and nothing happened. When I told him that I am pregnant, he said it was not his and that I should have an abortion. My dad and my then-boyfriend forced me to have an abortion. I actually did not know I had a choice to say no. Today, I know that I can say no. For years afterwards, I blamed myself; calling myself a killer and a murderer. And today, I am better. I always think about what the little one would have looked like.
I believe in my heart it would have been a boy.
It’s been over a year since my child’s father left me, yet I know I’m still not yet over him.
He left when I was about months along with my son Jayden, for his other girlfriend who was also pregnant at the time. (I had NO idea about any of that). From day one, I had to do it all on my own, taking Jayden to his appointments, buying him things on my limited budget on my own, everything. It pained me watching them together, him supporting her while I had to work, sometimes getting to school on a few hours of sleep. He wasn’t there for Jayden’s first words or steps. He wasn’t there for the christening, wasn’t there for his first birthday party. Yet why am I still feeling hurt? After all that he has and hasn’t done for/to me, why does it still hurt? When I do see him out with his daughter he had with his gf, I can’t help but feel a twinge of jealousy. Why did he pick her child over mine? What was wrong with me for him to have left me and be with her? So many questions. I hate that it’s been so long and I still think about him.
Can’t wait for these thoughts to go away.
I found out I was pregnant in October.
At first, everything was crazy. I was scared but I knew I was going to keep him. My boyfriend had just entered the army and was leaving for basic training soon, up until then he went to my doctor’s appointment with me. Everything was going great!
I first felt my little boy move the day I turned 17 weeks. I was so happy I called everybody! 20 weeks came around and I got a little worried, my baby always moved so much, and I didn’t feel him all day! So I scheduled a doctor’s appointment. I knew in my heart that something wasn’t right.
The doctor did an ultrasound and said there was a little fluid on his brain, but that could go away just as soon as it came. He said don’t worry, but he made me an appointment with a specialist for the following week.
With all that was up there, I was so scared. I was in the car with my mom so I didn’t say too much. I didn’t want to worry her. I went back there and lay on the bed. As soon as she put the ultrasound to my stomach and I saw her face, I knew my little boy wasn’t here anymore.
She told me she couldn’t say anything. She had to get the doctor and when he came in, he just confirmed what I already knew. There was no heartbeat.
The following day, I gave birth to him. He was beautiful! But, so tiny.
They told me the umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck.
We buried him, but to this day, I always feel like he is here! I love him so much and the only thing that gets me through every day is the fact I know when I go to heaven, God will hand me my baby boy and I’ll raise him like I’m supposed to
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I’ve been pregnant, but lost it before the 1st scan which me and my partner were devastated about.
Now after that, I just want a baby. Just knowing something was growing inside me made me feel happy and all that, but now I feel lost. My partner just wants a baby as well, but we are worried about what our parents will say. I’ve been told if I get pregnant, I’ll be kicked out of the house so I really don’t know what to do. I know how to look after a baby because when I was 8, I had to look after my sister after she was born and now and again we help look after his baby sister that just makes me want a baby even more.
I seriously don’t know what to do x
I am 17 years old. My Braylin Chase is due very soon, October 4th.
I can’t wait to hold him and love him. At least I know I’ll never have to worry about being alone again. He’ll be the one little man I know will always be there. FOB does not speak to me because he is still in love with me and will not do anything, but argue with me even when I try just talking about the baby. I’m not in love with him so I’m not gonna put myself through a lifetime of unhappiness because everyone THINKS that we should be together solely because it would be easier for us to raise Braylin. He hasn’t offered to help out one bit with his son except for the fact that he wants to see him some. That’s all he has interest in is seeing him. it takes more than that to be a father. I do have a boyfriend but I am terribly afraid he will leave me after Braylin gets here. But unfortunately, there’s no way for me to prevent myself from getting hurt because I won’t know the answer until Braylin gets here in October. My grandmother is the only person in my family who is helping support me and Braylin. I so terribly wish I were married and had a job so I could take care of and provide for my son, but I have no job and no income so I’m at a loss of what to do right now and it doesn’t help that no one in my town has accepted my application for a job. I can always try again after he gets here but I dunno if anything will have changed by then. I’ve applied everywhere available.
Well, this is my story.
