I found out I was pregnant in October.

At first, everything was crazy. I was scared but I knew I was going to keep him. My boyfriend had just entered the army and was leaving for basic training soon, up until then he went to my doctor’s appointment with me. Everything was going great!

I first felt my little boy move the day I turned 17 weeks. I was so happy I called everybody! 20 weeks came around and I got a little worried, my baby always moved so much, and I didn’t feel him all day! So I scheduled a doctor’s appointment. I knew in my heart that something wasn’t right.

The doctor did an ultrasound and said there was a little fluid on his brain, but that could go away just as soon as it came. He said don’t worry, but he made me an appointment with a specialist for the following week.

With all that was up there, I was so scared. I was in the car with my mom so I didn’t say too much. I didn’t want to worry her. I went back there and lay on the bed. As soon as she put the ultrasound to my stomach and I saw her face, I knew my little boy wasn’t here anymore.

She told me she couldn’t say anything. She had to get the doctor and when he came in, he just confirmed what I already knew. There was no heartbeat.

The following day, I gave birth to him. He was beautiful! But, so tiny.

They told me the umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck.

We buried him, but to this day, I always feel like he is here! I love him so much and the only thing that gets me through every day is the fact I know when I go to heaven, God will hand me my baby boy and I’ll raise him like I’m supposed to

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