Hey, I’m 17, and 4 weeks along. My boyfriend has hated this child with a passion for since he pulled out and saw the condom broke. “It’s not even a child yet” or “How can you do this to me?!” is all I hear. I know somewhere inside him, he knows it’s wrong. I just don’t know what to do; I can’t go into that room. I can’t kill my baby. I’m his or her’s mother, I’m supposed to protect my baby! Don’t get me wrong. He is the nicest man I know, just, money means a lot to him. He wants a well-paying, job and is scared we will have our child growing up in the “ghetto.” I told him that a child isn’t a curse, that it’s a blessing no matter what. Yes having a baby at 17 will make things a lot harder. But I believe it’s worth it.
Little bit of background information: We are a mixed couple, he is black and I am white. His parents are from Jamaica and don’t trust whites that much. Which I understand, there is a lot of racism. Anyways, today I told him I really wanted to keep our baby, that I couldn’t handle going to the doctor’s. He said that he would tell his mother and father that I lied to him, that I’m some crazy white girl just wanting a mixed baby. The thing is, I know they would believe that. And it hurts because I’m all alone. He told his sister and she said to keep it, then told her I wasn’t a few days later. No one will know the truth, my baby will grow up hated. I don’t know what to do. I am an adopted child, my mother gave me the chance to live! How can I turn this child’s chance down, when my mother was 13? I will never be able to live with myself.
The Abortion is for this coming Friday. It’s the only day I have time. I feel like running far away. I’m already starting to wonder why, why I have to live. Live to be a murder! I hate myself, and I haven’t done it yet. But if I don’t, I’ll be alone in the world. He will not be here, his family will hate me. My parents will believe the story. I’m stuck.
Please if you can help me, please help me.
I found out I was pregnant a day before Mother’s Day, and the day I missed my period.
The baby’s daddy is with me, and he’s just wonderful <3. Ily baby.
Boy name: Tristan Joel(Tj)
Girl: Sophia Abbrielle Alegria.
Okay, So I got my period when it was March 26, lasting for 5-6 days.
My cycles are around 36 days apart.
So April 3rd, I was expecting my period. I got it for three days only.
Then I was expecting my period the Saturday of Mother’s Day. Didn’t get it.
So I took two pregnancy tests. Positive. I got my blood work done. Positive.
So I’m confused. Am I 11 weeks pregnant? Or 5 weeks? It’s confusing.
I got to my first appointment tomorrow <3 Wish me luck!
Well, today I started my diet. I still have the bump where my baby was and lots and lots of fat on top of that- I suppose I have been comfort eating.
I’ve realized that the amount and what I am eating is making me poorly. So I put a stop to it today.
I’m eating healthy and exercising- so far so good :); Haven’t gone near chocolate and crisps, instead been eating fruit. Oh yeah, go me aha :D.
Also, we are planning on going away the beginning of August to Greece, Spain- somewhere like that so I want to be skinny for that.
And when I do fall pregnant, I can take pictures and show you my baby belly as I will be skinny and you will be able to see it 🙂
I also booked an appointment for the doctor’s for next week; so il let you all know how i get on.
17 in 7 days 😀 Not excited or anything aha!!
xx
Lost –
So I haven’t been on here in a while. A brief re-cap of my story is that I got engaged on 12/31. 5 days later, I found out I was pregnant, due 9/4. He basically forced and manipulated me to have an abortion. Exactly 1 year later, I was pregnant again and had my daughter Sofia on 9/11. She will be 2 this September. Now last week, I found out I’m pregnant again and he’s now telling me again to get another abortion. I am so depressed and distraught right now ….WTF?!?!?!?! I’m almost 26 ….. I’m not a kid. Why am I dealing with this? And he is almost 33.
Why are men so afraid and immature.
I have been reading all of these stories about these girls going through this and it makes my problem seem like nothing.
But I am so scared… I just found out that I am most likely pregnant… And it is so hard because the guy of my dreams (The father of the baby) is so close to me… But I’m not allowed to see him… I am so scared and I’m not so sure that I can take care of this baby as well as I could if I was older…
But abortion is not an option… And I don’t want to give my baby away…
