baby valentina

My baby was born on May 14, almost a month ago. It was a really long day. I went for an appointment and had to stay because my baby had to be born already. I was scared, they didn’t allow the baby’s father to be with me, so we were texting while I was with the doctors, but then I went out just to give him my things, it was 9 am (aprox). Now I wasn’t even allowed to keep my cell phone. We were really scared, and excited at the time. I stayed in a little room just looking around and I didn’t know when but I was sleeping. When I woke up, I was still in the same room. Sometimes, the nurse came and I asked her almost every 5 min “I’m sorry, do you what time is it?” I was so desperate, I just wanted to have my little girl… It wasn’t until 5.40 pm that I was almost going to sleep again!!! They got into the little room and I heard them but this time I didn’t open my eyes until I feel like the bed was moving, I opened my eyes and a nurse told me “We are going to surgery.”

Oh my God, now I was really awake. I realize that my baby wont be in my belly anymore, that I wouldn’t be able to take care of her. It wont depend on me anymore, and I realize anything could happened to her, I was really scared more than any time before in my life. I started crying, and I cry during the whole surgery. I could hear her crying, and the doctor put her beside me so I could gave her a kiss. She was born at 6.01pm  And she went at surgery. But She couldn’t have a primary close of her gastroschisis, so now she still at hospital, waiting to have another surgery. I still scared about she going to another surgery.

She is a little happy angel. She always has a smile on her face. And I know she will make it, even when she is really little. My Valentina is now 2.290 kg and 46 cms, and really brave as her name…..

Am I pregnat?

I have all the early symptoms but I am having an irregular period. I don’t have insurance so I can’t go see a doctor about this yet. I just want to know if I am or not. I don’t like not knowing. I am getting moody, sick, cramps, dizzy. Everything fits but my light periods.

Will someone please help me, I am kinda freaking out. Please someone, anyone.

My emotions

I have been waiting all of my life to have a baby and still waiting for it to happen.

Every time I missed my period for even a day or 2 days, I get pretty excited and I would say to myself “this might be it” but then I get my period. All my friends are all having children and its seems so easy for them to get pregnant. I don’t feel jealous or anything like that but I would say to myself “When would I get pregnant”. My husband & I are now trying to conceive and it started the beginning of May. We both know that we really want to have a kid. So, May 31, I started having brown spotting and it is now day 5. I took a pregnancy test this morning and it was negative. This brown spotting is unusual for me so I assume that I could be pregnant. But it’s Negative… I feel disappointed.

I’ll wait day 6,7,8, to take another pregnancy and maybe this time it will be positive. Cross fingers!

About Me

Hey all.

I live in Southern California in the LA area. I love my family dearly and spend most of my free time with them. I also enjoy crafts, baking, and watching movies. When I’m not working with Kraft, you can find me playing computer games.

My Story

I became pregnant at 17. I had no idea until one morning, a week before my senior year, I started puking my guts up. I was constantly tired. So tired I couldn’t even drag myself out of bed, I’d sleep through my alarm clock. I didn’t know what was going on, but I hadn’t noticed my period was absent for 2 months prior. I never had a regular one so I wasn’t worried. When I looked at my boyfriend and told him I was pregnant, he denied it. “You can’t be, it isn’t possible.” He said it about a million times that day. I was on birth control, and we had used condoms, but it was still true. So I went to the doctor, and she told me that I was in fact 10 weeks pregnant. Before I could get my first ultrasound, my mom sent me away to an all-girls home. I was there for 3 1/2 months with no communication to my boyfriend. He didn’t even know where I was. When I finally got my first ultrasound, I was 18 weeks…I found out the sex of my baby, and that it was twins!

Having twins didn’t hit me until they were both in my arms. It definitely has not been easy. I have no support from my family, because they think I should have given them up. But I knew I was going to be able to do this, I knew I could prove everyone wrong. But being a teenage mother has been the most difficult thing in my life. I didn’t finish high school, so I watched all my friends have an amazing senior prom, walk across stage, go to football games, do senior activities, and be a teenager after high school…

I used to have a lot of resentment towards them for not being able to have my senior year. But I’ve realized now that I wouldn’t trade anything for this experience. Because for some reason, I was blessed with two beautiful babies, because twins are nowhere in our families. Everyone always asks “Do twins run in the family?” I smile back and reply “They do now…”

1 already, Pregnant again!

I have just turned 22 and already have a beautiful son who is almost 2. But a few weeks ago i found out that i was pregnant again. The guy im with now is not the father of my first son, but the father of the one i am carrying. He can’t be with me as we are of different backgrounds, and well he said he is not ready to be a father. He is 27 years old and is indian,  i wan this baby but iam confused and don’t want to make the wrong decision. I love this guy with all my heart, but i don’t want to wreck his family who are also going through alot of things at the moment. I know he’s  the one for me and well i knew we couldn’t be together the first day we met, so i don’t know if we are in a relationship or what. I’m carrying his child but he wants me to have an abortion, as he thinks i still have a little more exploring to do, as i am still young. And also says what if i meet another guy and i have 2 kids to 2 different men. I undertsand all that but i dont want to make the wrong decision……………….Confused!