OK, WHEN I FIRST BECAME PREGNANT, AND I TALKED TO MY CHILD’S FATHER AND WE DISCUSSED EVERYTHING AND HE SEEMED AS IF IT WASN’T HAPPENING OR NOT TAKING THE SITUATION SERIOUS IN MY OPINION. AND AT FIRST, HIS RESPONSE WHEN I ASKED HOW HE FELT ABOUT THE SITUATION WAS IT DOESN’T MATTER  AND THAT HE’S GOIN TO  DO WHATEVER I WANT TO DO. THEN AS THE PRESSURE WHINDED DOWN, STOMACH’S GOT BIGGER AND I BEGAN TO SLEEP MORE IT BECAME APPARENT THAT I WOULD HAVE TO FINALLY REVEAL TO MY MOTHER MY” BIGGEST SECRET”.  I’M CURRENTLY 17 YEARS OLD WITH 2 YEARS LEFT IN HIGH SCHOOL.

WHILE IN SCHOOL ONE DAY, TOWARDS THE LAST 4 DAYS OF SCHOOL UNTIL IT IS ALL OVER, A GIRL AND I BEGAN TO THROW DRINKS AT EACH OTHER, PLAYING OF COURSE . MY PRINCIPAL OF COURSE WOULDN’T THINK SO, SO I WAS WITHDRAWN OUT OF SCHOOL. MY MOTHER WHO’S TOO CAUGHT UP IN HER HIGH PROFILE LIFE WAS IRATE.

LONG STORY SHORT, SHE’D BOUGHT A PREGNANCY TEST FOR ME TO TAKE. I’M GUESSING SHE’D ALREADY KNOWN. MOTHER’S INTUITION I GUESS. HOWEVER, SHE BROUGHT UP THE ABORTION ISSUE AND SPOKE SOLELY ON THAT AND ALL OTHER ALTERNATIVES WERE OUT OF THE QUESTION IN HER EYES.

SHE ENDED UP SENDING ME TO MY HOMETOWN OF CHICAGO TO LIVE WITH MY AUNT AND RAISE MY CHILD ALL ALONE ON MY OWN. WHEN SHE SENT ME, I LEFT WITH NO PHONE, NO MONEY, 1 BAG OF CLOTHING, AND SHOES IN THE SAME BAG, SO YOU COULD IMAGINE HOW MANY OUTFITS I COULD PACK IN THAT BAG. BEFORE I LEFT, I CALLED MY UNBORN CHILD’S GRANDMOTHER. AND INFORMED HER THAT I WAS EVEN PREGNANT BECAUSE SHE DIDNT EVEN KNOW THAT I WAS. HER SON, WHICH IS MY CHILD’S FATHER, DIDNT EVEN TELL HER. AND I TOLD HER I’M KEEPING MY BABY AND SHE REPEATED “YOU’RE KEEPING IT”? AS IF I SHOULDN’T. HE HAS A CHILD ALREADY . BUT I WANT TO KEEP MY CHILD. I MAKE EVERY EFFORT TO INVOVLE THEIR FAMILY WITH MY UNBORN CHILD. HOWEVER, I FEEL MY EFFORTS GO UNNOTICED.

I’M 8 WEEKS PREGANANT AND MY DUE DATE IS DEC 29. I JUST HOPE BY THEN MY FAMILY WILL MANAGE AND FIND AN EQUILIBRIUM.