Hey Becky, I have a story to tell that I hope will encourage the many girls out there.
When I was 16 and in 11th grade I became pregnant (in January), I was dating a wonderful guy and he was very supportive. I come from a Christian home, so when I told my parents they blew up, I remember crying & saying how sorry i was, we of course had to tell his family, and they were less angry. I ended up having to go out & buy everything with my boyfriend because my parents were unable to handle it, I was so hurt & confused that my parents could just ignore me like that & I soon became very close w/ my boyfriend. We bought everything together & took it to my house.
My friends were supportive of me, and I ended up talking to my school, I decided to do out of home schooling w/ my school, teaching myself the lessons, & sending them back in w/ my boyfriend. But i was dealt a suprise shortly during one of my doctor sessions I found out I was having twins. I didn’t want to know the sex of my babies but went back out into the store & bought double what I already had.
When summer finally came around I was ready for a break, the morning sickness, depression, & the feeling of being dirty fat & ugly was overwhelming, I somehow got through it all to start the next year of school. I was so happy to be able to still be in school and be pregant. I had my babies ( a boy & a girl) and cared for them while still doing school, my sister soon became the babysitter, so i could finish my senior year. I ended up marrying my boyfriend, and having my 2 babies Mark & Adanna, and finished high school.
Those of you who think of ever having an abortion, think of your baby first, they deserve to live. I am in college now & my babies are perfectly healthy & so am I, & most of all my now husband is still w/ me. Maybe in a few years I’ll have another baby, but I am so gald I never had an abortion, I’m just thinking of all I would’ve missed with out them.
Danielle
Dear Danielle,
Your story is very encouraging. You found yourself in a difficult situation and, with the help of your boyfriend, you rose to the occasion and did what you knew to be right. You truly are a standupgirl!
Twins! Wow! That must have been a shocker! Your job is harder, but they will enjoy having each other to grow up with. Every twin I know, just loves being a twin! I know I always wanted one.
It is so wonderful to hear that you were able to finish school and get married. I’m sure that will be an inspiration to many girls who visit the website. Many girls feel like they’ll have to give all that up if they decide to have their baby. Keep up the good work, you are doing great!
Luv,
Dear Becky,
Thank you for your Web site. I have read some of the stories, and touched by all of them. I have a story that I would like anyone who is thinking about having an abortion to know.
I was 22 years old, separated from my ex-husband with a 18 month old…and I was lost. I was dating a guy I met, and everything was well, he was good to my son and I. I couldn’t get a divorce yet till I was separated for a year in the state of NC. Sure enough I got pregnant. What was I going to do? This was illegal, I could lose custody of my son. I contacted a lawyer, and got some unhelpful info from him, that led my option of abortion open. I thought no-way I could not do this, I love children so much, especially my own, but I didn’t want to lose my son that was already here.
I talked to my boyfriend about it, and he said it was up to me. Well thanks alot, I felt like I had no support, no guidance..nothing. So I decided to go to the clinic, and ask about it. They told me about the procedure, and did an ultrasound..and they said it was not a fetus yet, and I was only 6 weeks pregnant, and that I would have to wait two more weeks! WHAT!! That’s all I could think, two more weeks of agony on what to do. The thought of losing this child, or the one I already have was destroying me.
Two weeks went by and yes I had made the gruesome decision, and went back to the clinic ALONE. Alone is what I was, and I knew I would have to drive home alone also.
I filled out paperwork, paid 300.00 and waited and cried until my name was called. They called me, put in a room, on a GYN table, gave me a shot of pitosin( to star contractions, than came in with this vacuum suction machine, put medal rods into my cervix to stretch it and began the most horrifying thing that I could of ever imagined, I was in such pain, sick to my stomach, and crying sooo badly.
The procedure was over, and everyone left,they told me to get dressed. I tried to stand up, but I fell to the ground throwing up. I finally managed to get dressed, and they sent me to a small room filled with bean bag cushions on the floor filled with other girls, who had just went through the procedure. Oh my gosh, we were packed in there like animals. I was feeling so horrible,as,sick,nasty,and most of all filled with guilt.
I finally left, I thought it was over, I thought that was all the pain I would have to go through. Well I was wrong the pain 6 years to the day is still here. It is the pain still inside of me. I have tried everything to let it go. I am a faithful Christian, and I know God forgives me, but how do you forgive yourself. I am married to that guy, and we had two kids of our own. I look into their eyes and I miss my other child that I could of had.
I just want to let anyone who is thinking about an abortion, to think about the pain that not only comes with the procedure, but the everlasting pain and guilt for the rest of their lives. You try so hard to not think about it, but it’s always there in everyday reminders. God Bless you all who know the pain, and God Bless you all who might endure it. Godspeed to you all. Becky please pass this along to our Nation. God Bless you for all that you have done, and for what you are doing.
Love,
Carolyn
Dear Carolyn,
One of the things they don’t tell you at an abortion clinic is how much abortion can affect you even in the long term. So many girls suffer both physically and emotionally after having an abortion. It is a day that you can never forget, no matter how much you try and rationalize or ignore what happened. It takes some women up to 15 years to start to deal with the reality of what abortion is and what it has done to them. Until then they live in a state of denial.
Have you considered getting post-abortion counselling? There are places you can go for this. Try going to these websites www.projectrachel.net or www.afterabortion.com These both deal with post abortion healing. Forgiving yourself may take some time. Ask God to help you to do this. How could God refuse a request like that? He loves you so much and He wants you to be whole once again.
Luv,
My story, I am Benjamin, when I was born on January 30th 1984 my parents were on drugs (probably too many to know), were not financially stable, were not mentally, physically capable or willing to take on another child (my sister was born a year and a half before). Understand that if this is not enough… (more…)
When I told Alex he told me there was no way that he could be a father. He told me I was on my own. He basically told me to have an abortion. I should have turned to God. I should have trusted Him. Abortion was the easiest way out. My parents would never know that I slept with my boyfriend. My parents would not be humiliated. I would never have to live on social assistance. (more…)
Hello. I just wanted to say how helpful this site has been to me. I just found out last week I was pregnant, although I suspected it long before, and I was so lost and confused about what to do. I felt I had no where to turn and that everyone would hate me or think I was a slut and no one would be there for me.
I was thinking about an abortion. I cried myself to sleep last night because I hated myself for even considering it, but really what other choice was there for me? I’m 18, I’m in college, my boyfriend comes from a conservative family, we can’t afford to feed ourselves we can’t have a child!
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Dear Becky — I just wish I had found your website sooner. I was too scared to look at anything on the internet incase my parents found out. I don’t really know where to begin. I suppose right at the very start. I’m seventeen now but when I was sixteen I was on holiday with a couple of friends in June where I had unprotected sex with a guy I met. I know how stupid it was… (more…)
