I know everyone always says you’re too young to be in love, and I always say it to people my age too. But this guy…
I’ve known him since the beginning of 7th grade. We dated all school year and created a lot of feelings for each other. In the summer, it didn’t last cuz my mom wouldn’t let me out of the house. He broke up with me and this girl got into him and she kept trying to get sex from him and they did. And all of 8th grade, they dated on and off and he didn’t really care for her, but I guess he was really looking for sex, Well, now she is pregnant and due in September. He regrets everything, and I was the only girl he’s ever dated that he hasn’t used for sex.
I know he loves me but most people just don’t get it.
June 16th, I found out I was pregnant.
At first, I was a little happy, sad, and confused all in one. I was nervous. It was exactly 2 weeks before my 20th birthday. I told my boyfriend. We both came to the conclusion that neither one of us were ready to be parents. I was 6 weeks and 6 days along. So June 26th, I was scheduled to get started the first part of the procedure. (It was 2 parts: I did the abortion pill). As I was sitting in the room talking to the doctor, all I could hear was my baby saying “Mommy, don’t do it” or maybe it was my conscience. Either way, I didn’t listen to it and I swallowed the pill. I so regret doing that. I swear I wanted to get up and run out of there and keep the seed that I had in me. The next day when I took the 2nd n final pill… That was the worst pain I had ever been in, both physically and emotionally. The mere thought of flushing MY baby down the toilet hurt so much.
It’s been 17 days since the procedure and I feel so low right now. This is by far the lowest I have ever felt. This is not how I planned on spending my summer, all down and depressed. And the worst part about it is that my boyfriend isn’t even here to console me. Neither was he there on the day of the procedure or the next day. And that just makes it so much worse because I feel like I’m alone right now and I hate feeling this way. Every day, I think about the decision I made and I regret it from the bottom of my heart.
On 6/27, my baby went to heaven.
Okay, I was bitten by our dog a while ago. I’m 90% sure I’m pregnant because I’m delayed in my period. 🙁 Then I have many symptoms already. 🙁
The doctor asked me if I’m pregnant because she will give me a medicine that is not allowed for pregnant girls. 🙁 But unfortunately, I said NO, I’m not pregnant. 🙁 Cuz I was with my auntie and grandma. 🙁 What should I do?! The medicine is for my wounds. 🙁 The baby is like 17 days in my stomach already. 🙁
If the baby will die inside of me, what should I do?! Do I need the cleaning? My boyfriend is the only one who knows that I’m prego. :(((((( HELP! :((((
To you my unborn child, my son
so much I need to say.
To let you know where I was at on your dying day.
I was so full of fear myself, incapable to see.
That giving life to you, my son, was my responsibility
A child myself, I didn’t know the options that I had.
So I made the choice to let you die although my heart was sad.
My parents had forsaken me, disowned me as their own.
I couldn’t handle another way, for I was all alone.
The nightmare of that day, my son, it lingers deep inside.
For along with you, my child, a part of me has died.
Your father put a ring on my finger and told me I was brave.
He told me he would love me till the day we went away.
You’re the child that I never held, who never got to live.
Who never got to feel inside the love I had to give.
The son your father never knew,
The grandson his parents lost.
Young child I was, and you, you paid the cost.
People say that you’ll forget, that time will heal the ache.
But I carry the burden of you, my son, the child I did forsake.
Love you sweetheart xoxox
I am on birth control, but I’ve had unprotected sex a lot.
The past few weeks, I’ve felt really weird. My way of explaining it is when you have a hose in a pool, against the side. It feels like what is happening inside my stomach. My stomach has been hurting and I used to be skinny, but now it pops out a little bit. I’ve also been very dizzy and I need to go to the doctor’s sometime this week. I’ve been getting sick lately and I don’t know what’s going on.
With you, I could just get a quick answer right now.
I don’t really know how these blog things work, and I don’t think I have many friends on here yet to read this, but it’s here for when people feel like reading it 🙂
I’m almost 20 weeks pregnant with my first baby. I find out the sex tomorrow. When I found out, I was in the bath. Me and my fiancé were always safe, and it was just something that happened. Immediately, there was no way we were going to consider abortion or adoption. We wanted our baby. So here I am today, very much looking forward to meeting my beautiful little baby, in a very stable relationship, with good finances, and a very supportive family behind me. My fiancé’s family isn’t so supportive at times, but heck. Everyone has little problems. But right now I’d say my life is pretty good right now.
We’re looking to move house pretty soon, so we can start on the nursery, and start our lives. 🙂
