It’s about midnight now… I can’t sleep. I’ve had trouble sleeping since my abortion.
I was only sixteen at the time… and the dad was a total jerk… I feel completely alone. None of my friends are talking to me right now and neither is the person who promised to take care of me… This is so hard… All the time, I think about the clinic and the place I was… and the feel of my baby boy and how I couldn’t keep him. And that my other friend is so happy with their baby girl… and no one cares. I feel completely and utterly alone… and I hate this feeling. I’ve been getting ignored for two days now. I don’t understand what I did to deserve anything like this, I didn’t do anything this horrible… I miss my baby. I was seventeen weeks… and I only wanted to protect him… but maybe he’s watching me, angered by what I did… Maybe he hates me… Those are the only things I can ever think about… He seems to watch over his dad just fine… but lets me suffer constantly… I don’t want my baby to hate me for trying to protect him… Protect him from the irresponsible dad he could’ve had… Or the separation from me that he would have suffered… It’s not fair… My boyfriend didn’t want to protect him and he’s completely fine, and I did…
And now I’m upset all night and I can’t sleep…
I started talking to this boy I met in January. We used to hang out every single day so we decided to go on a date to catch up. I told him I had a baby now, and told him about my ex and everything else that had happened since we stopped talking.
He was shocked that I had a baby, but he wanted to meet her so I brought him back to my house. He absolutely loved her.
We started hanging out all the time and he asked me to be his girlfriend.
I asked him if it would be weird since I had a baby and he said that he doesn’t care if it was his or not. He would treat her like she was his, no matter what.
She loves him. Every time she sees him, she giggles and smiles the whole time.
A few months later, he proposed and I said Yes!
About a week ago, he was talking about when he left for basic training and was joking about me being pregnant and he said that he would be happy if I was… I was like well, squish that thought because it’s not gonna happen!
The very next morning… I got sick. He looked at me, laughed, and said “Told you”. I said I’m not pregnant, I’m just sick. But then I realized my boobs had been hurting too. I told him I was going to get food and got 2 tests. I took 1 when I got home and it was negative. I threw it at him and said told you…
4th of July, we were going to have a HUGE party. (I never party. I’m ALWAYS with my daughter. I haven’t had a night without her since she was born.) So I was going to drink. She was going to be with his mom and sisters so I knew she would be safe. I woke up 4th of July and went to the bathroom and there was a light red/pink color blood in my panties. So just for the hell of it, I took the other test to be safe since I was going to be drinking that night…POSITIVE!
So, for the first 4 months of this pregnancy, I’ll be alone! 🙁
So, I’m 3 weeks and 4 days pregnant (maybe). My boyfriend’s at camp and I’m making it through, sorta. I’m still trying to decide if I am pregnant. Because this morning, I had soccer training and we ran about 30 lengths of a football field, take or give a few if you will, and I was winded, but I wasn’t in the shape where I couldn’t do it anymore. Can a girl while she’s pregnant exercise intensely? Because I have soccer basically every day, give or take a few days and I’m not in any pain or anything, well pregnancy-wise, but still keep in mind, I’m not officially sure if I am or not.
And as for baby names, we have talked about it and if it’s a boy we’re naming him Bentley Wes, and if it’s a girl: Nevaeh Ivory 🙂 But we aren’t sure if we’re keeping the baby, even though it would be a very wise and mature decision to look into adoption. But, if I enrolled in a maternity high school or whatever they are called, we might be able to raise the baby ourselves. But then again, we’re only 14-year-olds and not parent material.
I still haven’t told my parents, I want to wait awhile and see if I actually am. Because I don’t want to tell them now and then later have it be a false alarm.
I’ll write another blog later 🙂 Tell me what you think about the names, or anything else you think would be a bright idea 🙂
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I’m 16 years old and I’m a senior.
Me and my bf (now ex) started dating on January 15th. He was a year younger than me, 4 grades behind me, and soo immature. He cheated on me a few times and I kept letting it go (not sure why). In August, I started getting really depressed and cutting myself (because of family issues). My dad died on November 24th and my mom died on March 13th, two years later. So I was forced to live with my sister, her 3 kids, my little brother, and her husband… He hit me all the time and pretty much made me hate myself. In September, I was put in a mental hospital. They had to do all kinds of tests when I first got there just to check everything… One of them was a pregnancy test… It was positive.
I went home 3 days later. I wasn’t going to tell my boyfriend about the baby…I wasn’t getting an abortion. I guess I was just planning on telling him it wasn’t his because I knew he wouldn’t want it and wouldn’t want anything to do with it. I didn’t tell my sister because they would’ve kicked me out. In December, I turned 16, started partying a lot, skipping school, sneaking out, and spending a lot of time with boys. My friend made me meet her ex because she thought we would be perfect together. We liked each other and spent almost every day together, I was going to dump my boyfriend for him, but my friend decided to lie to both of us. She told me he had a gf and he didn’t really want me and was telling him lies about me… We ended up going our separate ways and I stayed with my baby’s dad, In February, I found out what I was having (at first I didn’t want to know) and I decided to tell my boyfriend that I was pregnant… I was barely showing. I didn’t actually look pregnant till about 7 1/2 weeks. I had her a few months later. We stayed together for a few more months then he cheated on me so I left him.
Read part 2 if you want to know the more recent story!
So here’s my story–
In the early part of June, I went on vacation with my boyfriend and his family and a couple of other families to a place in Utah. We had a blast. We were cautious about what we did even though we’ve never been sexually active and we don’t plan to be soon either. But, on June 11, on the ride home, we got a little crazy. He put his fingers on me and I was touching him as well.
The day we got back, I was supposed to start my period, but guess what? It’s about 3 weeks later and I missed my period. We are both scared. We can’t remember if he touched himself while he was ejaculating and then touching me after. I researched on the web that there’s a slight chance you could get pregnant, but with my luck, I could be pregnant right this second.
I’m turning 14 in August. I start high school in August also and there’s a possibility of me being pregnant. Great, now what? My boyfriend tells me to live life until we finally figure out the answer. I don’t dare go to Target and get a pregnancy test because I’m scared of what people will think when they see me go to the checkout stand with a pregnancy test in hand.
I’ve been getting slight pain in my back, like period cramps, but I haven’t gotten any bleeding. I’m sleeping till almost noon every day and I have a feeling my mom has some sort of idea that there’s a possibility that I could be pregnant.
I took the pregnancy calculator on here and I think I am pregnant. Because the day I conceived was June 11th, and that was the day we left and when things got crazy. If I am, I’m 3 weeks and 2 days along. The due date is March 3rd.
On Friday, July 1st, I hung out with him. I told him about all the research that I had done on the web and that there’s a possibility I could be pregnant. My periods have always been irregular, but I’ve never gone this long without one even though I know girls my age miss periods every so often, but I think I’m pregnant.
And I have no clue how to tell my parents, how my relatives will accept me, and how God will accept me now. I’m going to be a disgrace to my parents, I snuck behind their backs doing stuff a 13-year-old girl shouldn’t be doing.
Even though I haven’t been having morning sickness or dizziness, I still don’t know what to think. Some nights, I can’t sleep at night, but when I fall asleep, it’s around 2 and I sleep until noon almost everyday, and all I can think about is me and Bailey’s future. I might be pregnant and I have no clue what the hell I’m supposed to do.
One thing’s for sure, I’m not keeping the baby and I’m not a believer in abortion, so my only choice? Adoption.
I’m about to step into Hell.
Oh boy. If I am, God please send me a sign and help me through this journey of this pregnancy.
Hey everyone. I’m 15 and I just recently been having some weird symptoms. I was wondering if someone could please help me out?
So like a month ago, I got my period but I only had it for like a day and then it went away. So I guess I spotted. But I didn’t think anything of it because my normal period cycle is like that… But then last week, I didn’t get mine and I usually get it one week before my best friend. And I never got mine? So now I’m getting a little suspicious because the symptoms I’m having aren’t my usual period symptoms. Some of my symptoms are that my breasts usually hurt, but not this bad. It’s to the point where I can’t even wear a bra. I’ve been so tired lately and everyone in the summer is out partying, but I can’t even pick myself out of bed because I’ve been sooo tired it’s unbearable. I’ve also been having to go to the bathroom like more times than I usually have to go… like 4 times every hour. Is this normal?
I don’t know what to do. :/
