latest news!!

Okay so, today I went to the clinic at my school and I found out I am actually pregnant and the doctor said I’m 2 months already…

MY STORY

My story…….. When I was 13, I fell in love for the first time with a guy! I loved that kid to death…

I lost my virginity 2 weeks before my 15th birthday and you know how people say you can’t get prego the first time. Well, you can… I found out 3 weeks later I was going to be a mommy. I was really scared and didn’t know what to do. I told him and he was just as worried as I was. We told our parents. My mom was upset. She cried for days but she said she would back me up with whatever I chose to do. He got me a promise ring for our 1 year together and I thought everything was goin to get better,(I was keeping the baby).

After a while, I was really happy. I couldn’t wait to be a mommy. but I lost the baby a month and a half in. I lost the baby. The doctor said my body wasn’t healthy enough to have a baby. I was devastated and so was he. So we tried again and again and finally 7 months later, I got prego again, and sadly, I lost the baby 2 months in the sec time. I was destroyed. He was right by my side the whole time. At 2 years, he asked me to marry him and I said yes. He gave me a beautiful ring and every thing. Did I forget to say his parents hated me, and me and him lived next to each other. So I was the girl next door….. I had to move. We moved 45 min away from each other and his parents cut us off. They took his car keys, cell phone, computer, every thing so he couldn’t talk to me. And I found out after 2 years and 7 months of being together, he cheated on me. It broke my heart into pieces. =[  But I was lucky that my new boyfriend came along and picked up the pieces. We have been together for 6 months and i really do love this boy. =]

There is more to my story if you would like to know about things then please let me know.

My decision!!!

I have decided that I am going to keep my baby!!

I am so completely excited!!! I am still nervous, but I look forward to this pregnancy. I even got up the nerve to tell my parents, and they took it in a way that I was completely surprised!! I went over there thinking that they were going to freak and yell, and tell me what a horrible decision I have made, and they hugged me and congratulated me!! It was so weird! There have not been many moments where I have been congratulated by my parents, so it is really weird. My little sister freaked, she was so excited!!  She went to Walmart last night and bought bottles and toys!!!

I am so friggin happy!!

April Rene

This is my story

I just had a baby girl on January 6th.

8 pounds, 16 ounces, 21 inches long

I have an amazing baby girl. I couldn’t ask for anything better… When I found out I was pregnant, I didn’t know what to do… I wasn’t with my boyfriend at the time. We had broken up in April of last year… and I found out I was pregnant at the end of June. My friend made me take a test but I didn’t want to… It took no time to tell the results… The next day, I went to another friend’s house and we went out to dinner to take my mind off things… Well, that just made matters worse… I ended up seeing his parents, who I haven’t talked to in 3 months… Same with my ex at the time… Well, my friends said that was a sign and I needed to tell him… So we called and he came right over… We talked and decided to keep her…

Well, the parents took it the other way… We fought about it. I got ignored but in the end, it was the best thing even though me and her father fight all the time we stay together for her… I couldn’t even imagine not having her… and anyone who thinks they have to because of their parents, you’re wrong… All you have to do is tell the person that’s about to perform it and they by law can’t perform it… I made sure because I wanted to fight for her till the bitter end…

I believe that if you’re going to have sex without anything, then you need to take up responsibility!

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Without you

Every night, I rub my belly and wish you were here with me.

Every time I see a pregnant person or a baby, it reminds me of you. Sometimes I wonder whether you would look like me or your daddy. You were with me for 9 weeks and you knew how much I loved you because I would tell you that every night before we went to bed. I miss eating seafood and peanut butter for you…drinking tang because mommy couldn’t even handle water! There’s not a moment that goes by that I don’t think of you. I know I would be the best mom in the world and you would be so loved. Tears are running down my eyes and I think about all the girls that have had their babies. They are so lucky.

I’m sorry I couldn’t do the same for you, my angel… Your daddy and your nasty granny didn’t think it was the right time… But don’t ever think you weren’t wanted because I wanted you more than the world itself… I wanted you the day I found out you had chosen me to be your mommy. I was scared but I was so happy… Time seemed to stop and all I could think of for those 9 weeks was you. I miss you so much. I wish you could be here with me then I wouldn’t feel so empty.

Daddy is ready to have a baby now so if you can, please come back to me. Please. I’m tired of taking birth control. I’m tired of the life I’m living. I’m ready for you. I’m taking real good care of myself. I’m preparing my body just for you or your little brother or sister. No more drugs, little alcohol… I’m ready. I’ll always think of you. I’ll always love you and hopefully one day you will come back to me. Or someday you will have a little sister or brother. Whatever happens, I’ll be ready and i will love my baby more than anything in the world.

“I love you forever, I love you for always, as long as I’m living, My baby you’ll be”

Little Princess

I’m 21 years old and I’m here to tell u all my story.

I was born in Brazil, but have been living in Qatar (middle east) for 17 years. Life here is supposed to be perfection… Everybody has money, everyone has a good time, everyone is happy. I grew up with everything a girl could want…a loving family, a great education, friends, and money. I’ve always been happy, till I was about 15 when I started cutting myself… It started out as a harmless little spiral that I still have on my hand…then it just kept getting worse. I’d realized that it was better to feel physical pain than emotional pain. That was also the year I met my boyfriend (the one) but he didn’t know about it then becoz I kept it a secret from everybody. A few years went by and I was diagnosed with depression. Nobody really understood why I had it because I always seemed “so happy all the time”. By the time, I was 20, I’d tried killing myself tons of times, almost sent 2 the psychiatric hospital many times but managed 2 talk my way out of it…

Ya, it was a major Britney moment in my life! However, that year, I became pregnant from the same guy I’d been seeing since I was 15. We’d always talked about marriage and kids but when the moment finally came, he panicked. When we both found out, we were both really scared (I was happy!). But he told me I was getting an abortion becoz there was no way he was ready for it. Notice how it was all about him all of a sudden. I agreed with him but as time went by, I got more and more attached to my baby. I’d look at my stomach in the mirror, talk to it at night and I’d always be caught holding my belly. He tried his best not 2 get attached but it didn’t work.

The day I told my mom was the day my boyfriend and I had agreed that we would get married and keep the baby (according to Gatari Law, you have 2 be married 2 have a baby). My best friend told her coz I didn’t have the guts and when she got into the car, she made me feel awful. She kept talking about how I wasn’t keeping it and blablabla. We ended up at my boyfriend’s house to talk to his mom and he just locked himself in his room and never came out…like a kid! I just sat in the kitchen while my mom went on and on about how I wasn’t keeping it because I was still in university and a bunch of other excuses. I kept saying that no, I WAS going 2 keep the baby and still go to school…that my boyfriend was gonna go talk to my dad and everything would be sorted out. She wouldn’t hear it…I cried and cried…while my BOYFRIEND was still in his room and left me alone there with no one to defend me.

I ended up going to a different country to get the abortion against my will. My mom made sure that I went to the best hospital and stayed in a maternity suite when I thought I deserved to sleep on the street after what I was going to do. The first time I saw my baby was on the same day of my abortion and I remembered how I kept asking the doctor if my baby was healthy. I was so happy to see my baby… Words cant even describe it… But I knew I wouldn’t get to keep it. A few hours later, I woke up in this huge hospital suite with my mom next to me and I just cried and cried till I couldn’t take it anymore.

When I came back to Qatar, I’d completely flipped. My outbursts had gotten worse and so had my depression… All I did was cry, hurt myself, and make sure my mother and my boyfriend knew how much I hated them. Then I was sent to a shrink AGAIN and diagnosed with borderline personality disorder… Let’s just say I was pretty crazy!

I’m 21 now and changed to the better… I stopped hurting myself and people around me but sometimes I still cry over the loss of my baby. I’ll never forget the 25th of March, the day i saw my baby for the first time, and the day he/she was taken from me. I know that my baby is still with me somehow… Wherever he/she is, I hope my baby is happy and knows how much I love him/her. Now my boyfriend wants to start a family. He’s out of the country but he comes back tomorrow and he says we have a lot to talk about regarding this family thing. I’m so happy!! And scared at the same time because I am NOT losing another baby no matter what anybody says. I just really hope I get the happy ending that so many girls and women have gotten.

People may think I have everything but I have nothing until I have my baby in my arms.