This Time

I’ve sat back and watched this all happen for long enough now. I’m waking myself up and shaking off the dust.

My new attitude: I can handle anything that throws itself in my path. Bring it on. After all the torment, deceit, guilt, and stress, I’m picking myself up now and I will not be knocked down again. I’m over my life role as the star in a soap opera, this has gone beyond ridiculous. I’ve spoken to family, friends, and read some books. I’m having a darling baby and I’ve stood by long enough watching you ruin your own life and attempting to manipulate me and ruin mine. You haven’t succeeded thus far and this time, I will not sit back and watch you try again. I love this little angel inside of me and you are creating a war zone outside for them, I will not allow it. I’ve never let a soul do what you’ve done to me, I’m responsible for allowing it to get this bad. This time, it’s enough. Go ahead and try to manipulate my feelings, thoughts, and life. I’ll enjoy taking the hits that come my way, because now I am stronger.

This time it’s not about you, you, you, it’s about life. I’m choosing this little life over your promise of a slow death. I have all the weapons I need, I have God, family, friends, courage, knowledge, and my power back. This time, you will not take any of that away from me. No longer shall the past linger over me, the future is fast approaching. This time you’ve chosen the wrong chick to mess with. I am a mother now and you will not take that away from me. You will not have any influence on my life, my friends’ lives or my family’s lives. You’ve lost your power and I’ve regained mine, and you’ve really made me mad. This time there is no next time, you need help, get it or get gone.

This time, I’m ready.

EVER HEARD OF GERITOL

HEY, I WANTED TO KNOW, HAS ANYONE EVER HEARD OF OR USED GERITOL…?

BECAUSE ME AND MY HUSBAND BEEN TRYING TO GET PREGNANT FOR ABOUT A YEAR NOW… SO MY AUNT TOLD ME TO TAKE SOME GERITOL, SHE SAYS IT HAS A BABY IN EVERY BOTTLE; BUT I DON’T WANT TO USE IT UNTIL I KNOW THAT SOMEONE REALLY USED AND GOT PREGNANT FROM IT.

PLEASE IF YOU READ, I REALLY NEED ADVICE BECAUSE WE REALLY WANNA HAVE A BABIE

mommy loves you

To my unborn child,

First thing first, I want you to know that Mommy loves you very much and no matter what happens, you will always have my heart… Things are a little rough right now. I try not to stress myself because I don’t want to harm you. Me and your father have been getting into it a lot lately… He doesn’t want me to have you… In his mind, it’s either you or him… But I chose you becuz guys will come and go but you are my flesh and blood and I will not let anything or anyone hurt you…

Yes, you are very painful but feeling you move around inside me lets me know that you are fine… I really hope that you are a boy… I want you to be a way better man then your father… And if you turn out to be a girl, you will be mommy’s princess and I will teach you to be better then me. I don’t want you making the same mistakes I did… I know I am going to miss out on a lot… This is my senior year of high school… the best year ever… But the fun can wait becuz I have a child that needs me…

Everyone says that I should just abort you but I tells them that it is easy for them to tell me to get rid of you but if they was in my position, it would be hard… Well, I doubt if your father will be around but I will tell you a lil about him… He is well, he was a great guy. Mommy really loved him..[[that’s how you came along..becuz I really didn’t want kids.]] You has a little sister that is adorable… I hope one day that you can meet them all… But even if you don’t… Just know that you has your mother. You will have a wonderful godfather that really wishes you was his child.. You will be loved by many. So baby please, don’t think that you are unwanted.. You are the most amazing that that has ever happened to me. I want you to always remember that….

Love, your mother

Can’t wait till you get here

Confused with no support

Hi, I am 20 years old. I’ve been with my boyfriend for a year and one month now.

I found out I was pregnant when I was two months along. He has never wanted the baby and has threatened to kill himself if I didn’t agree to go through with the abortion. Soo I reluctantly agreed and left him the responsibility of setting up the appointments with the family planning clinics, seeing as this was something that he wanted and wasn’t going back on.

The thing is, I am now 18 weeks pregnant. In NZ, it is now illegal to get an abortion. He still hasn’t set anything up and he has just found that abortion is not an option for me anymore, unless I have it done in Australia, which I know, due to my financial circumstances I can’t afford. I know for a fact that from day one, I have always wanted to keep it, and now that’s it’s too late for me to get the abortion done here in NZ, he’s still in no mood to negotiate other options, like keeping it or giving it up for adoption. It’s either I find a way to get rid of baby or he will kill himself. My parents also know about my pregnancy now, and they too want me to have an abortion. They said there’s too many babies already with my older sister pregnant with her second child, and to go finish studying and get a degree.

I want the baby, it’s kicking now and the feeling is amazing. Just a wonderful feeling, always brings a smile to my day. I would be happier if I had the support of my parents and boyfriend, but I don’t. I just don’t know what to do. Most nights, I cry myself to sleep, hoping that I won’t wake up the next morning. Right now, I just feel alone and can’t stand the fact that my baby is in me and has to listen and feel everything I hear and feel. What type of life is it going to have if my parents and boyfriend don’t want it? I know I will love it unconditionally but I just want to make my boyfriend and parents happy.

Just soo confused right now.

oh geez, this could get interesting… advice?

I’m 20. I’m my cousin’s live-in nanny. I should have never taken the risk and slept with anyone knowing how hard it is to look like you’re 16 and have people look down at you in the grocery store. But I did. and now, I have this wicked feeling I’m pregnant.

I’ve been feeling sick and I’m a few days late. Best part is, the possible baby’s father, my boyfriend(24), is moving out of the country in three weeks. We’ve already had a few conversations about abortion (we both do not agree with it), and he has flat-out told me he was scared of me getting pregnant, that he couldn’t afford a child right now, and neither can I. He would be gone a whole year, missing me being pregnant and the baby being born. I can’t support myself, much less a baby! I’m in my second year at the local community college. I don’t have time for a real, money-paying job because I am always watching my cousin’s babies, a 2 1/2 yr old and a 9-month-old.  How would having a baby work right now? I have no idea how. The cheapest apartments over here are 600/month , and I would still need baby gear, which I suppose craigslist would be a godsend but still, it’s a lot when you don’t even have a job to start out with. I don’t think I could swing it, and I don’t think I could live with either an abortion or giving the baby to a couple who couldn’t have children.

My boyfriend and I are old enough to have known better than to trust birth control pills. I don’t know what he, or his extremely Baptist family, will say about this. His little brother is getting married in three weeks. He is leaving for a year, his parents are retiring this year. I’m living with family, my mom and close friends don’t even live in this state cuz I moved here to help my cousin out… What do I do? And what if it’s TWINS??? I’m a twin! My mother is a twin! My grandfather was a twin, his mother had EIGHT sets of twins (Greece, in the 1800’s, she was married at 13 and dead at 26. Wonder why.)

Oh, I don’t even know where to begin to end this post. Please, anyone with any advice on what to do if I am pregnant?

advice would be nice..

Here’s my story…

I’m 18 years old, and 3 months pregnant. The father of my baby completely abandoned me, saying that I cheated on him with my boss and that it’s really his. He demands a DNA test… which I will get when the baby is born, but if he thinks I’m gonna put that little life at risk, he’s got another thing coming. He’s blocked me from his life, Facebook \ MSN \ anything, I’ve gotten rid of my cell phone so I would stop getting harassing text messages from his friends, one of which wants to kick me in the stomach and kill the baby, or I quote in his words, have the baby in the alley, it’ll do you good. My father’s girlfriend let me know about this site and I was pretty interested. You all have really interesting stories and to know that I’m not alone in the least… makes me feel so good, but at the same time, I know that a lot of you are going through so much…

I started seeing my ex-boyfriend of 2 and a half years before I found out I was pregnant. When I told him I was pregnant, he was kinda excited. He thought it was his. Then when I explained that it wasn’t his, and he had no clue I had been seeing someone else while we were broke up for a few months. He was devastated. He started calling me every name in the book, saying and promising he’d stand by me anyways, and then telling me off everyday, making me feel completely useless. Then there’s my best friend who promised she’d be there, about a week or 2 after she found out I was pregnant, I didn’t see her, talk to her, or hear from her in weeks just when I thought she wanted something. I was raised by my father sole-ly cause my mom died when I was a baby, and he raised me pretty decent and although I tell him absolutely everything, I find this really hard to talk about.

I considered abortion. My current ex/boyfriend (whatever he is ), they both wanted abortions. Then when the baby’s father read up on abortions he really thought it was in my best nature to have it. I mean I didn’t wanna get rid of it in the first place, and its not someone else’s decision… Then my ( whatever he is ) tried to tell me that he was gonna take me to Cuba in December and ask me to marry him in the fall of 2011, but only if I’d get an abortion… That’s sick in my opinion… Basically, I kinda wanna get some of your opinions on this, or advice or anything.

Keep in mind guys, I really do love my whatever he is. I just don’t know what to think anymore.