Did they put you
in a jar
or a tube,
and tossed you aside
in a rusty old sink
like garbage?
I’d like to call up God and ask Him why…..
Why my cries were never heard,
and why no one ever cared,
and why I was left without you…
Why you never had a birthday…
and no songs were ever sung,…
and why you never even had
a fighting chance…
And why the only place
I’ll ever hold you
is the hollow of my heart..
Then I would beg God
to never be forgiven..
Fearing if I were,
somehow that would mean
I would have to
let you go…
Just like I did
On that day
when they put you in a jar
or a tube
and tossed you aside
in some rusty old sink
like garbage…
There are some
who say it does not matter ..
but I do not agree…
For I know I would have loved you
have I ever had the chance
to be your mother!
I found that today when I was all down searching through the internet…
It is so like describing my feelings today…
It has been 1 year and 11 months today, 13/09/08.
My lil baby would be old around 1 year and 3-4 months…
**!!Mommy misses you so much!! **
I haven’t been on here in soo long; so I’m going to update everybody on what’s been going on. The last time I was here, I was engaged to a great guy… We were together for 3 years and planning on getting married next year; but things don’t always go as planned. We ended up breaking up; he begged and begged for me to get back with him but it was too late… I fell in love with another guy. All of this might make me sound selfish.. but trust me… I didn’t mean for it to happen like this.
About a month after we broke up, he had a girl on the back of his motorcycle; I guess he was showing off because all I know is he was speeding wayy too fast around a corner and the girl leaned the wrong way causing them to crash into a utility pole. He unfortunately didn’t make it, but she did. His 20th birthday just passed last week and it was sooo hard; my friend and I took balloons to where it happened, wrote messages to him on them, and let them go. That’s all I could think of to do; nothing will bring him back and it breaks my heart to think that. The only thing I can be grateful of is we were each other’s first love and we made up and had a good day together the day before it all happened; his last day here.
Now I have a new boyfriend; I have since about 2 weeks before my first love died. He is very very supportive and soo good to me; I love him so much. Of course, I will always have a place for my first in my heart and nothing will take that away, but now I have this guy too.
I just found out that I’m pregnant. He is very happy about that, so am I. I’m 20 and he’s 19, almost 20. Now I just need to figure out how to tell my mom. Hopefully she won’t kill me. Oh yeah, and may I add that I haven’t lived at home since I was 17 and have had the same job for almost 3 years now, so I would say I’m pretty responsible…lol. But now the real test has begun; hopefully I’ll pass.
My story, I am a 17-year-old mum. I have a beautiful girl who is 19 weeks old today. I am not with her father. He is in her life but we have never been together.
It was a one-night stand. He never really bothered with me. Well, I was pregnant as he was too scared so he said but at the end of it, I went through it all on my own. Yeah, I had my family but it’s not the same. Even though I have no feelings for him it wasn’t very fair. I didn’t see him 4 the last 20 weeks of my pregnancy. I think altogether while I was pregnant, I’ve seen him 15 times. That was once a week at the beginning as he has a flat and me and my mates used to go ’round. Then he turned up at the hospital once I’d given birth. He did want to be there but I didn’t let him as he had no right. He hadn’t been there for me. Now he expects to see his daughter all the time and, me being me, let’s him but now I’ve had enough.
I stopped him seein her 4 a week cuz he doesn’t give me muney for her but he tans drugs which, in my eyes, is wrong. He now has promised me he will change. He is seein’ her today as I write this but if he doesn’t, then he is going to loose her. People might think I’m being harsh but I’m sick of him treating me like a dike. We’re not even together.
My Labour- Well, I was in established labour for 6 and half hours but I had been gettin pains from 1-2 in the morning and had her at 4.32 in the afternoon. I had 20 stitches. She weighed 7 lb 5 oz after them saying she were gonna be small. She grew a lot, lolz. Bein a mum is the best thing evah. That little girl is my everything. I don’t know where I would be without her.
For you girls thinking bout abortions cuz u can’t cope, you can. I’ve done it on my own and people comment on how well I’ve done. You can do anything if you try. Having a child at a young age isn’t clever but for us who don’t mean to get pregnant and do all, I can say for people who say out bout us is we faced up to a responsibilities. It’s obvious what was intended for us as everything happens or a reason.
Well, that’s all I wanted to say. Well done to all you teenage mums out there who are trying there best to be a good mum. Ignore the comments and the dirty looks. They don’t know how hard it is being young with a child. We’re trying our hardest. That’s all that matters. x
Well! I am Seventeen years old. I turn 18 in early October. I am almost 7 Months Pregnant with a baby girl, Taylor Grace! I’ve known about this site forever but I’m just now joining.
Am new at this but I think I need someone to talk to…. Came across this site and I thought it was great.
Okay, so I met this guy and began seeing him but with no serious thing…You know, sort of just for the moment. He is not from my country and was about to go back to his home but after he left, I found out I was pregnant. I considered terminating it and forgetting the whole thing and he hadn’t yet got in touch, so I thought that was it, but after I had made up my mind to forget about it, he called. I was really happy and immediately threw the whole idea to the wind…I took a test and it was negative. My period that had been delayed even came and I figured….well, no worry!———WRONG!
Soon after that, I started feeling all tired at work, constant nausea in the morning, and the desire to sleep all day……. I took a test and I was pregnant. That meant 7 weeks if my count is correct. My workmate that I told first thinks it a blessing and I shouldn’t consider anything else. Meanwhile, I keep in touch with my boyfriend (we are kind of to that level now) and he kept asking me the whole time if I was pregnant coz we sometimes talked about if I was…..you know and when I told him, he was happy and asked if I was too. I told him I did….. This is all after he had for the first time said ‘I love you.’ It came as a surprise…but a good one.
Anyway, I know deep down that I love him and to be honest, am happy to be carrying a child. So I said I was glad. But I worry about telling my mum because then she will ask me what our plans are…. This is what he said “I guess I have to show face huh?! Anyway we will do that and then plan for the wedding I guess, though I don’t know if you want a small or big wedding, but I think it depends on if there’s pressure from your family then we’d have to speed up the wedding. I’ve of course always thought I’d want a big occasion but if we have to do it right away, it would not make it less important (that was rather great to hear) but if there’s no pressure, we can wait and plan it properly…” I agreed with him on that but that it has to be after the traditional introduction ceremony (am African)
So anyway, he says I still have to go visit him in his country, soon as he settles (trying to set up a business there) or he comes back and we go back down together (he’s from southern Africa)
Sometimes, I worry…. I don’t know how to break it to my mum. I don’t know if I should keep it (I want to), just some advice from some one would help…about what you think….
I went for my 2nd trimester ultrasound yesterday and was thrilled to find out I’m having a baby girl, but I wasn’t prepared to hear I have placenta priva. My doctor said not to worry! Haha yeah right. She said most cases move up by the 3rd trimester.
Does anyone know anything about this??
