Where has the time gone? Last time I wrote in my blog, I was 11 weeks into my pregnancy and everyone was trying to talk me into an abortion. Yet here I am with my beautiful 14-month-old baby girl lying in bed next to me. She is perfection snuggling up to ‘Duckie’, her new Easter cuddly.
I never thought life could be so fantastic. When people see me, they say I look the happiest they’ve ever seen me and they’d be right. This life I carried for 9 months makes me the happiest I’ve ever been, the happiness I feel can’t be described it is beyond what I could have ever believed.
Times are sometimes tough. Money will always be an issue, but I would rather go without than allow my daughter to. She wants for nothing and gets everything. All she has to do is look at me and I’m hers totally and completely. She is my ray of sunshine, always smiling and happy, always loves life. The smile never fades off her face. She babbles and chats away, creating new words and joining small sentences, ‘mooing’ and ‘quacking’ every few words. She loves her animals and believes her cuddles are real.
I can’t believe I ever went to that clinic, ever risked destroying my baby’s life.
she is my life, my soul, my world
Roo, you complete me!
Honestly, I’m bored of being pregnant now. I’m only just halfway through it. Should have another 17 weeks left. It’s so long.
I find it so hard to sleep now. I can’t get comfy during the night. I wake up so early. I’m restless all through the day. I’ve had multiple water/kidney infections during this pregnancy. I’m always too tired/in pain to go out and socialize with my friends. I only see them if they agree to come to my house or when I go to school.
I suppose the only thing still working is me and my boyfriend. We don’t even argue anymore. He treats me like the only person on the earth, like a princess, like I’m worth millions of pounds. I really do feel special and beautiful when I’m with him. Our son kicks constantly when he is around…He definitely knows I love his daddy.
I really can’t wait for this to all be over, because one day in the next 17 weeks, my little man will be in my arms, smiling and stinking the house out. I’m totally ready for the day the little one arrives. He’s perfectly welcome now, just as long as he doesn’t give up on us. His chance of survival is bright. He’s still inside of me and so far his growing rate has slowed down. I estimate he’ll arrive at roughly 29 weeks, maybe later…Well, I’m hoping.
He’s so special, to me, to my fiancé, to my whole family. I’m bringing a new life, a heartbeat and an extra set of feet into the world. I’m so proud of myself! Pregnancy is hard, but I know for a fact motherhood and raising my baby boy is going to be much harder, and will last much longer. But I guess I’m willing to do it.
With a month to go until my due date, at 36 weeks pregnant, I think I may have entered the final phase of pregnancy.
Here’s what I did yesterday afternoon:
1. Tidied the living room
2. Tidied bedroom
3. Cleaned the bathroom
4. Tidied the kitchen
5. Vacuumed the rooms
6. Dusted and wiped down all units and anywhere that looked dirty
7. Sorted both my wardrobes out
8. Sorted baby’s clothes and things out
9. Went and took the spare car seat back and got a high chair and walker
Basically, you should all know what I’m on about… Yes, I’m in the ‘Nesting stage’. C’mon. This from a woman who just yesterday morning barely had enough energy to brush her teeth and get dressed. Now I am well aware of what this burst of energy could be fueled by — that labor is coming — soon — but I’m not necessarily convinced!!
My body has finally decided to keep me up during the night. I don’t know whether it’s ready for when baby gets here or whether I’m just not comfortable. I’ve got the midwife appointment later so I get to hear the baby’s heartbeat again 🙂
I’m so excited, cannot wait until she’s here. I’ve been signed off work by the doctor for having swollen feet and ankles from being on them all day at work. So, my maternity leave was meant to start on the 6th of April but I’m off now so it’s all about getting things ready…
Anybody else at this stage or nesting??
Hi, I’m 14 and might be Pregnant.
First of all, I’m very scared to tell my parents. They’re the strict type of parents. My mom always told me if I ever got pregnant, she was going to kick me out of the house. My dad is going to be very disappointed. I’m scared to tell anyone. My Boyfriend, who is the baby daddy, said if he ever becomes a teen dad, he’s going to kill himself. He’s 15. He smokes weed and all that stuff.
I also have JRA ( Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis ). I’m scared if this effects the baby. I’ve heard a lot of stories and read so much stuff on the internet about Pregnancy & JRA together. How some girls had miscarriages. Or have gone to labor a month or 2 early. I do not want none of that for my baby. Help? I have lots of questions to ask.
By the way, my cousin, who is 15, hid her pregnancy for a month. I was thinking about doing the same. Now she is like 6 months pregnant & she’s due in June.
Things have been hard, but what has been killing me is that Tuesday makes it 3 years since you’ve been gone. You were a big part of my strength. Whenever my dad and I argued, you told me everything would be okay. I need you here to tell me everything’s going to be okay because I’m scared.
I want you to be here. To see me graduate and go off to college. I want you to see how far I’ve made it. I know you’d be disappointed at some of the things that I’ve done, but I know you’d forgive me and comfort me. You were supposed to be around when I had my first child, started my own family, and graduated college.
I miss you sooo much, Grandma. I wish you could be here. I have to tell myself every day that you’re looking down on me, but sometimes it doesn’t help. I’m glad you aren’t in pain anymore. I remember the day like yesterday. I love you.
R.I.P Grandma 4-3-09 <3
Dear Mummy…
I’m so sorry this is happening. I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you. But I’m going to be a mum soon. I’ll learn a lesson. I’ll understand how hard it must have been for you. Also, thank you so very much for supporting me, being there at every hospital appointment, being there when I’ve been rushed into the hospital, there to rub my belly better when it hurts. Thank you for helping me get ready for my baby, and for helping when my fiancé didn’t care. You are truly the best mum I could ever ask for. You’ve made this experience amazing. You’re always there for me. I’m so lucky to have you. And I promise I’ll manage, I’ll try my best to stay strong for my son. He will love you so much, your precious grandson. Thank you, mummy 🙂
Dear Dad…If only you knew your little girl was having a baby. If only I knew where you were and what you are like. If my fiancé ever turns out like you, I won’t give up. I will always try my best to give my child their father. But you’ve never wanted to know. You didn’t care when mum had me, when she struggled alone. My son will never hear you’re name. Is it not worth it?
Dear Best Friends…Thank you so much, guys. Every single one of you have been here for me. You’ve never doubted me. You’ve stood by me! Already picked out my boy’s godparents: was such a hard choice. Not seeing you all as much is hard, but a pregnant woman needs her rest, hehe. I’m sorry for messing up school, college, and our weekly nights out…But Baby is going to be the new arrival soon, and he means everything to me. I hope you’ll love him as much as you love me. Thank you for everything!
Dear Fiancé…You’re amazing. After such a short relationship, we made a baby, our baby boy! And you hated me, you hated the fact you were going to be a daddy. But look at us now, we’re so happy. I’m moving in, you’ve got a job. You’ve bought our son the most amazing gear. We’re getting ready for our new arrival. And you once didn’t want him. So much has changed. I’m happy though, I’m so happy knowing we’re going to be fine. We’re going to get through this. I’m proud to say I wouldn’t have got this far without you. Our son is going to have such an amazing daddy. You should be proud of yourself…You’ve changed your whole life around for us! Thank you for helping me with everything. I love you, man 🙂
Dear my precious unborn…Not long now, sweetie. Only a few more weeks. You’re going to be early, I know, poorly, weak. But I’ll be there watching over you, making sure you’re getting stronger each day. I won’t ever leave you. You’re already my fighting little soldier. I’m so proud of you, you’ve made me such a proud mummy. I’m young, but you wanted to come, so i took you as a gift and I’ll never throw you away! I cant believe you’re really mine, my shining star. You’re going to be so spoilt baby. You’ll have everything you want, I promise! Your mummy, daddy, and your whole family love you so much! See you soon little man. Stay strong for Mumma 🙂
Dear Me…Well done. You should be proud of yourself 🙂
