I really don’t want to have an abortion but I know there is no way to support these babies.
But the thing that makes this even harder for me than ever before is that I have been told since I was 15 that I could never have children naturally and now I get pregnant with twins! TWINS of all things and they’re Fraternal twins, not identical. I can’t believe this is happening to me. All I want to do anymore is cry. I understand that this is my choice but what about their dad? Me and him are dating but I could not keep them without him being extremely unhappy with me. I tell him continuously that I want to go through with the pregnancy but he just looks at me with this sad sad look and I know that this can not happen. I just hate feeling helpless, helpless and me do not go hand in hand.
Things just suck right now and I wish I knew what to do about it.
In June, I found out I was pregnant.
I remember it clearly. I went upstairs to do the test, ran downstairs, and jumped on my boyfriend’s lap, waiting for him to tell me what the test said. We had been together for 11 months. He told me that the test was positive, it didn’t kick in. I knew I had to have an abortion. My mum has always said she would kick me out if I ever told her I was pregnant. I wouldn’t be able to stay with my boyfriend because his mum wouldn’t let us see each other if I ever did get pregnant. I didn’t want to raise a child with nowhere to live and no money. The next day, we went to doctor’s. I told her I took a test and it said positive. She asked
‘Is that good news or bad news?’ I just stared at her blankly. I didn’t know what to say. I really wanted this baby but not this way. My boyfriend whispered to her ‘bad.’ Then he went silent again.
I got a bit of a shock today.
I was shocked into realising why they tell me to wait… I have a good job that I really love but today I realised that without a degree or professional qualifications, I am dispensable. I have no real solid ground because I’m not old enough to have veteran-level experience in anything and although a few years counts as a degree-level brain in a lot of jobs, I have neither. I either shape up or it’s out with me and roll in the next girl. I’m waiting… I realised today that I need to be secure in my job, not necessarily Managing Director but secure…
Next couple of years, maybe but right now, I need to do whatever it takes to make sure I don’t get pregnant before good time….x
Being pregnant with twins is kinda crazy.
I’m only 13 weeks (14 Friday) but it’s already like WOW!! I’m pregnant with fraternal twins. When I first found out, I didn’t believe it, I thought the doc was crazy!! Now, I’m scared and happy and I don’t know, I just have all these different emotions about it. My fiancé and I have been having a lot of trouble with our relationship so another baby, let alone 2 more babies was the LAST thing on our minds. But now that it’s here, we have to deal. Since we have found out, we have seen more sets of twins just walking somewhere than we have ever seen in our lives. I guess all in all I’m really scared because I’ll have 2 poopies to change not one. Extra Extra diapers, formula, clothing. Just double the trouble.
So I guess what I’m looking for is anyone who has had twins to get some advice from on how to get past the fear and get to the excitement. Thanks for reading everyone!!!
The Right To Live
Some people say that I am nothing yet
Just a big oh blob of nothing less
From the time I was conceived
I am a life that has a right to breathe
Who are you to make a choice for me
To end my life so you can be free
For I am a living human inside of thee
With all the rights of thee
The killing must stop
For I have The Right To Live
Christina Hoaks
Copyright ©2008 Christina Hoaks
Hi, y’all… Now that I decided to keep my baby, am now 19 weeks pregnant, I am happy about it but the problem is my friends who just don’t understand that I kept it…
They think I should have terminated it and that am too young (am 22 years) and the responsibility is huge and I won’t manage… Can you imagine that from the closest people???? It’s really heartbreaking to know that none of them thinks the way I do as regards this matter. I know raising a child is no easy task but am determined to do the best for my child… My boyfriend is coming on Friday and we shall talk more about our plans but in the meantime, being around such negativity is really not a good feeling. All this is worsened by the fact that a friend recently gave birth and is more or less doing it single-handedly because she had broken up with her boyfriend and so the baby was born but they are not together… She is having a hard time, earns minimum wage, and still lives with her mum. They compare her to me. I, feel really bad about it.
Pliz advise…thanks
