I think about you, in the morning when I wake, when sharing laughs with friends, between the boredom and the cool moments spent with your dad, when I lay my head on my pillow and say a little prayer, I think about you always.
What would you have looked like, big eyes like mine or small Asian-looking ones like his, short and curvy or slim and tall like your daddy? Would you laugh like me, love the same things I do? Would you write like your daddy, walk like him, have the same passion and creativity he has? OH, how I wish I could meet you, even if only just once, hold you, feed you, tell you I love you.
It’s funny cause we named you even before I knew I was pregnant. I guess you just had a really strong presence. We were gonna call you April. I hope you would have liked that name.
I was stupid, I made a selfish decision, and I’m sorry. Trust this though, you will always be in my heart, thoughts of you will always fill my head. I will always carry with me the idea of who and what my little baby would have been.
I Love You
TM
I’m 42 and have 2 kids, 12 & 18. I’m going through a very hurtful separation.
I met a guy of 24 ( my brother’s girlfriend’s brother). He was so kind and nice and gentle and I fell so hard for him. I found out last week that I was pregnant and tried to phone him. Then I sms’ed him. No reply. Before I found out, he made it clear that he did not feel about me as I felt about him. It hurt as I could not think how you can show such affection and sleep with someone and you don’t feel anything!! To be stupid and gullible at 42 is rather bad! I preached safe sex to my daughter and if she falls pregnant, she’s stupid but here it happens to me, who should know better. Stupid, stupid! At last, he sms’ed me back to tell me I’m not alone in this thing but when I phone him he does not pick up his cell. Sms’ed me to tell me he’s busy the whole weekend and we can talk calmly on Monday and decide what to do.
I thought my husband hurt me when he moved out but it is nothing compared to this. What should I do? I do not believe in abortion but I KNOW this is what he wants. On the other hand, how will I provide for a baby on my own? My daughter is going to University next year and how will I explain this pregnancy to any one?? I’m so lost?
Can you please give me some advise?
Kourtney Kardashian’s unplanned pregnancy forced the shocked reality TV star to make one of the most difficult decisions in her life: Would she have the baby or terminate the pregnancy?
“I definitely thought about it long and hard, about if I wanted to keep the baby or not, and I wasn’t thinking about adoption,” Kardashian, 30, who was shooting E!’s Kourtney & Khloe Take Miami at the time, tells PEOPLE exclusively. “… I don’t think it’s talked through enough. I can’t even tell you how many people just say, ‘Oh, get an abortion.’ Like it’s not a big deal.”
Scott Disick, the baby’s 26-year-old father, was supportive either way. The pair had split in November after two years of dating, but reconciled shortly after finding out she was pregnant. “He wanted me to talk about it more, but I just kept to myself,” she says. “He said, ‘I really want you to keep it, but I will support you whatever you decide to do.'”
Confused and concerned, Kardashian says, “I called my best friend crying, and I was like, ‘I don’t know what to do.’ She said, ‘Call your doctor, and at least find out the risks and stuff.’ ” So Kardashian discussed abortion with her physician, and then headed to the Internet to do further research.
“I looked online, and I was sitting on the bed hysterically crying, reading these stories of people who felt so guilty from having an abortion,” she recalls. “I was reading these things of how many people are traumatized by it afterwards.”
After scouring the Internet, Kardashian says she started to realize that an abortion wasn’t an option for her. “I was just sitting there crying, thinking, ‘I can’t do that,’ ” she says. “And I felt in my body, this is meant to be. God does things for a reason, and I just felt like it was the right thing that was happening in my life.”
Kardashian says she did some intense soul-searching. “For me, all the reasons why I wouldn’t keep the baby were so selfish: It wasn’t like I was raped, it’s not like I’m 16. I’m 30 years old, I make my own money, I support myself, I can afford to have a baby. And I am with someone who I love, and have been with for a long time.”
“I really wanted to think it through for myself, and not hear what my sisters were saying, or what Scott was saying. Even though I took it all in, I wanted it to be my decision,” she says. “My doctor told me there is nothing you will ever regret about having the baby, but he was like, ‘You may regret not having the baby.’ And I was like: That is so true. And it just hit me. I got so excited, and when I told Scott he was so excited. But I think if I had said I’m not going to keep it, I really think he would have pushed me into keeping it.”
(Edited from an article originally posted Wednesday August 19, 2009 08:00 AM EDT at www.people.com)
I’m 15 and 32 weeks pregnant. I didn’t plan on getting pregnant, I don’t know who in their right mind would want to at 15, but I’m so happy. The father has been my boyfriend for the last three years, but we didn’t decide to have sex until about a year ago. We weren’t the most protected but we had no clue it would lead to this.
& I still go to school as big as I am. I hear other students whisper to each other under their breaths about how I’m such a whore for being pregnant at my age. The truth is, I’ve only had sex with one person in my whole life, and I’ve been with that person for a long time. Most of the girls that do talk about me and other girls at my school who are pregnant, have had sex with 3 times as many guys. I’m sure almost every girl who stayed in school pregnant went through the same thing.
That’s just the beginning of the downers of being pregnant so young. Another is we have to depend on our parents. My mom is a single parent who pays for a pre-med program for my older brother and a community college for my older sister. She’s also paying my sister’s divorce and son and taking care of her ill mother. Then there’s my little brother, who has to have a life too, and well my mom pays for him too. My dad helps us out as much as he can. His mom, on the other hand, just became a single parent. His dad was shot and killed last December, and left his mom and grandma to pay funeral expenses and other bills along with his education and needs. So we both have to depend on our parents to pay for our baby’s needs. Although he is graduating High School this year with a Skills Degree in Diesel Mechanics, he can’t get a job until then when our baby boy is due in October. I plan on getting a job during the summer to help with all the expenses, but I would then have to depend on my mom and soon-to-be Mother-in-law to watch the baby.
If depending on my parents gives my baby a chance at a healthy life, I’m going to take it but not take advantage. As soon as we can provide for him ourselves, we’re moving to our own home and give him the life we never had.
I won’t regret saying this
This thing that I’m saying
Is it better than keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying
Maybe I would’ve been something you’d be good at
Maybe you would’ve been something I’d be good at
But now we’ll never know
I won’t be sad but in case I go there every day to make myself feel bad
There’s a chance that I’ll start to wonder if this was the thing to do
I don’t know how to feel…. I am frustrated, tired, sad, mad, crying, hurt, disgusted, happy, in love, broken, beaming, back stabbed, lying, losing, empty, longing, learning, wanting, yawning, scarred, befriending, confused, stuck in the middle, left out, exhausted, stressed, smiling, crushed, overflowing, fed up, regretting, remembering, empathetic, close minded, open, understanding, hungry, thirsty, have to pee, flirty, reserved, drained, damned, needing, clingy, need space, settling, rowdy, brave, and much much more
And I really wish I had something important and expressive to say about this all. but I don’t. Just one more day full of these emotions have passed and one more day of wondering…..
Maybe you would’ve been something I’d be good at
Hello,
I am 17 and I found out I was pregnant on August 23. I am 7 weeks. I have never been pregnant before and I am extremely frightened. When I told the father, he asked me to get an abortion. I told him I couldn’t do that and that if he didn’t want the baby, then to leave me alone. He came around that night and told me that he would be there for me and the baby and that we were going to do this together. It really scares me because we have not had a great relationship. This last year, we have fought constantly and I’m worried that we’re going to start arguing again. I don’t want to put my baby through that. I know I’m too young to have a baby and I know I’m going to be judged by a lot of people but this is what happens and I will not punish the baby for my mistakes. I do not believe in abortion and I could not live with myself, knowing that I have a baby somewhere in the world that I gave up. I really really wish that this was not happening right now but I will get through this.
To all you young mothers out there, I now understand what you went through or are going through and I just want to say I am so impressed that we can go through with this. We are a lot stronger than we think and a lot of people prefer to take the easy way out. But if a 4′ 11” 17 year old high school drop out who had really REALLY bad morning sickness on her first day at work at her first job ever can get through this, so can you. And I know a lot of you don’t know me but if anyone needs someone to talk to, I’m here. Thank you for taking the time to read this
Always,
