I won't regret saying this
This thing that I'm saying
Is it better than keeping my mouth shut
That goes without saying

Maybe I would've been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would've been something I'd be good at
But now we'll never know
I won't be sad but in case I go there every day to make myself feel bad
There 's a chance that I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do

I don't know how to feel….I am frustrated, tired, sad, mad, crying, hurt, disgusted, happy, in love, broken, beaming, back stabbed, lying, losing, empty, longing, learning, wanting, yawning, scarred, befriending, confused, stuck in the middle, left out, exhausted, stressed, smiling, crushed, overflowing, fed up, regretting, remembering, empathetic, close minded, open, understanding, hungry, thirsty, have to pee, flirty, reserved, drained, damned, needing, clingy, need space, settling, rowdy, brave, and much much more

And I really wish I had something important and expressive to say about this all. but I don't. just one more day full of these emotions have passed and one more day of wondering…..

maybe you would've been something I'd be good at