my life

I’m seventeen and I have a one-year-old son.

Things were great at first with his dad but now I’m a single mom. Things are really hard now more than ever.

Things are so complicated.

im trying=/

Where do I start?.. Well, I’m 16, goin on 17, on 5/28…and I just found out that I am pregnant… Well, I already knew but I just found out for sure on Thursday… I’ll be 6 weeks tomorrow…

My boyfriend already knew too but now he knows for sure and I don’t think he’s too happy about it… I haven’t told my mom yet…or anybody really but my 2 best friends… They are so supportive and they went with me to my first doctor’s appointment!!.

My boyfriend doesn’t seem too interested in going… All he’s really worried about is buying a skateboard and making a skate crew… and that really upsets me because I feel like I’m goin to be going through this pregnancy without him.

He lives wit me also… But I don’t know… I just don’t feel like he care about the baby as much as I do… Maybe as I get bigger and start showing, he will come around and show me some more love and support…

oh yah… I told him he need to get a job but he still focused on skateboarding…like he isn’t even trying. And it’s really stressing me out.

I’m trying… I just need him !!!..100% support!

Why me?

I always wondered why this was happening to me.

I was born at twenty-seven weeks and weighed only a pound and ten ounces. I was faced with a lot of health problems and when I turned 16, I became pregnant. I lost the baby and also lost the baby’s daddy. We were together for 3 years but it was too much for him to handle so he left me when I was pregnant. While I was pregnant, I was under a lot of stress and I hadn’t told anyone so I was going to the doctor with my boyfriend and I was scared cause I wanted so badly to tell my mom. I finally told my sister and she helped me through it.

I know having a baby and raising it by myself would have been hard but I wish I was a mom. It hurt so bad for me to lose my baby.

My first apt

Hello!!

Today was my first prenatal appointment with my doctor! Omg, I could not have imagined what was going to happen. I mean, I had hopes, but no real idea. Well, I didn’t get the ultrasound that I wanted. But, I did get to hear the baby’s heartbeat!! I have never experienced anything like that before! My husband was so excited that he could barely sit in his seat!! We also got a care package from my doctor and found out that I will be going a town over to give birth. She said that she doesn’t do that here. But, that’s OK. She also told me that I have some testing to do. I have had some abnormalities in my uterus, and she is going to take a closer look at it to see if everything is going to be safe for my baby.

She told me not to stress about it, and not think about it. But, please keep your fingers crossed that everything will be ok. She said that chances are, everything will be fine. I really hope so. Have a good night. Bye!!

I got to hear my baby’s heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Does this mean I don’t love my baby?

WEEK 21

I’m 18 and I’m 21 weeks pregnant and very happy that I’m able to actually have kids… I’m starting to feel Him/Her move and starting to feel more pregnant now. I’m overweight…as I have been my whole life. Sooo when I was told I was pregnant, it took me awhile to actually believe that I was pregnant because I didn’t “feel” pregnant. But now only when I lay down, I have no problem feeling the baby..=) I’M SOOO HAPPY about that.

One other thing that’s not soo good is that I smoke cigarettes. Which I already know is VERY bad but I was smoking before I got pregnant and am having a very VERY hard time quitting. The minute I feel stress coming on, I smoke a cigarette. And every pregnant female knows we stress out Very easily… Is there anyone else that is having this problem? Does this mean that i don’t love my baby if I don’t have the strength to quit smoking for my unborn child?

What’s wrong with me?

So Scared and confused…

I was so scared when I first found out that I was pregnant.

I went to the health department and sure enough, I was pregnant. The first person I told was my boyfriend and he acted so excited. Then 2 weeks later, he dumped me for one of his old friends. The hardest part was telling my mom, considering she thought I was still a virgin! I was so scared and confused. All I could think about is… How did I get this way? I never thought I’d get pregnant, especially at 15, and I could never get an abortion so there was no question there. Now I’m 16 years old and 7 months pregnant with a baby boy. My family and I could never be more happier.

Point is… Don’t stress if the baby daddy leaves you. He’s probably just scared and you can more than likely find better… And truth be told.. every woman can be INDEPENDENT!!