It’s been a while since I last wrote and my life has gotten more complicated.
My baby is doing good but I don’t know what to do about his dad. I have been told that he’s going to have another baby and I’m concern about how that might affect us. I need some advice because he denies everything.
I don’t know what to think anymore!
I was pregnant and had an abortion 3 weeks ago.
My boyfriend told me to have one. He thought it would be the best thing to do. I wanted to keep it but he said no. He promised we’d be together and he wouldn’t leave me. I know he loves me because he did a lot for me. but now, he’s leaving me. I’m so upset and mad and I can’t even begin to describe my feelings because I got rid of my baby for him. And he is leaving me.
What do I do? Someone please help. I can’t take it no more.
I’ve sat back and watched this all happen for long enough now. I’m waking myself up and shaking off the dust.
My new attitude: I can handle anything that throws itself in my path. Bring it on. After all the torment, deceit, guilt, and stress, I’m picking myself up now and I will not be knocked down again. I’m over my life role as the star in a soap opera, this has gone beyond ridiculous. I’ve spoken to family, friends, and read some books. I’m having a darling baby and I’ve stood by long enough watching you ruin your own life and attempting to manipulate me and ruin mine. You haven’t succeeded thus far and this time, I will not sit back and watch you try again. I love this little angel inside of me and you are creating a war zone outside for them, I will not allow it. I’ve never let a soul do what you’ve done to me, I’m responsible for allowing it to get this bad. This time, it’s enough. Go ahead and try to manipulate my feelings, thoughts, and life. I’ll enjoy taking the hits that come my way, because now I am stronger.
This time it’s not about you, you, you, it’s about life. I’m choosing this little life over your promise of a slow death. I have all the weapons I need, I have God, family, friends, courage, knowledge, and my power back. This time, you will not take any of that away from me. No longer shall the past linger over me, the future is fast approaching. This time you’ve chosen the wrong chick to mess with. I am a mother now and you will not take that away from me. You will not have any influence on my life, my friends’ lives or my family’s lives. You’ve lost your power and I’ve regained mine, and you’ve really made me mad. This time there is no next time, you need help, get it or get gone.
This time, I’m ready.
HEY, I WANTED TO KNOW, HAS ANYONE EVER HEARD OF OR USED GERITOL…?
BECAUSE ME AND MY HUSBAND BEEN TRYING TO GET PREGNANT FOR ABOUT A YEAR NOW… SO MY AUNT TOLD ME TO TAKE SOME GERITOL, SHE SAYS IT HAS A BABY IN EVERY BOTTLE; BUT I DON’T WANT TO USE IT UNTIL I KNOW THAT SOMEONE REALLY USED AND GOT PREGNANT FROM IT.
PLEASE IF YOU READ, I REALLY NEED ADVICE BECAUSE WE REALLY WANNA HAVE A BABIE
To my unborn child,
First thing first, I want you to know that Mommy loves you very much and no matter what happens, you will always have my heart… Things are a little rough right now. I try not to stress myself because I don’t want to harm you. Me and your father have been getting into it a lot lately… He doesn’t want me to have you… In his mind, it’s either you or him… But I chose you becuz guys will come and go but you are my flesh and blood and I will not let anything or anyone hurt you…
Yes, you are very painful but feeling you move around inside me lets me know that you are fine… I really hope that you are a boy… I want you to be a way better man then your father… And if you turn out to be a girl, you will be mommy’s princess and I will teach you to be better then me. I don’t want you making the same mistakes I did… I know I am going to miss out on a lot… This is my senior year of high school… the best year ever… But the fun can wait becuz I have a child that needs me…
Everyone says that I should just abort you but I tells them that it is easy for them to tell me to get rid of you but if they was in my position, it would be hard… Well, I doubt if your father will be around but I will tell you a lil about him… He is well, he was a great guy. Mommy really loved him..[[that’s how you came along..becuz I really didn’t want kids.]] You has a little sister that is adorable… I hope one day that you can meet them all… But even if you don’t… Just know that you has your mother. You will have a wonderful godfather that really wishes you was his child.. You will be loved by many. So baby please, don’t think that you are unwanted.. You are the most amazing that that has ever happened to me. I want you to always remember that….
Love, your mother
Can’t wait till you get here
Hi, I am 20 years old. I’ve been with my boyfriend for a year and one month now.
I found out I was pregnant when I was two months along. He has never wanted the baby and has threatened to kill himself if I didn’t agree to go through with the abortion. Soo I reluctantly agreed and left him the responsibility of setting up the appointments with the family planning clinics, seeing as this was something that he wanted and wasn’t going back on.
The thing is, I am now 18 weeks pregnant. In NZ, it is now illegal to get an abortion. He still hasn’t set anything up and he has just found that abortion is not an option for me anymore, unless I have it done in Australia, which I know, due to my financial circumstances I can’t afford. I know for a fact that from day one, I have always wanted to keep it, and now that’s it’s too late for me to get the abortion done here in NZ, he’s still in no mood to negotiate other options, like keeping it or giving it up for adoption. It’s either I find a way to get rid of baby or he will kill himself. My parents also know about my pregnancy now, and they too want me to have an abortion. They said there’s too many babies already with my older sister pregnant with her second child, and to go finish studying and get a degree.
I want the baby, it’s kicking now and the feeling is amazing. Just a wonderful feeling, always brings a smile to my day. I would be happier if I had the support of my parents and boyfriend, but I don’t. I just don’t know what to do. Most nights, I cry myself to sleep, hoping that I won’t wake up the next morning. Right now, I just feel alone and can’t stand the fact that my baby is in me and has to listen and feel everything I hear and feel. What type of life is it going to have if my parents and boyfriend don’t want it? I know I will love it unconditionally but I just want to make my boyfriend and parents happy.
Just soo confused right now.
