I just turned 19 when I found out I was going to be a mommy.
It was a month after my birthday. I found out on Jan 06, everything changed after I saw the test. I didn’t know what to do. I don’t have a mom to help me through my pregnancy. So I guess, so what, I am alone. I have only one person there for me and that is my boyfriend.
I did some things I wasn’t happy about after I found out. I dumped him. I don’t know why I did. He was the love of my life He is the dad of the baby but we are back together now and have been for a couple months now. I don’t have a GED or anything like that. I had no job, didn’t know how I was going to take care of my baby, but things are looking better now. I have a grandma to help me out but she already has a grandson from my brother and she doesn’t really like me.
Anyways, I guess really all I’m trying to say is for the girls who are going to be a mommy, you’re not the only one. I don’t have anyone there for me but one person and thank God for that. I don’t know what I would do if I didn’t have him there for me. Now I am 37 weeks and still don’t know what to do. All I know is that I am going to try my best to be the best mom ever, not like my mom.
I am having a boy and I already love him to death. If anything would ever happen to him, I don’t know wat i would……
I am 20 years old. I am still in college and live with my parents… My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years now and I just found out that I was pregnant about a month ago. I am 8 weeks pregnant.
When I found out, I was happy and scared at the same time. The first person in my family to find out was my closest brother. Little did I know he was giving me a time limit to tell my parents or he was going to tell them myself. My siblings are all older than me and live on their own. The reason he was doing this is because he felt that it was best for me to get an abortion and that if I waited any longer, that I wouldn’t be able to get one. They didn’t consider this baby for even a second. They could care less how I felt about it and that really hurts me. My mother told me that if I wanted to keep this baby, than my boyfriend and I were out the door. From that point on, things have been really awkward between me and my family…. It’s like they look down on me and it makes me feel like crap.
My mom keeps saying that I’m ruining my life, my boyfriend’s life, and her life. My boyfriend’s family is happy for me and very supportive so that helps a little. All I have ever done my whole life is try to make my mom happy. I’m not going to have an abortion to make her happy. Now I’m just worried about money and finishing school. But most importantly, I can’t wait to see the baby that I decided to keep in my life. I have had an abortion before and it was so horrible I could never do it again. I was so worried that I wouldn’t be able to get pregnant again after that abortion. But now that I am, I consider it a blessing.
My life is sure going to change but I am ready for it and I cannot wait!!
I want to thank all of you, as you are each special in your own way, and so brave.
We initially wanted to adopt, (and still do) as we knew we may be able to help a woman give her baby a loving home. We have waited for what seems like years, but it’s not even been a year yet. With that said, we have decided to try with a surrogate. I am excited, but at the same time, I wanted to adopt since it may keep a woman from going through the hell of an abortion, and the baby would have a very loving life.
I have read many posts and blogs, and I have learned so much. No matter what your story is, or the future you are facing, I wish each of you the very, very best. I can’t wait to hear the melody of my own child crying for me to pick him or her up to feed, change, etc. Adoption is a very beautiful thing when it works, but the wait and not-knowing when it will happen, is so very hard.
To any of you that are giving the gift of life and love that a child will bring to an adoptive couple, you should know there is a very special place for you in the heavens. You will never know what that will mean to someone that can’t have children. Many blessings to you all.
JUST KEEP HOLDIN ON
I CAN TELL YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT I AM SAYIN’ TO YOU
AND YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU’RE GOIN THROUGH.
WHY AM I SO FAR AWAY?
WHY DID I RUN AND LEAVE YOU THIS WAY?
THINGS JUST KEPT GOIN WRONG
>AND THE PAIN KEPT GOIN ON
I COULD NOT STAND TO SEE YOU THAT WAY
BUT I JUST WANTED TO SAY
THAT THE DISTANCE BETWEEN US
AIN’T NOTHIN AT ALL.
WE LOVE EACHOTHER
AND OUR LOVE IS STRONG.
WE’LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SOMEDAY.
JUST KEEP HOLDIN ON.
I AM SORRY I LEFT YOU
THERE ALL ALONE.
BUT I WILL SE YOU VERY SOON
WHEN I GET HOME.
IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I’VE HELD YOU
TIGHT IN MY ARMS.
I KNOW I DID WRONG
BUT I MEANT YOU NO HARM.
I HOPE YOU’LL FORGIVE ME
MABYE SOMEDAY.
BABY, I JUST WANTED TO SAY
THAT THE DISTANCE BETWEEN US
AIN’T NOTHIN AT ALL.
WE LOVE EACHOTHER
AND OUT LOVE IS STRONG.
WE’LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN
SOMEDAY.
JUST KEEP HOLDIN ON.
SO PLEASE BABY,
JUST KEEP HOLDIN ON.
Dear Baby Bear,
I know you cannot understand the words I am writing or why I am so far away. I can only hope that someday you will. I have been trying so hard to get better. Then we can be together again. I remember the day you were born and holding you. It was like I was holding my own little piece of heaven in my arms. You are my hero and my true miracle. I will never forget your first smile, your first words, or first steps. You have always been my little angel and you have given me the power to feel true love, the kind that will never die. I will never forget how scared I was when you got so sick and I almost lost you to God. I promised you I would take care of you, but I failed.
Not long after, you were diagnosed with yet another disease. We stayed so strong. I did everything I could to do what I was supposed to. You were chosen, my dear sweet angel. It is said that what hurts us makes us stronger. You are destined to be great and do great things. You have already begun to do so, with your smile, you have completely changed my world. You have taken about my tears just by being you. Your family loves you so much, keep being strong and fighting for us. Pull out all of the stops and never give up. Show the world who you are inside and who you can be. I miss you so much. There is a void in my heart and in my life, without you. We will together again, I hope very soon.
Until then, remember that I love you more than anything else and I always will.
Okay well, I’m 15 and I think I am pregnant, with a boy to be specific. I don’t know but it’s just a feeling that I have.
Anyways, back to my point, my boyfriend thinks that I should get rid of it due to timing or so he says but I want to keep the baby if I am. I, on the other hand, think abortion is wrong. I think it’s just as bad as murdering a born child. I also don’t want to give him up for adoption because I could not handle giving my baby to another family. I know I can give him what he needs, maybe not the perfect life, but we can live comfortably.
I don’t know what to do, somebody help me.
