Still Learning….

I got a bit of a shock today.

I was shocked into realising why they tell me to wait… I have a good job that I really love but today I realised that without a degree or professional qualifications, I am dispensable. I have no real solid ground because I’m not old enough to have veteran-level experience in anything and although a few years counts as a degree-level brain in a lot of jobs, I have neither. I either shape up or it’s out with me and roll in the next girl. I’m waiting… I realised today that I need to be secure in my job, not necessarily Managing Director but secure…

Next couple of years, maybe but right now, I need to do whatever it takes to make sure I don’t get pregnant before good time….x

My Twin Pregnancy

Being pregnant with twins is kinda crazy.

I’m only 13 weeks (14 Friday) but it’s already like WOW!! I’m pregnant with fraternal twins. When I first found out, I didn’t believe it, I thought the doc was crazy!! Now, I’m scared and happy and I don’t know, I just have all these different emotions about it. My fiancé and I have been having a lot of trouble with our relationship so another baby, let alone 2 more babies was the LAST thing on our minds. But now that it’s here, we have to deal. Since we have found out, we have seen more sets of twins just walking somewhere than we have ever seen in our lives. I guess all in all I’m really scared because I’ll have 2 poopies to change not one. Extra Extra diapers, formula, clothing. Just double the trouble.

So I guess what I’m looking for is anyone who has had twins to get some advice from on how to get past the fear and get to the excitement. Thanks for reading everyone!!!

My Poem for everyone. This is how I believe,These are my thoughts! My Opinions!

The Right To Live

Some people say that I am nothing yet 
Just a big oh blob of nothing less 

From the time I was conceived 
I am a life that has a right to breathe 

Who are you to make a choice for me 
To end my life so you can be free 

For I am a living human inside of thee 
With all the rights of thee 

The killing must stop 
For I have The Right To Live 

Christina Hoaks

Copyright ©2008  Christina Hoaks

now 19weeks but…

Hi, y’all… Now that I decided to keep my baby, am now 19 weeks pregnant, I am happy about it but the problem is my friends who just don’t understand that I kept it…

They think I should have terminated it and that am too young (am 22 years) and the responsibility is huge and I won’t manage… Can you imagine that from the closest people???? It’s really heartbreaking to know that none of them thinks the way I do as regards this matter. I know raising a child is no easy task but am determined to do the best for my child… My boyfriend is coming on Friday and we shall talk more about our plans but in the meantime, being around such negativity is really not a good feeling. All this is worsened by the fact that a friend recently gave birth and is more or less doing it single-handedly because she had broken up with her boyfriend and so the baby was born but they are not together… She is having a hard time, earns minimum wage, and still lives with her mum. They compare her to me. I, feel really bad about it.

Pliz advise…thanks

feeling better

I’m feeling more positive and not so scared anymore. I’m quite excited. just a few worries, that’s all!

Am I really ready for this?

So…I have this unquenchable desire to be a mother.

Even though I’m still in college, working on a degree for Art Education. I’ve had unprotected sex with my boyfriend a lot, and we’re honestly trying to get pregnant. And now that I think I am, I keep thinking about certain things we’ll have to do. We’ll have to rent an apartment near our school so that he can still attend classes while I would need to get a full-time job and drop out of school for a while. I’ll need to tell my super-conservative Christian parents and beg and plead with them to not get disowned. I’m a Christian, and know that pre-marital sex is wrong, but I listened to my gut instincts and tried for a baby with my boyfriend. Now this possibility is staring me in the face, and I’m scared to death and excited to see the results at the same time.

What should I do? I’m very confused and need help and people to talk to.