I fell in love with the most amazing man but when I needed him the most, he walked away.
My world fell apart and everything I learned got destroyed. I’m sixteen years old and I stepped into the unknown and lost it all. The day I told my boyfriend I was pregnant, I saw him shatter right in front of me. He wanted an abortion and I couldn’t do that. It’s against everything I am and believe in. After that, he cheated on and then walked away.
My family, friend, and my church community are my supports. I have an amazing doctor who cares a lot.
The man I fell in love with is a total trainwreck but I can’t save him because somehow, I make thing worse. He is going to have to save himself.
So meh &n& my boyfriend have been together for about 2 years.
We met when we were 13 &n& made it official a lil aftuh we turned 14. We’ve been through hell &n& back, dayum near literally. &n& even though we ain’t perfect, I’m totally alriqht with dhat cuz ain’t no type relationship perfect. But we’re happy &n& we might be having a baby on dha way soon! We have dha support of our friendsz &n& a lot of our family &n& dhatsz really all we need. We have dha money &n& we’re pretty stable, &n& even though we’re younq, we know what we’re doing. . .;
We’ve had 3 scaresz previous to dhisz ,but dhisz time, we think it’sz actually qonna happen but we’re ironically not scared. I’ll be movinq in with hisz mom &n& him in about 3 monthsz if dha test comesz out positive. But if it doesn’t, dha disappointment’ll fade &n& we’ll qo on wit our livesz. I’m not afraid ,&n& I’m not alone. Abortion isn’t an option &n& hopefully, my baby’ll be healthy. I plan ta do cyber skoolinq if I’m positive ,&n& smokinq &n& drinkinq won’t be a part of meh anymore.
I’m not confused. I don’t have a quilty conscience about it. I’ve hopefully been blessed with a baby &n& I hope to be a qreat mother even if I’m only a teenaqer. I still qotta lot of growing up ta do, but I’m learninq quick enouqh. I don’t want people ta judqe meh ,because nobody knowsz meh, therefore i’m dhat unpredictable. Therefore, I’m my own person.
THEREFORE, no one has dha riqht ta judqe someone like myself.
Last April, I found out I was pregnant.
I was incredibly scared but I knew I could do it, I started to get kinda excited. Then when I told my boyfriend, he was happy and willing to stand by my side. He also has a four-year-old, and she was excited to have a brother or sister. But 2 days before my birthday, May 3rd, I had a miscarriage. I was devastated. I was so excited and ready to hold my own baby, but I couldn’t help but feel like it was all my fault that I lost him/her. I still cry about it and when I see people with their new babies, I feel some jealousy. I don’t mean to and I know it isn’t their fault.
This December is when He/She would of been born. But to remember my unborn baby which is all I can do I got a tattoo of a star with certain colors, Pink because he/she was going to be eccentric, I know. And black because that is the baby’s father’s favorite color and he is a part of our baby. I can not forget that. But for any of you who had a miscarriage, I am truly sorry. It is a hard thing to go through. I am still coping.
So I had dhisz dream dhe othuh niqht. Ironic little thinq, but I think it could be a messaqe.
I was wobblin across dha street ta Applebee’s (whea muh man worksz lOl] &n& I walked in, yay, biq huqe belly &n& people just kept askin meh how far alonq I was &n& dha due date. Dhen it skipped to when I was in labor. My boyfriend was spazzin out when he seen dha babys head <3 . Dhen it skipped up aqain ta whean we was takin our first trip ta kindergarden, walkin into dha classroom, full of toys &n& wat not .
&n& quess what !!!
IT WAS A BOYY
Hey, I am 15 years old. I found out I was pregnant at 14 and I am now 29 weeks and 6 days pregnant… And I am soooo scared.
Idk how to be a mom but I do know I love the little girl that is grownin’ inside of me, more than my own life. I’ve given sooo much up to have her, but it still makes me sad sometimes because I live in a very small town where everyone knows everyone’s business and I get judged everyday. I have cried myself to sleep so many nights, it’s not funny… But I am raising this child by myself and I worry sometimes, will 1 parent be enough? Or will my child need more.?.?. I am very blessed to have the parents I do. My dad is very very strict but he is pro-life as am I… and it took my dad awhile to deal with me being pregnant at such a young age… but he is bein’ very supportive and helpful. My mom is an amazin’ woman. She’s been here for me since the beginning…
I am very lucky to be able to be happy about my pregnancy.. but I am here for anyone that wants too talk =) and I will take any free advice…
December 28th, 2008.
I hope somebody’s reading this. somebody who needs it. somebody who just doesn’t know what to do, or what to think.
Life, is about choices. At 16, I made a very big choice. I chose to keep the most beautiful gift I’d ever been given. She was born in August on a Beautiful day, I still can remember the first time she looked up at me, after 9 months of helping me smile when I was sad. Just by her kicks, my hand to my stomach; She looked at me. I looked at her with the most happy tears I’ve ever cried in my life. That was it, that was a miracle. She was beyond perfect; beautiful dark hair, blue eyes, and 10 tiny fingers and 10 tiny toes. I couldnt believe it, she was here all mine no one else’s, mine. I created such a beautiful person. 9 months, I watched and waited anxiously as she grew into this beautiful person I finally got to hold in my arms. Now at 2, as I sit here writing this, she’s running around, full of life, laughter, the best sound. The best sight I’ve ever seen and heard is her smile, and her voice.
To all of those who supported me, I thank you, and for those who doubted me, I thank you to.
P.S. I’ll Like You Forever, I’ll Love You For Always, Forever and Always My Baby You’ll Be*<3
