I cried again this afternoon, cried that I had forgotten you, forgotten what I put you through and when I did it. What kind of mother forgets the day her children died? A mother who does not care? Or a mother who has started to forgive herself? I don’t know which I want it to be because either way, it makes me feel sick to my stomach.
I got so drunk this afternoon, drunk because I want another baby to replace you, replace you in my life, my heart, and my mind. What kind of mother am I? A mother who is out of touch? Or a mother who is ready to move on with her life and leave the past where it belongs?
Am I allowed to do that? Is it normal to forget the day you aborted your unborn child? To forget the year that you made the biggest mistake of your life? Or does that start to happen three years down the line or when things start going better? Does that make me a bad person? For wanting to move on and be normal again? For wanting to love a real child, a child I can see and touch?
I don’t know anymore… I don’t know what’s normal and right and good where you are concerned.
My OB-GYN doctor told me that it’s hard for me to get pregnant. The chances are very low, because my egg cells don’t get mature. They blast even they were immature cells still. And the lining of my uterus is very thin already…
This fact makes me very sad, but happy for a short time. After I gave birth with my first baby boy, I am very afraid to have another baby, knowing the fact that the father of my baby don’t love me anymore and he just sticks with me coz of our son. His family don’t like me at all, Likewise, his sister used to nag at me in front of many people. She always makes me realize that I am never welcome in their house. It makes me feel down and depressed… My mother and family do not know my real situation in my boyfriend’s house… I kept it coz I don’t want them to be hurt. Now, it’s been 2 months that I don’t menstruate yet… I have used a Pregnancy Test thrice and the result is negative. I am confused If I am pregnant or not…
Though I don’t have following symptoms:
nausea, breast soreness or enlargement, queasiness and food cravings… Except for my menstruation, which has been stopped for 2 months now..
I recently found out I was just 1 month pregnant. I’m 14 turning 15 in June.
The father/my boyfriend, who is 15 turning 16 in September, doesn’t want me to have the baby. He wants me to get an abortion. He just doesn’t understand why I don’t want to. I told my mom and she wasn’t mad at me, but she wants me to have an abortion too but I don’t want to. I want to have the baby. I’ve looked at many sites, trying to keep an open mind to any other options, but I want to stick with having it. I have been thinking about going to a school called Louise Dean for pregnant teenagers. I think it would help a lot but I’m still not sure what to do. I’m scared of what everyone will think of me. The only people who actually know are my mom and my boyfriend.
What should I do?
I was 17 then when I knew I was pregnant.
I was afraid at first. I didn’t know what to do. I had to think of the worst things that would happen to me… I kept my baby until 4 months| do wear supporters, anything just to hide him. It even came to my mind to abort him, just for me to be free, and live life again as normal… But maybe it was not meant to be done… December 23, I bought some abortion materials, everything was ready that time… But guess what, I woke up Dec. 24, the aborting med hadn’t been drunk yet… So I told myself I would do it tonight, forgive me God, but I have to do this… Right after my thoughts sank into me, my aunt came rushing to the house and asked my mom to talk about something serious… I was very nervous at that time, and then blast!!!! Mom knew everything… Everyone knew about my situation… Mother did not beat me but she did not talk to me for almost a year. That was painful though!!! But I have to accept it. It’s my price…
And now I am a successful young mom. Even though I haven’t done with college yet, I can say I can take care of my baby’s needs…
Well, I am 19 in May, living in Australia
I have been with my man (now fiancé) since I was 15 and a half. He is 22 now.
8 months ago, I got pregnant but had an abortion… I have regretted it every day since and I can’t even sleep at night, knowing what I did…
Anyway, my man is absolutely WONDERFUL, the type that is always there for me no matter what. He said that if I want another baby, then we can start a family whenever I want.
I know I want this more then anything. I know it will be hard – I have been working in childcare for the past 2 years. I feel like I’m ready for this, even though I am so young. Well, I’m just wondering what everyone’s advice is on this.
xox
Hi guys,
I found out last week that I am 5 weeks pregnant. I had a miscarriage 8 months ago and was devasted, so when I found out I was pregnant again, I was over the moon. I thought my partner would be too but he isn’t. He has told me that he doesn’t want our baby, that he isn’t ready for that commitment and he wants me to get an abortion. I know that I should, that it isn’t fair to bring up a child without a father, and me not being able to give that child the best I can out of life, but why is it so hard to even think about killing it? I don’t want to get rid of my baby, but I don’t want it to have no father figure around. Please help me?
I am already in love with my child, and either way I choose, it’s going to be devastating.
🙁 🙁
