am i ?

been feeling sick laitley..blah monster headache fml randome mood changes like ever 5 mins! schools giong alright not perfect but whatever. still with the boyfriend having a little bit of problems laitley tho mostley that im freaking on him alot more lol i no i shouldnt be but w.e hormones what do you expect my sence of smell is like crazy its very odd everthing smells different some stuff more descusting then i remebered ahha/ any preg symptoms in there ? or any u no of that i might experience msg me ! xo have a great night everyone

Long Day But They Are Getting Better Everyday !

So each and every day, the days are getting easier. The stress between me and my boyfriend is slowly wearing off… We have grasped the whole idea of me being pregnant now and are trying to live each day of this pregnancy to the fullest. I’m even beginning to exercise finally because I now have more energy! My family is a little more understanding now and my mom is even planning my baby shower now!

Another Long Day

Today was yet another long day! I’m beginning to get over the constant nauseous, but I’m still exhausted all of the time! I thought after 3 months, you were supposed to have energy lol. Still waiting for that! I never knew working while being pregnant would be so difficult and tiring! 🙁

My Son’s Birth Home Alone

March 1 in the morning, I was at home alone. My husband was at work, my older brother was at work, my father was at work, and my little brother was at school.

I started having horrible pains in my stomach, I didn’t know what it was. I was also having the worst back pain I have ever had in my life.  I didn’t think much about it cause on February 26, my doctor had decided to have me start getting induced March 1 at 6:00 p.m. because it didn’t seem like labor was going to start anytime soon. After about an hour of having the pain, it started getting more painful, and more regular. I decided to call my husband at work and ask him what he thought I should do. He told me to call the hospital and ask them what I needed to do. They weren’t much of a help. All they did was tell me to call my doctor.

While on the phone with my doctor, one of the horrible pains hit and I screamed and sat down in the floor, where I had to sit for quiet a while because the pain was horrible. The doctor then told me I needed to go to the hospital because she was pretty sure I was in labor. I called my husband back in a hurry and told him what my doctor had said. He quickly let his boss know and hurried home to get me and take me to the hospital. Finally around 11:00 a.m. , we arrived at the hospital. I was then quickly taken in a wheel chair back to Labor & Delivery. I was put in one of the rooms where they monitored me for an hour. I was hurting so bad I kept screaming.

After an hour, the nurse came in and checked me. I was still only dilated to one. But they didn’t let me go home till my midwife saw me. When she came and saw me, I told her I have been leaking this pinkish clear fluid for over a week now and she asked me if anyone in the doctor’s office checked me. I told her “Yes, but not like you did the last time.” She checked me, and told me to cough. Sure enough, a bunch of water went everywhere. My water had been ruptured. My baby boy had even had a bowel movement inside of me. When they told me that, I began to cry because I knew that could cause my sweet baby boy some major problems.

After that, I dilated to three, I laid there in pain for so long. I didn’t want an epidural and my mind was set on not having one. My husband kept telling me I could do it and it would make me feel so great. He supported me so much. My mother, brother, grandmother, aunt, and step-mom all arrived around 2:30 p.m. to support my husband and I and meet our son when he arrived. Around 7:50 p.m. , I was dilated to eight and my baby boy’s heart rate began to drop from where I could not relax because of the pain. The doctor told me the best thing I could do as get an epidural and see if that helps the baby boy. I cried for a few minutes, but decided around 8:40 p.m. it was probably best for my baby boy. Everyone except my husband had to leave the room so they could do my epidural. My husband stood in front of me and held me to comfort me. It made me feel completely great that my husband as being there for me like no one before. The epidural wasn’t as bad as I thought it was going to be. It made me feel really good and after I got it, I didn’t scream from the pain anymore. About ten minutes after my epidural, my family was able to come back into my room. Around 10:15 p.m. , I started feeling a lot of pressure. The doctor came in and told me it was time to push, so I pushed till about 11:40 p.m. . Still no baby boy. The doctor came in and he told me that my body was too small to push him out, plus he was face up. At that point I just had to cry before they took me back for a c-section. It didn’t take long after my husband and I got into the c-section room. March 2 at 12:09 a.m. , my husband and I heard the most beautiful cry ever.

Our son had arrived healthy and safely. He was 8 lbs. , 11 oz, and 20 in long. I couldn’t believe that our beautiful baby had just arrived, and came out of me. It was the most amazing moment of my life. Although I had to have a c-section, and now can barely do anything for myself, I am so happy to have our beautiful baby here with us. I also suffered from an infection inside of me because my water had been ruptured for over a week. But it was all worth it for our son is completely healthy and doing fantastic.

My story

I had a baby 3 days before my 18th birthday. In November, I found out I was pregnant again and the circumstances weren’t right so I had an abortion. I have struggled with this ever since.

I look at other pregnant people and want my baby back all the time. I love my little boy to pieces, but having an abortion was the worst thing I have ever done and every single day of my life, I regret it. I would have had help and support with the baby, but I didn’t want to bring up 2 young children by myself. If anyone is thinking about having an abortion, think really hard first and think of the outcome because it’s not as easy as just taking the tablets or having the operation.

The feelings after are hard. And you have to live with it for the rest of your life.

18 Years Old & 13 Weeks Pregnant

So I am 18 years old and I am now 13 weeks pregnant.  My mom, dad, and sister are being supportive, but all my other relatives still see my decision to keep the baby as a mistake. But after I saw my little baby up on the ultrasound screen; I knew.

I love this baby already with all of my heart. I especially knew that I wanted to keep this blessing because I had already been through an abortion when I was 15. It’s something I will never do again. But now I am feeling extremely depressed. The baby’s father recently was living with me, but he got kicked out a week ago. We both really wanted to be a part of this pregnancy and the baby’s life. Now it’s more difficult because he lives further away. Although he is planning on getting a place closer, it’s still tough. And I almost feel as if my parents are purposely trying to push us apart. We both love each other and this baby… and I feel more comforted when he is here for me throughout all the emotional ups and downs I am experiencing.

I am glad I found this website because none of my friends understand what I am going through…