Ok, so I started having weird bleeding. I was having a little cramp. then when I went to the washroom, and wiped there was some blood on the tissue, but no blood clots.
Only like really light like watered down with some brownish (TMI). & no knee aches like when I get my period… Now the cramps have stopped and bleeding only LIGHT LIGHT and really watery, brownish… Plus my PERIOD is not due for another WEEK. And I’ve still been feeling sooo nauseous and sooo tired… So what’s up??
Could it be implantation bleeding??
I always feel tired.
I’ve been sick (throwing up. I’ve been getting yeast infections a lot. I eat more than I can handle. I don’t like doing a lot anymore. I get headaches all the time now. All I want to do is lay down
It’s been a while since I have had access to my laptop… alone.
It’s been a difficult few days here in… I won’t get into the messy details because nobody likes those. Well… I will share a few otherwise, what’s the point of writing right? Well, my daughter, my beautiful beautiful, beautiful (I could go on) daughter picked up a bug from school and ended up in the hospital, which was beyond terrifying. Then my mother, who I worship, well she too found her way in the hospital the very next day. My father, the stable rock he’s been my whole life… Well, he LOST IT. The time I needed him the most, he lost it. Anyway, long story short, I felt as though my world was falling down around me and there was no one. I read something a while ago, we come into life alone and we leave life alone. That is why we cling onto those we have around us so tightly.
Both mom and daughter are still in hospital but are doing well.
Well today, I hope is a better day.
So far I have been down and not myself and well with load’s on my mind. A lot of things have just been bugging me about a lot of my so-called friends. You would think they would be on my side, but well some aren’t and well I know I shouldn’t care, but I do…….
Till next time.
Ya, I thought having sex with him was worth it.
Like, I thought we felt the same way about each other. But, I guess not. The few seconds of pleasure are not worth the forever pain, depression, feeling of loss, embarrassment, guilt, shame, and regret that it brings. Not to mention the anxiety of “WHAT IF I’M PREGNANT? OR WHAT IF I HAVE A STD?” Well, it’s been a month exactly since that night.
And I am so upset, but I know I’m not pregnant.
Oh my. I’m 7 days delayed.
I was supposed to have my period last Oct. 15, but it didn’t come. Last two weeks. I’ve been really stressed out because of school. But now I’m freaking out because of this delayed menstruation. I don’t want my parents to be hurt. They’re expecting a lot from me. I don’t know what to do. I want to have my menstruation. And there’s a white discharge in my undies. I’m really confused.
I’m still not sure that I’m pregnant. I’m wishing that I’m not. I’m not yet ready with this huge responsibility. I’m just 2nd college student. 🙁
