I work in a family restaurant. Many families consist of babies. So I usually see at least one baby a day. Since I have had an abortion, seeing babies is very hard for me, I feel a pain in my heart that just won’t go away. But this past week has been especially hard for me, and today was no fun. I was walking through the restaurant, all the while talking to a boy who I was training, when I made eye contact with one of the cutest babies I had ever seen. He had these huge blue eyes that seemed to be looking right into my soul. I literally stopped in my path and stared at this baby for nearly a minute when the boy I was training brought me back to reality. I apologized to him, and to the parents who had noticed how I was staring at their child. And I ran into the back and locked myself in the bathroom. I fell on the floor and began sobbing hysterically. I knew people would be able to hear me, and most would think I was some insane girl crying in the bathroom. But I just couldn’t help it. As soon as I saw that baby images from the sonogram popped into my head and I couldn’t help it. I’m so sorry baby. I wish I would have let you grow. I wish I could have held you in my arms.