The Diary of an Unborn Child
September 19:
Today my life began. My parents do not know it yet, but it is I already. And I am to be a girl. I shall have red hair and green eyes. Just about everything is settled though, even the fact that I shall love flowers.
October 3:
Some say that I am not a real person yet, that only my mother exists. But I am a real person, just as a small crumb of bread is yet truly bread. My mother is. And I am.
October 7:
My mouth is just beginning to open now. Just think, in a year or so I shall be laughing and later talking. I know what my first word will be: MAMA.
October 9:
My heart began to beat today all by itself. From now on it shall gently beat for the rest of my life without ever stopping to rest! And after many years it will tire. It will stop, and then I shall die.
October 17:
I am growing a bit every day. My arms and legs are beginning to take shape. But I have to wait a long time yet before those little legs will raise me to my mother’s arms, before those little arms will be able to gather flowers and embrace my father.
October 27:
Tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands. Funny how small they are! I’ll be able to stroke my mother’s hair with them.
November 4:
It wasn’t until today that the doctor told mom that I am living here under her heart. Oh, how happy she must be! Are you happy, mom?
November 9:
My mom and dad are probably thinking about a name for me. But they don’t even know that I am a little girl. I want to be called Jessie. I am getting so big already.
November 24:
My hair is growing. It is smooth and bright and shiny. I wonder what kind of hair mom has?
November 27:
I am just about able to see. It is dark around me. When mom brings me into the World it will be full of sunshine and flowers. But what I want more than anything is to see my mom. How do you look, mom!
December 8:
I wonder if mom hears the whispering of my heart? Some children come into the World a little sick. But my heart is strong and healthy. It beats so evenly: tup-tup, tup-tup. You’ll have a healthy little daughter, mom!
December 12:
Today my mother killed me.
I am so confused to the point that I don’t know what is my next turn. I am twenty years old with no college education and I’m expecting my second child. I don’t know what my next move will be knowing that my child will be 15 months old when I have this baby.
Life has never been easy for me. Growing up in a family that was destined to fall apart.
Last September, I found out I was eight weeks pregnant. I knew I wouldn’t, nor could, give up the baby. I had to think fast. Telling my boyfriend was the easy part. Telling my daddy was the part that made me wanna throw up just thinking about it. When it came time where I had to tell him, I had my aunt and boyfriend come with me. When I finally gathered up enough nerve to tell him, he actually took it well. I mean, of course, he was disappointed, but he saw it as, “Well it’s done… What can I do about it?”
As the pregnancy progressed, things got better. People started accepting the fact that I was gonna have a baby. I think it might have even made my life better, believe it or not. Now I have a beautiful daughter, Kylie Renee, that reminds me everyday what I have to live for.
I’m not gonna sit here and tell you that being a teen mom is a walk in the park because I would be lying… But it does give you a reason to smile everyday. Holding in your arms a little part of you that no one can take away from you (Except DHR, but you gotta give them reason to).
So the reason for posting this is because I wanna hear how it was and is for other teen moms.
Wow Am I Scared.
What am I going to do? This week determines it. So far no period…
AHHHHH I’m going crazy
I’m 17 and just had a miscarriage.
I never thought it would happen to me, but it did. My boyfriend has been supportive of me. But I don’t know how to deal with any of this. So I’m kinda just shutting everyone out of my life, but that’s just making it so much worse.
I feel so horrible. I don’t know what to do. Please someone help me.
I’m a 16-year-old girl, still living with her mum and I think I might be pregnant.
There is no question as to whether or not I’m keeping the baby, I could never let a life slip through my hands. My boyfriend is very supportive and says he will support me with my decision to keep the baby. However I know my mum won’t be as thrilled, I’m worried about being thrown out and if things don’t work with my boyfriend, I’ll have nowhere else to go. However, just before I got back together with my boyfriend, I had a very drunken night and I may have had unprotected sex with someone. I’m friends with this person, but I’m scared the baby might be his… I’m very very ashamed and have stopped drinking as a result. I love my boyfriend, but despite what he says, I don’t think he’d cope well if it was someone else’s.
Can you get pregnant when you’re on your period? Sorry, it’s my first entry… Please help? I really need advice, I’m really scared. xx
