Hey, I’m 17 years old and I’m 3 months pregnant.
I am afraid to tell it to my mom because she expects too much from me. I am her only daughter being raised alone. I haven’t met my dad ever since the day that I was born. I am a first-year college student in a private school and have good grades.
I am so confused if I will have an abortion though my boyfriend didn’t leave me when I told him about that.
Innocent eyes and sweet laughter, now vacant and empty
Staring into a dark void
Hot tears on my pillow
Scared to fight, Too young to understand
Cold hands everywhere, holding, touching, hurting
Rape and perversion
Blood, sweat, on my clothes
Hatred, confusion, disgust
Night after night, week after week, year after year
No longer a child, only an object
Silence, no dreams, no sleep
So many missing years
So many forgotten memories
All virtue, goodness, happiness gone
Childhood stolen, innocence murdered
Only pain and sadness remained
The child is gone, the child is dead
Nothing else remains.
When I found out I was pregnant, I was terrified, but not surprised in the least.
Me and my boyfriend should have been more careful, so we take full responsibility but I`m finding myself more and more down. Like, so much is going to change and it’s just become way too much like juggling my very last semester, work. I just stopped my guitar lessons. And all the emotions of the pregnancy as it is. I have friends, but I`m starting to find which ones are my true friends, the ones that are really there when you need them. And I went from a lot to like 6.
What can I do to put myself in a more optimistic mood? Anybody got advice for me?
Well, I’m 25. Me and my boyfriend are almost 8 months together. He was my long-lost love and we got back together.
But now the other issue is that he has a son with another girl and this girl is giving him a hard time. She doesn’t want him to see his child, so he is still fighting in court for his son. So in the meantime, I did get pregnant with his child and he didn’t want the child so I had an abortion because he was very mad, I also had 4 other abortions before this one. So I am a little touchy about babies and everyone getting married and pregnant, I also want this but he is always fighting with me about everything, including making food. I’m doing everything wrong. He also at the same time says he loves me and wants to marry me and have a child. But then again, he says he and his son’s stuff is not sorted out yet, “and that can take 2 to 3 years”. Now the new problem is I think I’m pregnant again, and I don’t want to go through another abortion and I already have depression. And I’m so scared to talk to him about it. I’m afraid he’s going to fight with me again. I am on birth control pills but something is not normal and it feels like I could be pregnant.
I don’t know what to do or to who I can talk to. I’m already so afraid of him. I’m even scared I’m going to do something wrong so I try to do everything correctly the way he wants it, but always he still fights with me about something else that I did wrong. Please could you help me with answers? I can’t really talk to anyone because if he finds out I’m scared, he will fight with me because I’m making our problem other people’s problem. Please Help!
I feel alone… I almost can’t stand how alone I feel…
It’s like my heart is broken… My closest friends just up and left the moment they found out I’m pregnant. I mean some were already drifting away, but it was like when they found out it was like the perfect excuse to leave, and now I feel like I have no one… I should be happy I’m going to be a mom and have a beautiful baby… But instead, I sit in my room… all day… crying at night.. just feeling alone. Yes, I have my boyfriend and my family and they try to help, but I just feel alone…. I don’t talk to anyone anymore. I don’t have friends. I don’t do anything because I’m never invited anymore and they never text or call me back… It’s like no one wants to hang out with the pregnant girl… I feel like the outsider. No offense, but I feel like the kid that gets picked last… or that no one wants on their team… All I do is cry at night and it’s just hard,…
I’m just soo lonely…. it feels like it’s breaking me down,,.
It’s really insane to me that people just turn their backs, especially when they said for so long that they were always going to be there and nothing is going to end your friendship and everything. It’s like they say that until that day comes when you say you’re pregnant, and then they get mad at you and tell you you’re dumb and to give the baby up and things that you really don’t want or need to hear, and even though you feel like you’re doing the right thing and that you can handle whatever choice you make. you really can’t. I would never give my baby up, and it’s like yes, I’m young and I don’t have everything figured out yet. But I will do what I have or need to for my baby, and no one is going to change my mind. Yes, I have my family’s and my boyfriend’s family’s support and they’re all excited and can’t wait. I still feel alone. I mean, I know that some of them have been in my shoes and they know what I’m going through and everything, but I still feel like the world is leaving me behind, shutting me out, you know?
It’s insane to know you have a baby growing inside you and depending on you, wondering if it’s a boy or girl, who they’re going to act like, whose personality they’re going to have…
I’m writing this because it’s a mixture of my feelings and thoughts. I want girls who are going through what I am, with all the feelings of being alone and everything, that there are people out there like you and you’re not alone. Yes, it’s hard to feel like it’s going to be okay, even with all the support in the world. You just have to give yourself more credit. You’re going to be a great mother, no matter what age you are when you become a mother.
Just keep your head up and keep fighting. No one can tell you what to do. your the one that holds all the power. if anyone needs to talk, you can add me on here and write on my wall or ask for my email or Facebook.
Just remember no matter what, you are not and will never be alone,
