feeling scared..???

This is my first baby. And I’m a little bit scared because they say delivering a baby is so very painful, I don’t know if I can do it…but I will try my best to do it…All I can do is to pray…

I don’t know. Also, I don’t know my exact due date because my period doesn’t come on exact dates…maybe May 30 or the week of June 1st??…All I wanna do is to be ready always. I already packed my things,

Help me to pray, guys…Hope I can do it!!… Thanks a lot…

Pregnant Again!

I am thirteen weeks and one day pregnant with baby number two! My husband and I call this baby, Baby A. We are hoping for a girl. We find out what we are having in June. I am so excited. Although I realize it is going to be hard since I already have a fourteen-month-old son. This baby is due in November, and by then my son will be twenty months old.

I love my babies and husband! <3

Decision……..

So today I just found out that I’m pregnant.

I have thousands of things running through my head and I’m so confused. My boyfriend said he would only support me if I had an abortion which makes this that much harder. I know that in the end, it is my decision but I don’t know what I should do. But I do know that no matter what decision I make my family and friends are behind me. Only my sister and aunt and two friends know and my boyfriend. It’s heartbreaking to know that this is happening to me. Although I do know there’s a reason. I’m only 18 years old and will be done high school in a month. I have already been accepted to police foundations for September which makes this that much more difficult. My sister and aunt want me to have the baby. But I’m sooooo confused and still in shock. I needed some people’s thoughts on abortion, adoption, and keeping the baby.

Thanks sooo much for everyone’s help.

Considering my options cont.

I think I am going to keep my baby, but I don’t know if I should give it up or raise her myself.

I haven’t told my parents yet and I don’t want to I think that if I told them they would try to make me get an abortion and if I went through that I couldn’t live with myself. We have been discussing telling my parents well when I say discussing I mean him saying he wants to and me crying. I feel so stressed out and so confused I just don’t think I would make a great mum. It is breaking my heart though to think that my parents might not be in my baby’s life. I just feel so sad and alone and I need to talk so this is why I am talking to you guys because you know what I am going through.

Bye

AHHHHHhhhhhh

I still can’t believe it! None of this seems real.

A month ago, I was thinking about atom economy and molecular structure, and now…welllllll. Now I’m pregnant. I’m actually pregnant. Pregnant. AHHH. This is not how I imagined it, it’s so much weirder and less storybook. I’m not married, this isn’t the right time, I’m too young, the dad might not even be around, can’t afford one baby let alone two, might have to drop out of uni…AAHHHHHHH the list is endless. Crazy endless list of reasons not to be excited, and why this isn’t a good thing. But I still am, cause inside me right now, right at this second, are two little humans. Little, tiny humans that are probably about the size of raisins. How odd is that? It’s the weirdest thing I’ve ever had to get my head around. In seven months, I’ve bringing two other people into the world. They could grow up to be anybody, they could have jobs and wives or husbands and children.

Bizarre, Weird, Crazy, Amazing. Absolutely amazing.

Pregnant<3 for sure this time.

I’m pregnant [:

I went to the doctor today because my kidneys were bothering me and they tested my pee for a preexisting problem. They asked when my last period was and it was April 1, so they ran a pregnancy test. It came back positive [: I’m only a few weeks at most. No one’s really sure. But me and the daddy are very happy and very excited [:

**If you’re going to ‘hate’ on this blog or tell me my decision is wrong, you can click off this blog right now. You don’t know me, This is MY life & Our baby.

Thank you [: