I got pregnant when I was 16.
Me and my boyfriend couldn’t of been happier, which is more than I can say about everyone else. Most people thought it was a bad idea that I keep my baby because I was so young and had ‘everything going for me’ like college, etc. and had my whole life ahead of me. Everyone had their own opinion to what I should do but me and my boyfriend had already made our minds up that we were keeping our baby, but didn’t tell anyone at first. But as my pregnancy progressed, everyone got used to the idea and got generally excited, especially after we heard his heartbeat and went to the first scan. I must admit, I was really worried about being a young mum and thought over my options quite a bit.
But now, when I look at my baby boy’s smiley little face, I’m sooooo, soooo, sooooo happy that I choose to have him. I made the right choice even when he’s up at 2 am in the morning, crying his eyes out, and I have to drag myself out of bed to make up his bottles. I have to smile and thank God for giving me something so special. Everyone loves him to bits and are glad that we’ve got him. I cant imagine my life without him now. He means the world to me and I know things can only get better from here 🙂
Going back to school was much easier than I had originally expected it to be. I’ve been back for eight days now I think but it still pretty much sucks already.
I hate getting up early every day, and I have tons of homework because of my lack of study halls and honors classes. I’m super happy about having two classes with my boyfriend, art and chorus, and nobody gives me any crap at all. Of course, I’m only one of three girls pregnant in my school and several others have babies. We’re not the most well-behaved school, to say the least, lol.
I’ve already started my first art project and it’s going to be this cute little weave with pink, yellow, and light green colors. I wanted to write Izabella or Izabella Jean on it but that’s way too complicated for me.
I’m getting pissed off lately. It feels like I’m going in circles.
Constantly working, not stopping for a single nap. I’m sleep-deprived, hungry, and just plain sore. Today is my well-deserved day off so it’s gonna be used for sleep. Last night was perfect for me: homemade soul food and an old Black and white movie. So if all goes as planned, I’m gonna quit both jobs soon.
I got my friend coming on the 20th and he’s staying here for 2 weeks. I should actually be cleaning my room. I’m gonna take a break from enlisting options soon too. I’m gonna wait 4 years so I can get my degree on my own, then enlist, hopefully Marines. Not unless within that time i get pregnant then I won’t. Getting my JROTC uniform together slowly. We’re getting fitted for jackets next week and Monday, we’re getting our pants. I’ve got everything else, though.
Well, off to my chores, good morning, good afternoon, and good night.
I am 30-something, have an advanced degree, a great guy (not married but together for a long time), and recently got a new job which will start in 2 weeks.
4 days ago, I found out I was pregnant, which is something I have actually wanted for a long time, but not now…. I am on a roll-a-coaster ride at the moment, wanting to keep this baby and wanting to end the pregnancy. Mostly because I do have this new job and because maternity benefits in this country suck. The guy said he will support me no matter what I decide to do, will even move with me if that is what I want.
I don’t know what I want and I really wish someone could tell me this is normal.
I don’t want to sound hypocritical or judgmental, but I really have to get this out.
I really don’t see how or why girls that are as young as fourteen desire to have a baby. To be closer to their boyfriends? So that someone will love them unconditionally? I dont know if they realize that there are people that love them. It’s called FAMILY. I’m sure their families care even though at times they feel alone. That doesn’t mean they are.
Having a baby is not the only way to get close to someone you love, even though you’re far apart. A relationship should be based on trust and communication. It bothers me that girls assume that by having a baby, everything will be ok. Truth of the matter is, IT DOESN’T! It’s only going to make it worse. Guys nowadays tend to change their minds about things. It is a rarity that a guy will actually step up to the plate. I’m sorry to have to say this, but there aren’t many real men out there, All there are are little boys pretending; the world doesn’t revolve around them.
It makes me sad when I hear girls saying having a baby is like babysitting, that is totally the opposite! Having a baby means having responsibility twenty-four seven. Unlike babysitting, you can’t give it back! Someone is depending on you, whether you like it or not. Are you sure that you’re ready both mentally and physically? Dont you want to live your life as a normal young person? Do you want to give up having a normal life?
I’m a young mom myself. I’m only 19. And frankly, I miss going out and having fun. I don’t even talk to most of friends because I have a responsibility. Everyday I wake up and get ready for work in the morning, then when I get home, I take care of my daughter. There are so many sacrifices to be made when you have a child and I made very important one. I gave my parents legal guardianship of my daughter. It’s not like I had a choice. I had to do it in order for both of us. They don’t accept single parents in the air force and in order for me to enlist, I have to give up full custody and I can’t gain it back until I get married. I’ll be leaving soon and I don’t think I’ll be there on her first birthday, but like I said before, there are many sacrifices to be made.
Hey, as you see, me and my baby’s father aren’t together anymore.
Well, as I told you in my last entry, which was quite some time ago that my ex-boyfriend was cheating on me with this girl. Well, he’s got her pregnant, but what makes it worse is the fact I was still pregnant with his son!!. . .
Makes me feel like crap x
