14 years ago, I had an abortion. I have regretted it since the moment it happened. Since that time, I have married the man I was with at that time, had two children, and lost two others in utero… All the while struggling to come to terms with what I did. I am an orthodox Jewish Woman, although I was not really religious at the time. I read a lot… I read it was OK to have an abortion… It was OK to do what I felt was best for me. We had no money. We had a relationship that neither of us thought would work out. He did not want the baby…
Having the abortion was a huge mistake. It was murder, plain and simple. I paid someone $300.00 to tear apart an innocent baby, tear it apart in what should have been the safest place in the world, tear it apart limb from limb and throw it away. That is the TRUTH of abortion. Plain and simple.
There are many options for dealing with a pregnancy you had not planned on. There are options for dealing with a boyfriend or husband who does not want the baby.
If I could go back in time and talk to myself, I would say.
1) You can do this. You are a woman and you are strong. You have more friends than you realize… Everyone does. You have a family… Some will help.
2) It is murder.. against the bible, against the Torah, against the Noahide laws… It is unforgivable by God in this life and the next.
3) You will regret it forever, period.
4) Don’t do it… Please… don’t do it. God has gotten you this far. He has given you food each day and a roof over your head, right? Your breath every day? Your heart is beating? He will take care of this too… Have faith… have Emuna (pure and complete trust in God)… He WILL take care of you and the baby… He will… period.
Peace and Blessings,
-me
Hi ladies 🙂
So a week ago, I found out that I am pregnant… Just my boyfriend and best friend know… Then my boss found out… I am a professional dancer, so having a baby would spoil my entire career… My boyfriend feels he is not ready. He wants to get married first. He is very old school, so he thinks I should go for an abortion and so does my boss….
I do not want to go for an abortion because, I do not want to regret it… I’m going for a scan on Sat, to see how far I am… and make a decision…
I’m still not sure what to do… I just don’t want to regret and hate myself for the rest of my life…
So, yesterday I went to my first ultrasound! (:
She had me in there for quite a while, measuring all the baby parts and such, and from that she said, I could be 2 more weeks further than we thought! So, I could be as far as 30 weeks already (: Meaning, the baby could be here 2 weeks earlier than my due date the doctors give me (based on my period). I am really hoping I am 30 weeks !!!
The baby was in a weird position yesterday so she wasn’t able to get many pictures, like different pictures. I got about 4 pictures, 3 of them are all profiles of the face, and you can’t exactly tell what the 4th one is… Lol.
I will be posting one of the pictures up later on though!
Ohh, and I did find out what I was having!! IT’S A LITTLE BABY BOY! (: Now, we have to start thinking of some names! (:
Today, I am going to my school to talk to the guidance counselor. She is going to help me out with my schoolwork and such. We will be switching some of my first semester courses with books and paper (science, history, etc..). So that way, a teacher will be able to come to my house up to 3 hours a week up to 6 weeks to help me with my work after the baby comes. I am happy to know that my school is going to work with me.
(I go to my next doctor’s appointment on September 12th, so I will give you guys a better update on the baby then! (: )
I may be young and only in middle school, but I’m ready to have a baby. And I do know how hard it is, but I know I’m ready. But who I’m with has said he doesn’t want kids, but after he met me he wants one. I’m 13 and he’s 15, he’s 2 years older than me, but we love one another and we are ready for this life and we are ready to bring a little miracle into this world.
I must confess, I am BEYOND impatient, that it’s freaking crazy and I rush everything, and I hate waiting. Truthfully, it is the worst feeling in the world. I’m 18 and pregnant, the worst combo. PREGNANT+IMPATIENT=CRAZY MOM!
IDK but I’m literally a freaking lunatic, being pregnant has made me into a whole new person, and I just, idk, wanna attack everything and everyone to move faster. It’s so embarrassing, but what I adore is that my baby’s father puts up with every second of it. IDK why, but the kid loves me <3
So, anyone know how to fix this? Because I think it’s only gonna get worse 🙁
So the first time I went to the doctor’s, it was just a regular thing. They also did all my blood work there as well.
Then a couple of days later, I went to a nurse (I liked her better x3). And she did the same thing my doctor did, but she was very more thorough with everything (:
My first actual check-up is tomorrow. My mom called them today from work not too long ago, and they wanted me in asap so they got me in for 9:30 am. Just because I am so far along without any checkups and such. I am kind of scared and nervous because I hear a lot of things about this doctor :/ But this is the doctor who my mom had for me and my little brother, I think. He will also be delivering my little one as well.
I hope tomorrow goes alright :/ Unfortunately, my boyfriend can’t make it due to work. But he can thankfully make it to the first ultrasound (: And then I’ll hopefully be able to work around his schedule for further appointments. My baby is moving around a lot inside ^_^ And my boyfriend felt it and he had the biggest smile ear to ear (: It made me feel so good. Usually, when he tries to feel the baby, it just won’t move for him… So this is the first time he’s actually felt it good. (:
Well, I am just hoping for the best for tomorrow. I am hoping this doctor is going to be decent to me because I already am not comfortable around any doctors… Just because of my family doctor :/. Anyway, my mom says this doctor is very blunt… So we’ll see what he has to say to me -.- .. I will update you guys tomorrow when I can on how my checkup goes with the baby and me.
Thanks for all the support! <3
