Couple of months have passed, I’m 14 now. I’ve decided for sure I want a baby. I wanna love somebody of my own.
People don’t realize how hard it is. I want a baby for myself. someone to have and hold. I’ve been thinking a lot about this. My mom thinks I’m dumb to think about that stuff at my age. I can’t help it. I try so hard to erase it outta my mind. I know it’s gonna change all my future plans for college and job as an actress. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I’m about to break down and give up.
Dear People,
I’m really young and got pregnant. The father of my baby is a lot older and I’m finding out it’s better that he’s not in our life. I’m due in less than 2 weeks and I love my baby and can’t wait to have him and see his face for the first time.
My baby’s father is a very good person. He’s doing things and getting himself into bad trouble. I can’t help but wanna help him. He did nothing for me when we talked. It’s not that I want to be with him, but I always thought when I got pregnant I would be married and in love and I’m not. I want someone special in my life who cares for me and just wants me to be happy. I don’t want anyone around my baby, especially a bunch of guys, but I think that’s what I need because I go to school and my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends that they spend their time with.
I don’t want to get involved with someone because I’m still hurting from his father. I just want someone that accepts me for who I am, can be a good friend because I really don’t have anyone in my life that I can call a really good friend.
I’m now lonely because I’ve always been the type of girl that has a lot of friends but I’ve pulled away from people because they’re not being what I need them to be for me right now.
HI, I’M 18 AND I JUST HAD A MISCARRIAGE IN JUNE.
OK, IT ALL STARTED WHEN I MET THIS BOY. WE HAVE BEEN GOING TOGETHER FOR 9 MONTHS NOW AND EVERYTHING WAS GOING GREAT WITH US. WE BOTH JUST GRADUATED FROM HIGH SCHOOL AND I WAS GETTING READY TO START SCHOOL AND SO WAS HE. WE DECIDED TO MOVE IN TOGETHER SO WE COULD SPEND MORE TIME TOGETHER AND ONE NIGHT, I GOT REAL SICK AND ME AND MY BEST FRIEND WENT TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM AND THAT’S WHERE I FOUND OUT I WAS 6 WEEKS PREGNANT. I WAS SO SCARED TO TELL HIM BUT I KNEW I WOULD HAVE TO TELL HIM SOONER OR LATER. SO I WAITED TILL HE CAME HOME FROM WORK AND I TOLD HIM AND HE WAS SPEECHLESS. THEN ABOUT A WEEK LATER, HE GOT ARRESTED FOR SOME STUPID STUFF AND I WAS SO STRESSED I LOST THE BABY. HE IS STILL LOCKED UP AND I HAVE BEEN SO STRESSED THESE PAST FEW MONTHS.
I’M SO LOST. WHAT SHOULD I DO? I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
I recently went to this place called Alternatives.
I only got to speak to one lady but she was extremely nice and understanding. Not like people that judge you by your age. They had a whole room full of stuff to help out teen moms like maternity clothes, baby clothes, diapers, cribs, and so on… It actually felt like they cared unlike the people most of us know that try and talk us into abortion or adoption. If anyone has one of these places in their state, I suggest going there. They do testing, counseling for multiple things like miscarriage and abortion, Some of their locations to ultrasounds and on top of it, all it really seems like they care and support you.
You can search Alternatives pregnancy.
I have thought for a while before deciding to write this. I’m normally a fairly private person. I need some help/advice because I’m going through a hard time at the moment.
I had my second baby girl (Alyssa) in July this year. 5 weeks and 2 days later, I made my first enquiry about adoption, and at 6 weeks, 3 days, had her placed into foster care while I explored it further. After only 6 days, I wanted her back. I was really confused and scared of what was to come. She was back in my arms within a couple of hours. However, as soon as she was in them, I realized that having her back was a mistake. I love her, but I’m not ready for a second baby. I’m still trying to get used to the first one (Jessica), who turned one a month before Alyssa was born.
I had a lot of emotional issues when Jess was born, which had me also looking at adoption at one stage. I eventually decided to keep her, but things have been far from easy with my own mother taking me to court for custody of her. This went nowhere – she had no basis for her case. I suspect empty nesters syndrome.
Although I was happy at being pregnant again – shocked (Alyssa is a pill baby) but happy, I did wonder if I wasn’t making a very big mistake at continuing the pregnancy because one child was already a handful.
Back to where I was… Anyway, Alyssa has been gone for 2 weeks and 2 days. I miss her like crazy, and love her very much. I want her back so bad – and because nothing yet is signed (takes a long time here), I could. But I make myself think about it and I’m just not ready. It makes me sad, it makes me cry. I have nobody that I can lean on for any support which also makes me feel very alone. Sometimes I feel like a zombie. I sit there and stare off into space, unable to concentrate on anything. To me, the choice of adoption is already made, but at this stage, it is by no means certain. My charming mother may take me to court to attempt to gain custody of Alyssa. The adoption counsellor and I have written a letter that I’m sending out to my family to try and explain things but I still fear WW3. If it gets to that, then the best way to ensure that my mother does not get to have my child is to keep her myself, which is something I really don’t want to do. I know my own capabilities as a parent. A second child is something I’m just not ready for. Getting into the mindset of adoption was hard enough without the possibility of this. I feel at peace with myself and my decision to give her up, and now dread the thought of keeping her.
I’m finding it really difficult to explain exactly what I’m feeling. I would love to chat to people that have been through the adoption process one way or the other. Also, just seeking plain advice and helpful words from anybody.
Thank you.
Well, I found out that I am having a baby girl… I really wanted a baby boy but I will settle for a little girl… Mommy’s princess is what I will call her…
I was worried today because she is usually a busybody but she didn’t move all day today. Even after I ate, she still didn’t move. I was worried that I was losing my baby… I went to the doctor where she told me that lil mama got herself tangled up in the umbilical cord… I was happy that I got there in time because I couldn’t risk losing the only thing that is close to me… I can’t wait till you get here Meleny Nicole… Mommy is waiting on you…
Love you very much
