I was once clicking the site as it is advertised by Google. Saw the posts and reading some stories that I have not been going through. But almost all the feelings they feel, I am feeling right now and right before I had the same stories.
That is why I am signing up and linking up my own blog for desperate feelings here in standupgirl.com. As a loner, a writer, I always tend to be alone. I do not like talking to my friends about what has been happening in me.
I am just so happy to meet you guys here in standupgirl.com, it’s just like I already have a group of friends beside me, oh no, right in front of me since I am in front of a computer (lol).
Hope to hear more from you guys soon and I will be telling you my whole story on my next post.
Nice to meet you, guys especially Becky for having this site. This is such a big help.
So I am 16 years old. And I think I’m pregnant, just one thing… I have bled… only spotty though…and I have had a negative pregnancy test.
I have had all the symptoms for a couple of weeks now and wondering if anyone else has had the same thing happen and still was pregnant. If I am, I have all the means to take care of a child. I just want to know if there is anyone else who has had the same thing. Please, because I know that teens have higher risks than people in their 20’s. So if you have answers, let me know so that I can get some medical treatment.
Thank you very much.
Soo, I just registered today cause I figured out I am 6 weeks pregnant today. I’m 15 years old.
I was at school and I took the test, immediately a positive. The day was just a friends with benefits. But right now, I’m a bit worried to tell my mom. She’s been suspecting it cause I told her my period was late and I’ve been feeling really sick. I had a pregnancy scare before too… but I wasn’t pregnant lol. But now I actually am and so much is going through my mind. I don’t know if I’m gonna get an abortion or if I’m gonna keep it and give the thing up for adoption.
I really just need support right now cause I have no idea what’s gonna happen, 🙁
Well, I found out yesterday, although I’ve known for about a week. I’m pregnant with my 2nd baby.
I don’t know what to do…. I am not for abortion! But I have no money I am already on welfare and I live with my grandmother. My babies’ father doesn’t think it is smart to keep it, our situation is not great. Our rent is 400 a month and it is hard for us to get that in time. He has a felony and I refuse to send my daughter to daycare and let someone else raise her!! Now that doesn’t leave us with very many options. I would never think of adoption, I couldn’t. At the same time, I can’t imagine having my unborn baby’s limbs ripped apart and skull crushed!!!! I mean wow, that’s a whole lot to think about. I know when it comes down to it the decision is 100% up to me…. and honestly that scares me, I alone will be the one killing my baby, not the daddy, not the doctor, ME!!!! And if something goes wrong? What if they don’t get the whole baby out and I find some in the toilet, what if they poke a hole in me and I bleed a whole lot, what if I can never have kids again????
Is that the risk I am really willing to take????
I always felt like I had my life all perfectly planned out. Graduate Highschool. Get a college degree. Marry the man I love. Have 2 or 3 kids by the time I’m 35. Well, I’ve quickly figured out life doesn’t always work out the way you plan it.
I will be twenty in November and I just started attending college. I’m pursuing nursing and I absolutely love it. I found out a couple days ago that I am pregnant with my boyfriend of 9 months. We’ve been living together for as long as we have been dating and it has been great. Yes, sometimes, I want to shake him really hard but that’s normal in any relationship and we both know we absolutely love each other.
I was with my mother at the time that I found out I was pregnant. She was very calm about it, but she pushed abortion. She is already trying to set up an appointment this week. My mother had me when she was 17 and she has been the most amazing mother I could ask for. She’s always been there and she has been my true best friend. I really would not have gotten where I am without her. She has a Doctorate degree and she says that she was very lucky to have gotten as far as she had being a young mother. (My stepfather is pretty well off and he helped her out tremendously.) She had 2 abortions (by my stepfather) and during the second one, she had her tubes burned. She says she does not regret any of her abortions.
I am my mother’s daughter, and I have always been pro-choice. I’ve always been a strong believer in waiting to have children until you are really ready to support another life. I have always said that if I ever got pregnant before I graduated college, I would have an abortion. But it’s easier said then done. My mother can be very controlling over my life. I’m her only child and she still sees me as her “baby”. When I had moved out of her house and in with my boyfriend in December, she was quite pissed. But my mother eventually got over it and she was happy for me until I got pregnant. Now she wants me to move back in with her, abort the baby, and then in the future, transfer to a four year university so I can party and pursue my degree. She says she knows what’s best for me. I used to think she did but now I feel as if she’s trying to make me live the life she never had the chance to.
Now my boyfriend will be 26 in December. (Our birthdays are 6 days apart.) He does not believe in abortion and he really wants me to keep the baby. When I had told him about the pregnancy, his face lit up and he wanted to tell everyone. He’s even talking about maybe getting married and I feel like I’m way too young. What aggravates me the most is that my boyfriend had an abortion when he was 19 with another girl he had a one night stand with. A few months ago when he told me about it, he said he wasn’t ready at the time and he’s happy she had it done. He felt that if he had that child at 19, he wouldn’t be able to give the child what he/she deserved. And yet, he’s telling me that if i get an abortion, he will be very angry and he will not want to see me for a while. He claims the reason why he has a different perspective with me is because he actually loves me and I’m not just a one night stand. (obviously) I’ve told him that I’M 19 right now and he’s at a completely different stage in his life. He’s had his chance to hang out with whoever he wants, do whatever he wants, whenever he wants, and however he wants at a younger age. I’m just now getting started. I told him that if I was his age then I wouldn’t even think about having an abortion and I would have the baby but since I’m not, it’s a different situation.
I want to make them both happy but I know that’s not possible and in the end, it’s really something that I will have to live with, Not them. I feel that college will be a lot harder and I will miss out on some of the things I would want to do but yet I do have some of the giddy feelings a woman has when she knows she’s expecting. I absolutely LOVE children and I know I will try to be the best mother I could be to any child I have. But I don’t know if I could be the mother I want to be at this moment. My goal when I have kids is to give them all the opportunities I had and more. That’s going to be a hard thing to accomplish at this time of my life, both financially and emotionally. I feel pressured from both my mother and my boyfriend. Both of them have great points. My mother worries that I’m way too young to be settling down and starting a family. She says that I can have a baby anytime I want to and what I need to do now is focus on myself and get my degree and get my life started.
Then there’s my boyfriend who I absolutely love and adore. He says he will be there for the baby no matter what and he loves me and thinks it’s a sign and everything happens for a reason. (We break up due to arguments (hence the preggo signs & neither one of us was happy about it) on the day of our nine month anniversary and the next day we find out I’m pregnant.)
I’m sittin’ on the fence… and I know I have to make the choice soon. I’m just scared to make that leap.
Well, that’s what they say! I’m not pregnant anymore but not because I had the abortion, but because I have had a miscarriage. The doctor said that I was fine and should just get on with it so here I am, a week later, still suffering the after affects and this is how and why I believe it happened?!
I decided that I couldn’t go through with what I was expected to do and was waiting for the first opportunity to beg someone that could do something to help, but I knew that there was nobody that could help me-but me and at this point, I was desperate to wake up from this nightmare and I decided to have a bath.
I ran the bath and watched the steam run down the mirror whalst my tears mimicked their motion, streaming down my cheeks. Uncontrollable tears, ones that start without you! I had only cried like this once before and that was when my father passed away, the feeling of air trapped in my lungs and my heart tightening…..
I soaked in the tub and rocked my belly as I did with my son there before but this wasn’t gonna be like the conversations I had with him. I was ready and I was starting to feel like I was going mad. I told the baby that dad was just angry and that when the time is right we, me and dad, would be ready and to stay close to my heart till then and I will call on the baby to come back! Now when I repeat it, it sounds so daft but I really felt like this was the only hope and that it would really work?
That night (Monday), I felt strange and fell asleep without thinking anything more of it. When my boy woke me in the morning, I felt hollow, almost disorientated. I was in pain and I knew it wasn’t good so I went straight to the toilet and it was clear that it was over. I had wished my baby away!!!!!
Now I know what you must be thinking, how daft, but it was all I could think to do in all of the madness and drama. I was loosing my mind and falling into a trap in my own head. This is actually what probably made me loose the baby, the stress of what was happening without my control. The fact of the matter is however or whoever’s point of view you look at, it wasn’t meant to be!
I suppose you want to know how I feel about it now. Not very different. I’m lonely and confused. I’m just getting on with being the best Mum I can be for my beautiful son and enjoying every waking moment that I’m with him. He is such a loving child. I will still think what if but what has happened is really out of my control now and not something I have been forced into. I’m sure if I had gone through with the termination, I would be writing a very different blog, that’s if i hadn’t done something more drastic!
xxx
