Well, I found out yesterday, although I’ve known for about a week. I’m pregnant with my 2nd baby.

I don’t know what to do…. I am not for abortion! But I have no money I am already on welfare and I live with my grandmother. My babies’ father doesn’t think it is smart to keep it, our situation is not great. Our rent is 400 a month and it is hard for us to get that in time. He has a felony and I refuse to send my daughter to daycare and let someone else raise her!! Now that doesn’t leave us with very many options. I would never think of adoption, I couldn’t. At the same time, I can’t imagine having my unborn baby’s limbs ripped apart and skull crushed!!!! I mean wow, that’s a whole lot to think about. I know when it comes down to it the decision is 100% up to me…. and honestly that scares me, I alone will be the one killing my baby, not the daddy, not the doctor, ME!!!!  And if something goes wrong? What if they don’t get the whole baby out and I find some in the toilet, what if they poke a hole in me and I bleed a whole lot, what if I can never have kids again????

Is that the risk I am really willing to take????