Well i found out yesterday, although i've known for about a week. I'm pregnant with my 2nd baby. I don't know what to do…. i am not for abortion! But i have no money I am already on welfare and i live with my grandmother. My babies father doesn't think it is smart to keep it, our situation is not great. Our rent is 400 a month and it is hard for us to get that in time. He has a feloni and I refuse to send my daughter to day care and let someone else raise her!! Now that doesn't leave us with very many options, i would never think of adoption, i couldn't. At the same time i can't imagion have my unborn babys limbs ripped apart and skull crushed!!!! I mean wow that's a whole lot to think about. I know when it comes down to it the decision is 100% up to me…. and honestly that scares me, I alone will be the one killing my baby not the daddy, not the doctor, ME JESSICA!!!! And if something goes wrong? What if they don't get the whole baby out and i find some in the toilet, what if the poke a hole in me and i bleed a whole lot, what if i can never have kids again???? Is that risk i am really willing to take????
