i still love him!!

He left me because of his little brother but he said that he still loves me but that we can’t be together right now cause of his family. Little does he know he has a little one to love too and to make a decision as to if he wants to follow his heart or his parents.

My Story

I am 17 years old and just graduated from High School. It was hard work graduating. I did 17 credits out of the 100 needed in only 2 weeks time. Some people said I couldn’t do it, but I proved them wrong! I walked the stage on June 21. I found out I was pregnant only 2 days later. I didn’t know what was happening. I took a total of about 6 tests and my boyfriend thought I was crazy because I just didn’t believe the positive result. I was on birth control and I never thought anything like this would happen to me. It started out faint and then it got darker as the days went on. I took a digital test for my last test and the word Pregnant came up on the screen. Even though it was my 6th pregnancy test, I was in complete shock. I didn’t know what to think or what to do.

It briefly crossed my mind that I should just get an abortion and get on with my life.  After all, I had plans on going to Australia and becoming a nurse, how was I supposed to do so with a child? Then I realized. I’m being so selfish for wanting to kill an innocent child just because it’s not convenient for me to have it. It didn’t take long for me to decide that I was going to keep my baby no matter what happened. My boyfriend was very supportive through all of this and I am very happy about that. He was unsure about it at first, but said he would stand by my side no matter what.

I didn’t actually have to tell my mom, she asked me before I even got the chance. She was going away on vacation and I wanted to tell her after she had gotten back, but she noticed I wasn’t as moody as I should have been on my period and ended up asking me. I had no choice but to tell her and I was quite amazed at her response. She was a little disappointed but she was very supportive and told me she would be there for me 100%.

My boyfriend told his mom. She was very shocked (I don’t even think she thought we were having sex). She came over and hugged me and I was glad that she was supportive too. His dad was more angry at the fact that we had so many plans that we would have to cancel or change, but he is fine now and is dealing with it in his own way.

I am 16 weeks pregnant now and things are going well. I haven’t had any sickness, which is fine by me! I go in on October 10th (just under 3 weeks) for an ultrasound where we will hopefully learn the sex of the baby that we have temporarily named George, which is a sort of family tradition.

I will either be going to school to become a nurse or an ultrasound technician next year. However, we will not be going to Australia, maybe when we are older. I am very excited about this pregnancy and every milestone is amazing. I cannot believe that I even thought about aborting this child. As I look forward to feeling movements, finding out if it’s a girl or a boy, naming, and all the other fun aspects of pregnancy, I always remember that this pregnancy is a gift and a blessing of some sort. My boyfriend and I have already fell in love with this child!

A MIRCLE PREGNANCY AT 17

Pregnancy is supposed to be the most joyful time in a woman’s life.

I was 15 when the man of my dreams proposed to me (October 26th) six months into our relationship. I said yes, of course. Everything in our lives was going the way we had hoped. He was in the service, about to go to Iraq (that was his dream). I was about to be a Sophomore in high school and swore to wait for him (even before he proposed to me). I turned 16 on January 1st. In February, I was diagnosed with kidney disease. After so many hospital stays and tests, they have found that it is called acute interstitial nephritis. It means the lining of my kidneys are inflamed and there is 27% function in the one kidney and 30 in the other. Drs. were telling me I may never be able to have children because of this it would be hard. My body wouldn’t handle the stress of being pregnant and I would have miscarriage after miscarriage. I had just gotten engaged, the thought of having children was definitely something both of us wanted later on in the future.

Because of all the hospital visits and Dr apt, I had missed so much school that I ended up being home schooled for awhile and started to become so stressful that I decided to take a leave of absence and get my G.E.D instead. My fiancé ended up getting an honorable discharged from the army so he didn’t go overseas, thank God. We moved in together in his father’s house in New Jersey. He got a job at a store stocking shelves and delivering for pizza hut. I was job less because everyone refused to hire me because of my medical problems. I waitresses for a while but had to take off for a Dr apt, told them about my disability, and they fired me that same day. And it just so happens that everyone was finding out they were pregnant: his sister in law, our next door neighbor, my aunt, my best friend, everyone but me.

There were a few times we thought I could have been, but the test always came back neg. I was thinking OH MY GOD this is really happening to me. When he asked me to marry him, he said would you do me the honor of being my wife and the mother of my children. I said yes with intentions of having children. Now, I feel completely useless as a woman. I can’t even have a child. His nephew Liam was born the day after Christmas, our next door neighbor had her daughter on the 14th of Jan, My aunt had my cousin Julian March 6th, and my best friend was due in July. I was staying with my grand mom in Pa cuz that’s where my insurance is. I had to get a kidney biopsy. Well my uncle who lives in Philly was getting married so my fiancé comes and picks me up 2 weeks before the wedding. After the wedding, I go back to my grandmother’s for MORE DR. APT then I go back with him in the beginning of April. We argued one day. He swears I’ve become totally bitchy and I say I have a lot on my mind, him. being all intrigued. thinking something’s wrong with us, sits down next to me, looks at me with those big beautiful blue eyes, and says then talk to me.

WELL LL,,,, it’s almost May. I haven’t had my period since the beginning of March. Do you think you could be pregnant, he says? Well its possible but I doubt it. Would it make you feel better if I go to CVS and get ya a pregnancy test. Yeah, I think it would. He gets me a three pack: two regular ones, one digital one. I sneak one into the bathroom, take the test, and it’s telling me I’m pregnant!! No wait, I’m reading it wrong. OK, don’t freaking scream. I’ll go to the car and read the directions again. So I find him on the back porch and he’s like soooo and I’m like we have to go to the car to read the directions. He’s like why and I’m like cuz I think it’s saying I’m pregnant. His face lights up like the fourth of July. REALLY ARE YOU SURE?! I’m like NOOOO, I don’t know that’s why were going to the car to read the directions. So he reads the directions and says, no babe you’re pregnant. I’m so bewildered by this point. I tell him to leave, let’s go somewhere. So we go to the battlefield. I use their bathroom to use the digital one and in big letters, it says pregnant. So I def wasn’t reading that one wrong lol.

I’m 17 years old and I’m due DEC 14th.

sorry

Hey sorry, I haven’t been on in a long time but me and my baby’s daddy broke up like three weeks ago and it’s been really hard on me.

ANGEL IN THE MOON LIGHT

ANGEL IN THE MOON LIGHT
By Joan Estelle High

I walk all alone on the ocean shore,
I watch the waves flow out to sea.
I’ve never been so alone and poor,
Since they have taken you from me.

My heart beat seems in harmony.
Within the ocean’s ebb and flow.
I have tried to release all the pain.
But it just won’t seem to let go.

I can hear the ocean calling me.
It is like a temptress in the night.
I yearn to have the sea bury me,
Long to die in the cold moon light.

Suddenly an angel appears to me,
Coming from where I do not know
It came to calm and comfort me.
For it is not the time for me to go.

Many other adventures await me.
As I will return to the sandy shore.
For I know we’ll meet in Eternity,
There my heart will grieve no more.

HELP! please!

I just found out I’m pregnant on Monday. Me and my boyfriend have been together for 4 years, and we’ve lived together for 2 years. I’m 22 and he’s 27.

I told him immediately when I found out I was pregnant and he took it well, but didn’t say much at first. I’ve been off birth control for about 2 months now (due to insurance messing up) and he’s known. He even told me about a month and a half ago that he wanted to have a baby and even asked me if we had sex that day did I think I could get pregnant. So we did and when we were done he even asked me not to get up right away. Now I’m pregnant and he’s asked me to get an abortion. He says “We’re not ready” and instead is saying he wants to get married and wait 2 years and then have a baby.  I don’t want to have an abortion, but I don’t want him to resent me and my child for me going through with my pregnancy. He told me that he would be there for me and support me through the abortion and even now, but he hasn’t. Today, he left me in bed all day, alone, crying, while he was in the living room watching tv with his friends, so I left to go to my mothers house and now he’s ignoring me because I left.

I don’t know what to do. I’m so hurt and so upset. I’ve researched abortions and want no part of it! But my only choices are to keep the baby and face having to do it on my own if he doesn’t step up (and if he does, I’ll face him resenting me and my child forever) or I can get an abortion and live with the pain and regret for the rest of my life. I’m not sure if I could handle raising a child on my own because I feel emotionally unstable after what he’s put me through. Because him and I have been together for so long, it would be hard for me to not be emotional about having his child.

What would you do in my situation? Please, I just need someone’s advice! Thank you.