Hi. Recently, I have just lost my virginity. I’m really scared because me and my partner did not use any protection.
I can’t be pregnant because I’m only 15 years old and I know I’m not going to be able to go through with it. But before this happened, I always told myself I’d never get an abortion because I’d never be able to live with the fact that I killed a baby inside of me because of my mistake. I don’t know what to do because if I am pregnant, I’d hate to be a bad influence and the bad rebel kid in the family, plus I’m the youngest of 5. But anyway, I’m just praying 100% that I’m not, and I’m hoping my friend can get me a test because I’m desperate to know that I’m not pregnant. I hope and pray that I’m not and I hope you guys will too. But if anything, I’m trying to be prepared with what I need to know if I am and how I would handle the situation…
Any advice/suggestions?
Hi all.
Firstly, I just want to say big ups to this website. Reading everyone else’s story has inspired me to write my own as I know I’m not the only person going through what I am at the moment!!
Where to start, well right now, I’m actually confused about whether I’m pregnant or not. I have sore and darkened nipples, heartburn, constant thirst, and constant toilet stops as well as bloating and some really weird cramping. I have been having unprotected sex so it is just a niggle I have. I know I should take the test but I am afraid of the result………….
This is where things get complicated. My mum gave birth to me at 14 and I have been raised by her parents who have given up so much for me and who I am very very grateful for. I also know they are very proud of me and am hoping I graduate from the study I am currently doing. I’m afraid that if that test turns out a pink line or a positive sign that I can not tell them as I don’t want to let them down, or have them feel as though they have failed.
If I am pregnant, the next predicament i would face is breaking the news to the baby’s father. I’m unsure if I will, although it would be hard to hide from him (I am against having an abortion). He is one of my closest friends who I have known for around 6 years. We became very close early this year after his girlfriend left him and we began sleeping together. I love him and would do anything to protect him from this, should the test be positive. I know you must all be thinking that i should have no problems telling him as he is a close friend. I mean hell, I tell him everything else that’s going on. BUT he has a 6 month old son to his previous girlfriend and I don’t want him to not be able to focus on his boy. I’m so afraid of ruining his life, as I would keep the baby and give him or her the best possible life I can. It just all seems so hard right now
PLEASE help. Any suggestions on how I could possible break this kind of news to him or my parents would be so greatly appreciated. I’m so confused. I will keep you posted as I have set a “D” date to take the test.
I read Jasmyn’s story and I was just amazed. I couldn’t help but cry.
I am a mother of three and one on the way and I just somewhat recently got out of a really bad relationship. I was married to this person for almost five years and he was abusive in every way possible. I finally got up the courage to leave last year and the divorce was finalized in May!! I went online because I had heard about a program where you can finish school and actually get a diploma. I went through all the tests and assignments and ended up paying around $300 to get it all done. They sent me a diploma and a tassel (hope I spelt that right). I was so excited that I would finally be able to get a good job and support my children!! I went and tried to get into some cosmotology schools and was rejected… None of them would accept a diploma from an online school. I feel so frustrated. That doesn’t even explain how I feel. I just don’t know what to do. I want so badly to be able to get a good job that will support my family but 95% of the employers out there wont hire you unless you have a degree of some kind. I don’t know what to do or where to go. I just find myself feeling alone frustrated and worthless.
I want nothing more than to be a good mom and be able to support my children without having to depend on others.. If you have any advise PLEASE, write me. I really could use someone to talk to. PLEASE.
Hi, my name is sin and I’m pregnant. I am about 15 weeks but this Thursday, I will know for sure because I am having my first scan. I am 17 years old and I turn 18 very soon. I am extremely excited and abortion was not an option for me as I am very sure I want to keep this baby.
Everything seems to be great in my life right now. I am talking to my best friend again after she had her beautiful baby girl and my boyfriend is very supportive. My mum is the only one who knows and she was very supportive also.
I am doing everything I can to make this pregnancy go amazing. I am sleeping when needed, walking every day, eating healthily, and most of all, given up smoking, drinking, and caffeine which was very hard for me to do.
I have joined this site because although everything is going good, I have bad anxiety and days where I feel like killing myself for no reason and I can’t get support from anyone else because I am not that kind of person who spills their feelings out. I hope I can support people and give a good story.
I’ll keep updated.
Sin x
OK, so the night before I had the baby, Sep 11, I could not sleep. I kept getting period cramps and I just felt so uncomfortable… I was 37 weeks 6 days… When I finally got up, September 12, around 7 in the morning, I felt a big gush and out came my water… I was shocked and surprised because I was wondering when it would occur and I was thinking it would never happen and I would be prego forever. lol
Anyways, I got dressed, called my mom and my boyfriend, and told them to head to the hospital cuz I was going into labor… I was so scared. I walked to the hospital since I live 2 blocks away. Meanwhile, water is dripping non-stop down my leg… I get admitted around 8 am… The doc checks me and I’m 70% effaced, 1/2 cm dilated. I’m like oo no, I’ll be here forever… Anyways, contractions were coming every 5 mins but weren’t bad at all… Around 12, I get checked and I’m 80% effaced, 1cm dilated. Since it’s going by so slow, they gave me medication to help me dilate… Around 5 pm, they check me and I’m 100% effaced, 3 cm dilated and the pain is soooo frikin’ bad. I’m like the exorcist at this point. I kept getting a lot of pressure down there and I kept thinkin I needed to poop lol but nothing of course came out…. I beg for an epidural… I finally get one at 6 pm and I’m so relaxed and I fall asleep… I wake up 2 hours later at 8 pm and I get this really strong pressure down there and some pain. So I tell them I REALLY need to push so they check me and to everyone’s surprise, I’m 10cm dilated!! Yaiihhh. So they set everything up and tell me to push… I literally pushed for about 10 mins and she came out…Iit was the best experience ever to finally hold her and see her… The first thing I said to her was FINALLY! lol
Well girls, that’s it for now :O) I’m enjoying my little princess. She’s a month old today. How time flies :O)
I am in so much pain constantly emotionally. I had an abortion in February. I never wanted to do it. My boyfriend convinced me. He didn’t even come with me to the clinic. He picked me up but that’s all. I remember the night before the abortion, I was with my friend who was coming with me and I just cried and cried and cried. I didn’t want to go through with it. I was almost four months pregnant! it was weird because when I’d be walking, I’d always hold my tummy, not realizing I was even doing it.
I think I wanted to protect my baby. Even though I killed them in the end. It’s not easy. I think about my baby every day of my life. I cry myself to sleep most nights and have random breakdowns. I don’t regret getting pregnant. I regret the abortion. My baby would’ve been about a month old.
I’ll always be a mum, just my baby will be in heaven.
If I ever have any other children, I will make sure they know about their little brother or sister that is watching over them from heaven. I talk to her all the time and tell her I’m sorry. I just fear that she hates me. Cause I sure hate myself. I’d give up anything just to have her with me right now.
Even my youth worker told me to have the abortion. I would’ve done it though. I would’ve had a reason to live. Where as now, I don’t. I have a reason to die and that’s to go to heaven and be with my child.
Please consider EVERY option before abortion. You will regret it.
