Hi all.

Firstly, I just want to say big ups to this website. Reading everyone else’s story has inspired me to write my own as I know I’m not the only person going through what I am at the moment!!

Where to start, well right now, I’m actually confused about whether I’m pregnant or not. I have sore and darkened nipples, heartburn, constant thirst, and constant toilet stops as well as bloating and some really weird cramping. I have been having unprotected sex so it is just a niggle I have.  I know I should take the test but I am afraid of the result………….

This is where things get complicated. My mum gave birth to me at 14 and I have been raised by her parents who have given up so much for me and who I am very very grateful for.  I also know they are very proud of me and am hoping I graduate from the study I am currently doing.  I’m afraid that if that test turns out a pink line or a positive sign that I can not tell them as I don’t want to let them down, or have them feel as though they have failed.

If I am pregnant, the next predicament i would face is breaking the news to the baby’s father. I’m unsure if I will, although it would be hard to hide from him (I am against having an abortion). He is one of my closest friends who I have known for around 6 years. We became very close early this year after his girlfriend left him and we began sleeping together. I love him and would do anything to protect him from this, should the test be positive. I know you must all be thinking that i should have no problems telling him as he is a close friend. I mean hell, I tell him everything else that’s going on. BUT he has a 6 month old son to his previous girlfriend and I don’t want him to not be able to focus on his boy. I’m so afraid of ruining his life, as I would keep the baby and give him or her the best possible life I can. It just all seems so hard right now

PLEASE help. Any suggestions on how I could possible break this kind of news to him or my parents would be so greatly appreciated. I’m so confused. I will keep you posted as I have set a “D” date to take the test.