It’s really hard. Everything is really really hard.
I thought it was over, y’know. I had a plan.It changed and I formed a new safer, better plan than before. I was going to wait and be patient and be smart and not try, not dream, cease from wishing. All this time, that little candle has been dimmed but still burnt quietly inside me, still warm, still present. I thought it would stay that way but as it was left quietly, burning in the depths of my heart, unnoticed, it grew into an awesome blaze. My burning desire to be a mother and have a baby has returned and as much as I douse those flames in water, they return stronger still. I fight with myself constantly and the pro’s and con’s have gone around so many times in my head there are footprints…I just don’t know what to do with myself at times. It gets so lonely fighting with your head and your heart and your common sense. I feel like if I try harder and get pregnant, it would be right and good for him…I almost know it with the same certainty I have that there is a God…Help me….x
(PS Thanks and love to everyone that has commented on my past blogs…I couldn’t see the comments before which is why I didn’t write back but now I’ve figured it out, I will write back to all comments in future! 🙂 )
Hi, I’m 19 years old, have been with my boyfriend for 3 years.
I stopped taking the pill at the start of August because I was on medication and I had unprotected sex on the day I stopped taking it. It’s been like 2 or nearly 3 missed periods and nothing. I have been waiting for my period to come so I can go back on the pill. I took a pregnancy test on Monday 27th, negative. So surely by now if I was pregnant, I would have produced enough hormones to show a positive on a test? I have had quite bad cramps in my sides and feel like I am going to start my period but nothing (that is my only symptom other than aching breasts every now and then but that’s normal for when I’m going my period).
What should I do? I don’t think I’m pregnant but I want to know. Should I just start taking the pill again, hoping it will bring on my period? Any advice would be much appreciated, thanks.
I don’t want to be here anymore. No one understands how hard it is to kill your own child. I just want them back. She would’ve been born now, in my arms as I type, and I would’ve been telling you all about her.
Praying everyday that I don’t get my period. then crying my heart out when I do, it’s no way to live. But I’m not ready to let go of my baby. I still have her photo. I’ll never be able to get rid of it. Never. It’s the last thing I have of her. I’m thinking of getting a tattoo with her name written across my chest so that she’ll always be close to my heart wherever I go.
You know what hurts the most? Missing my baby so much that I want to die. and knowing I’ll never see her ever. It’s the worst feeling in the world.
I just feel like I’m not worth anything anymore, am I? To everyone else in the world, I’m just some teenage trash who got pregnant and had an abortion. You know when I first found out i was pregnant, I was so ashamed of myself. I instantly thought of what my nana would think of what everyone would think. Not once did I think about myself and my baby. When I went to the abortion clinic for my first appointment and saw my baby on the screen and her little heart beat that was when it hit me
I had a baby growing inside of me. And she was beautiful. I changed my mind. I wanted to keep her so bad. But my boyfriend told me no. So I had the abortion and I’ve lived in pain everyday since.
I found out I was pregnant about 4 or 5 weeks ago. I am right now about 9 weeks.
It’s been very crazy, and seems like things are starting to get back to normal. I have so many choices to make in the next few months that will change everything. I told my parents about my baby. At first, they were disappointed but they’re now the most supportive people. My grandma, on the other hand, it’s hard, it’s weird, but we’re all working through it. My boyfriend has been helping a lot too even though we fight about everything. It seems like all he does is work and we don’t see each other as much as we used to. It kind of hurts to not see my baby’s daddy and the love of my life. But once this baby is born, he will be around a lot more. I just hope that all this fighting doesn’t hurt us. I love him so much and this little baby growing inside of me is a blessing. In the end, I think things will turn out right. Tomorrow is my first doctor visit and I’m very scared to see what happens. I have to go into cyber school soon but I don’t know if I really wanna do that…..
Well, I got to go!!
I am young and in love… I have promised myself not to have sex until I was married but that promise failed.
Well, now I am two weeks late and I don’t know what to do. I have a whole life ahead of me and I don’t want to ruin it but I also don’t wanna kill my first child. WEll, my boyfriend was excited and upset at the same time, and he’s up for whatever I wanna do. I haven’t told my family yet because right now, I don’t know how to tell them… I know that they are going to be upset with me because I was anointed and very gifted but sometimes I can’t help my actions. I have never been through this before and all I need is some encouraging words and people that have already been through the same thing I’m going through to help me out…
UGH, I’m so confused.
I met my boyfriend in August last year. We became very close within a short period of time, and have been dating now almost 10 months. On our 5-month anniversary, he proposed to me.
I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. I’ve been through so much this year and he’s the only one that truly understands and has been there by my side. He’s the only guy that’s ever actually treated me right.
A few weeks after he proposed, we had sex for the first time [we were both virgins]. A week or two later, I noticed some light spotting… I’m now 16 weeks and 4 days pregnant. My fiancé is overly excited about being a dad, he’s 17 and has a good-paying job so he’ll be able to support us. I have very mixed emotions about all this.
I’m very young to be having a baby, but I’m very mature for my age, I’m not just a wreck-less teenager. I’m a straight A student, don’t go out and party, LOVE kids, don’t drink or smoke. I have goals set for myself, that I plan to achieve. And I truly am in love with the baby’s dad, he means the world to me. I have him to thank for me even still being here. I couldn’t have gone through everything this year without him.
