A gift or curse??

I’m 21 years old and I’ll graduate on April 3 with a degree in Journalism and with a baby on my womb. Right now, my parents don’t know my situation. They expect me to have a wonderful future. Can’t believe that I’ll be in this situation, it’s like I was trapped by my boyfriend. The moment we found out that we’ll have a child, he told me that it was his plan. He really loved me, it was his way of trapping me. Right now, I’m really confused about whether to keep our baby or consider abortion. He was just 19, a 3rd year college student. Can’t believe that he did this to me. What’s worst is, I don’t love him the way he loved me. I have many dreams, I don’t want to have a child yet.

With regard to our child, I already have a name for him/her, “Carley Gayle” if she is a girl and “Hero Carley” just in case he’s a boy..

Right now, I’m really confused and to make it worst, I have a hard time studying. I always feel sick, sleepy, and most of the time, my head aches…

Gosh… May God help me… I’m really confused… I don’t know how to tell my parents, how to deal with my boyfriend who’s really weird. He told me that he really loved me but then there’s always rumors about him. He’s a varsity player and my friend told me that he’s seeing other girl despite the fact that we’ll be having a child soon..

Sometimes, when its time to go to sleep. I wish that I’ll not wake up. I’m praying to God that soon things will be over…

Gosh… I really don’t know what to do…

So I told My Ex I Might Be Pregnant.

OK, So I am 16 years of age. And I am in love.

My boyfriend broke up with me February 3 and started dating another girl February 4. Which broke not only my heart but everyone else’s also. Me and him had been best friends before we dated and stuff. Well February 10, I did something very “skanky”. I snuck out of my house and had unprotected sex with him. Cause I knew I still loved him and I was hoping he still loved me even though he was dating another girl. Well that night, when I left his car, I came out of it a totally different person than I did going in. I came out a woman whose future is most likely going to change forever.

He told me to keep it a secret and I did but it ate me away inside. So I told my Mom & step-mom. They weren’t mad. My mom was upset but not mad. I’m not really sure what I can do but sit and wait. Tonight, I told him that I was most likely pregnant. And he freaked on me. I had to tell him over an email at that. I couldn’t have the strength to do it in person. I was crying as it was. He signed offline after a few minutes of me telling him and him calling me a liar about other stuff. He came back on and said he shouldn’t have ran and that everything was going to be OK. And for me not to worry. I worry about every little detail of my life. I can’t not worry about something like being pregnant. It scares me. He tells me not to worry, and everything is going to be fine. And that I’m not pregnant and need to calm down. When I have been totally calm but so scared. I have class with him every other day. Talk to him everyday. He is still my best friend. And even if I’m pregnant, I hope he is still going to be there for me. Not only as my best friend but as a father to his child. I’m not sure what all is going to happen. I mean my dad still thinks I’m a virgin and this isn’t the first time i have had sex. I’m just frightened is all.

Does anyone know of anything I can do? Even though there really isn’t anything I can do.

scared

I’m 15 and pregnant, my boyfriend’s mom wants me to get an abortion.

I told her that I want to keep the baby but she keeps saying abortion is the right thing for me. It doesn’t matter how many times I say I think it’s wrong, she keeps telling me and making me feel bad for not getting one. I really don’t want one but I don’t know what to do. Should I get one so she doesn’t hate me, or should I keep it and let her hate all she wants? I’m so scared. I don’t know how I will support my baby either or where I will stay because the person I live with wants me to move out… or else pay rent and my boyfriend can’t move in even if it’s to help me. 🙁 I’m really sad and confused right now. I don’t know what to do. I need help but I don’t know where to get it. Some of my family disowned me a while ago because I don’t live with my mom and because I have a boyfriend and he’s black. Everything is so f-d up right now, 🙁

I’m really lonely and scared and worried for my baby’s future…

My Pain

The pain grows larger as I wait

They say that it shall become weaker as time goes by,

I hope that he doesn’t have me wait long

I worry about him leaving me as well.

I am still in a massive amount of pain without him.

My pain grows bigger now that I can’t figure things out

Becoming more weaker by the minute,

Don’t let the pain take over my life.

Finally at peace with my decision.

I wanna fight for my baby to live. I just need a super boost to have the stamina, I feel so weak. Tomorrow, my husband wants to take me to an abortionist against my will. I want to go for our first sonar at the GY-N.  Guess I’m gonna have to go through this pregnancy alone…completely alone. My family hates my husband, they won’t support me.

But it’s worth it when I think of all my babies enjoying each other. Playing, laughing, my son and daughter get along so well. Having a baby brother or sister will add to the joy. We will get through this, I pray we will. Please, God, come through for us.

I read the most beautiful story in the Bible last night. God has confirmed to me in no uncertain terms that keeping this baby is in his will…

I can’t wait to see you, to hold you, smell you, and see the looks on your brother and sisters’ faces when they meet you for the first time.

I wish your Dad will be there… I hope in time he will change his mind.

I can’t wait to see you on the sonar tomorrow…

almost 3 months!!! :/

Okay, so it’s been almost 3 months (11 weeks) since I had my last period and they are still irregular. I’ve only been getting them since 14. I’m now 16. I had protected sex right before my last period which was like 10-11 weeks ago and I haven’t had any pregnancy symptoms other than no period I don’t know what to do?!?!?!?!?

Please help