I wanna fight for my baby to live. I just need a super boost to have the stamina, I feel so weak. Tomorrow, my husband wants to take me to an abortionist against my will. I want to go for our first sonar at the GY-N.  Guess I’m gonna have to go through this pregnancy alone…completely alone. My family hates my husband, they won’t support me.

But it’s worth it when I think of all my babies enjoying each other. Playing, laughing, my son and daughter get along so well. Having a baby brother or sister will add to the joy. We will get through this, I pray we will. Please, God, come through for us.

I read the most beautiful story in the Bible last night. God has confirmed to me in no uncertain terms that keeping this baby is in his will…

I can’t wait to see you, to hold you, smell you, and see the looks on your brother and sisters’ faces when they meet you for the first time.

I wish your Dad will be there… I hope in time he will change his mind.

I can’t wait to see you on the sonar tomorrow…