I’m 17 years old. And I found out I’m 4 weeks and 4 days pregnant.
I’ve only been with my boyfriend for 2 months. He wants me to get an abortion asap, but my mom once had one and still cries about it till this day, and I don’t want to. He says that I have to because he doesn’t want the baby. I don’t know what to do, and I need some advice ASAP.
I would like to keep this baby, because I don’t want to have an abortion. HELP!
The 1st day I knew I was pregnant was Oct. 14. That day, I can’t believe what my friend told me… My friend is the 1st one who see my Pregnancy test and I didn’t believe it at 1st she let me see it… It was a cross line.. it was a PLUS… I first laugh and tell her it’s a JOKE… It’s not true it can’t be… But after that, my tears began to fall and telling her and myself it’s not true.. It felt the world is crashing on me… My friend cried w/ me and telling me I can feel your pain… After that, I texted my boyfriend, telling him I did it and it was Positive… I told him I didn’t want to be alone that time. I thought it was a good idea to be w/ him because of the mixed emotions I have…
I know he doesn’t want to have a baby and at that time, I was too… But Oct. 16, we went to the hospital and we went there for an abortion, but after the scan to make sure I’m real pregnant, they let me see the baby inside me… I saw the heartbeat moving and it felt so wonderful but I thought that time was soon I won’t have the baby… We just waiting for my boyfriend’s salary for abortion..
But for everyday of waiting and for everyday I feel the baby inside me, I was more loving the baby…. I more want to save him.. But I’m scared because I know I can’t support my baby alone and I don’t want my baby to not have a father like me.. I really don’t know what to do… If I’ll fight for my baby or think that my boyfriend is right 🙁
You know the 1st time I knew I was pregnant, I heard lots of bad things. They all hurt me because of wanting my baby to abort, but the truth is I don’t want to abort the baby. It’s my boyfriend that don’t want the baby 🙁
I really feel lost and everything! I don’t know….
I’ve got this black glass heart.
I’ve taped it so many times…
Over and over,
But the pain keeps on
Puncturing it…
Again and Again.
I shouldn’t’ve trusted you from
The very beginning, the start.
So now, here I am, brokenhearted.
And flowing out these stupid rhymes.
All I wanted was a friend;
You gave me way too much more.
I loved you until the end…
But now I must settle the score.
Some how I will and nothing more.
I’ve got Heart Shaped scars
Traced by my trusty razor.
I’m leaving the skin you kissed
Imperfect and marred.
My smile, it looks so real.
God, I’m the perfect impersonator.
I’m impersonating a happy person;
But My heart is shattered.
I’ve got Love driven into my wrist.
But the love we had wasn’t true.
So here I am…Sitting alone…
Tears falling, mixing with eyeliner
To make a slight gray flood.
And here I am…
With scarlet red blood
Falling off my Alabaster brown wrist.
And mixing with the blood of my
Broken Glass Heart.
I’m 15 years old and I have a wonderful boyfriend.
We’ve been together for a while now. I love him with everything in my heart and he feels the same way. He never really had a father figure in his life; so his goal is to become the father he never had. We have talked this over many times and we’ve decided we want to start a family together. I’m a virgin and I’m kind of scared, but I really want to have a baby now.
Help!?
To start off with, I am 19 years old now and sometimes happy and a lot of the times, sad. I have an almost two-year-old little girl named Shiana and she is the most beautiful person to ever walk in my life. I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant with her. I was 17 when I had her. I raised her pretty much by myself and it was very hard and went through a lot of things with her father, that I wish now would have never done! I ended up doing an open adoption and still going through it with a very close women to me. Her name is Megan and has been there for me like a mom since I was 2. I love my little girl so much that I didn’t want to be the kind of mother that would never be able to give my kids anything and everything they needed and wanted. But I am still in her life and watching her grow up to be the most amazing little girl of my dreams, I am very lucky and blessed by Jesus to have her!
But in between that time, I found out I was 6 weeks pregnant again and with the father of my daughter. I was always taught to never have abortions and felt very strongly against them. I was so lost and so confused and felt like I was losing everything in my life already. I didn’t know how I was going to be able to bring another baby into that kind of life. I went on with being pregnant and not telling anybody in my family except one of my sisters and a couple friends. I had it stuck in my head I will do better this time and stick it out to be a mom again.
I hit 9 weeks in my pregnancy and talked to one of my old friends about what I should do. He told me that he didn’t know but that I should get an abortion and So did most of the people around me. So I faced that decision and decided I was going to have an abortion. About a week before my appointment, the father of the baby decided to have one of his sister’s call my dad who I live with, and told him that she wanted to talk to him about some things that he should know about me. That day, my dad came and picked me up from work and asked me why she wanted to talk to him about me and wanted to know what it was all about! I waited for a little bit and then had my godmother go in with me to talk to my dad, and told him I was 8 weeks pregnant! My dad flipped out on me and told me I need to learn to keep my legs shut and told me I better get an abortion! The only thing I could say back was I am having an abortion and he looked shocked, because I was finally facing a decision without him.
For the next couple of days, I spent the next few nights with my best friend and she had found out she was pregnant to and we both decided to have the abortion together. Her appointment was an hour before mine. The morning of the appointment, all I felt was being nauseated and anxious. I just wanted to get it done and over with. We got there and I got called back and they did an ultrasound and I found out that I was 9 weeks and 3 days along. I told the ultrasound tech. that I didn’t want to see or know anything about the baby, but she told me how healthy and strong it was doing and how good it was growing. When she walked out, I had second thoughts, but didn’t do anything about it.
The procedure happened and the Whole time all I could do was cry and pray to God to help and and forgive me for what I have done. I asked for him to take care of my baby and to let it know everyday how much I miss him or her and that I love him or her very much!
I got home and my dad looked at me. I told him not to talk to me right now cause I didn’t want to talk about it. I couldn’t stop crying and just kept wishing something wrong would have happened so I wouldn’t be alive. Later that night, my dad walked in my room and I told him to never make me feel like I have to do something like that again! He said he didn’t tell me too. I knew it was also my decision too, but he made me feel like I had to.
Every day that goes by, I think of what I could have done to make it different and that I wish I would have ran out of that clinic. I miss my baby so much that I wish sometimes that I would be pregnant again. I still do to this day!
I don’t think that any girl should have to feel like they have to do something so horrible to make sure that they have a place to live or so they can go out and have fun partying with there friends or get approval from anyone, especially parents. Our parents are big influences on us and just because they think you are better off on doing something does not mean that you are. No matter how old you are! Don’t let someone come in the way of something that will change your life for the better! Trust me! My friend that I asked for advice for isn’t even my friend anymore. He got what he wanted out of me and left our friendship for the dirt! But the point of it is, is that your son or daughter will always be there for you and you’ll never know what love is until you are holding your child in your arms! I wish that’s what I was doing right now but I just walk along feeling empty everyday!
At the age of 18, I got pregnant with my first child. When I found out that I was pregnant, I had so many mixed feelings. Because at the time that I got pregnant, things wasn’t looking on the up and up.
The father of my unborn child, we wasn’t seeing eye to eye and on top of that, my mom had gotten very ill at that time. so I had to step up and take care of my brother and sister since I was the oldest. There were many days after I made sure that everything was done and clean. I would sit outside on the car and look at the stars and just cry and think to myself. How am I gonna take care of a child of my own when my mom needs me? I didn’t tell my mom right off that I was pregnant but she had a feeling that I was. Shortly after, she was for sure that I was. By the grace of God, that gave her the power and faith for her to fight so that she could be able to see her first grandchild. At my 5 month, my mother made a wonderful recovery. It was like she had never been sick. She came home and the next day, I had to go to the O.BGYN. My mom went with me. She got a chance to see the baby and when they told her that I was having a baby boy my mom just burst into tears cause she was happy.
After that day, she just took over. She went shopping and got him so much stuff. She even gave me my baby shower. I know you wondering about what happened to the baby father. Well, we departed as friends but he was still coming around everyday to check on us and he was with us when I gave birth as well as my mother. I had my son at the age of 19 three days after my birthday. My son is now 6 years-of- age now and he is spoiled by his grandma which he calls mom. You can tell she is proud. I am now 25 years of age and pregnant with twin boys that will be here Nov-19. No, they are not by my oldest son’s father, but we are still friends and we get along better than we did when we was together. Yes, he is taking good care of his child. But I know you’ve heard of high school sweetheart.
Well, I had a church sweetheart that i was crushing on for a long time even before me and my oldest son father got together, but we never did talk because he had left the church so I didn’t see him anymore. Well as the years went on, some kind of way, we ended up touching bases with each other. We started tripping on the phone then we ended up going on a date. Well I got scared so I stopped calling him and I wouldn’t answer his calls because I was like this can’t be real. Because I had such a huge crush on this man. So after the blue, he called and I answered the phone. He invited me to his new house because he was moving that night. He came and got me. I was thinking other people was gonna be at the house but it wasn’t. We started unpacking the kitchen then we sat around going through boxes. One thing lead to another. I again got scared and didn’t want to talk to him no more. But he would not give up. We ended up dating which to this day, I’m proud to say, we still are together and here I am pregnant with two of his children which I Thank God for everyday. I still can’t believe I am with the man that I was crushing on for so long. And I didn’t forget to tell you all about my mom and son. They are very happy that the twins are coming. I think I really got a problem on my hands because they don’t want to share the twins with each other. I will write again once the twins arrive.
Take care and each and every one of you be blessed and keep your head up. And please don’t forget to pray because prayer changes thing.
