I am desparate for a baby

I am 20 years old and live in London, UK. It may sound really stupid, but since about 14-15, I have wanted a big family and that starts with a baby at an early age.

Now I’m 20, I feel as though I don’t have much time to start a family. I know that my mum will be supportive of me having a baby because she’s already told me that she would like more grandchildren (the sooner the better), but I have no boyfriend and I’m verging on the edge of agoraphobia (hate going outside). I’ve looked into a private sperm donor but this is proving harder than I first thought. That’s how desperate I am. I’ve even started collecting baby clothes and toys so that I am partially prepared but no one knows this.  I need to know what to do.

Please, please help me.

First Decision

I’m 17 years old, turning 18 in March.

I just found out that I am 7 weeks pregnant. The father is 16 years old and in an open relationship with one of my best friends. This isn’t the first time he’s gotten me pregnant. Last time, he said he would be there for me but as soon as I took the pregnancy test, he ran. He said he wanted nothing to do with me or the baby. I ended up not carrying to term and me and him became friends again. We talked about what happened not too long ago and he said that he regretted leaving me. But I’m not sure if I believe him. After all, words are just words. I haven’t told him yet that I’m pregnant. I’m afraid of his reaction. A part of me doesn’t want to tell him at all. But I know that he deserves to know. I’m considering giving him an option to be a part of it’s life or not. Cause if he can’t handle it, it’s only going to cause me problems.

I’d like opinions, please.

My Hard Decision

Hi, I’m 19 years old… I’m here cuz I’m in a bad situation.

My fiancé is wanting n forcing me 2 get an abortion… But that is not what I want. I want 2 keep my baby so bad. 4 years ago, when I was 15, I got pregnant n had 2 make a decision, 2 either get an abortion or move out n raise the baby on my own.. But I chose 2 get an abortion 2 make my family happy, but u can’t imagine how much I regret that decision… I really wish I would have kept the baby cuz I wouldn’t have been so depressed n badly wanting a baby!

I just want him 2 realize that me getting an abortion again would really break my heart, n I don’t think I would ever 4give him 4 this…

Im confused

Well, I just found out that I am pregnant and I really didn’t have a reaction at first considering who I was pregnant by. This is my story.

I am a college student and I was havin’ a good time here up until the beginning of this year. It all started with me finding out that my roommate/friend had been stealing money out of my account, $1405 to be exact over a period of a month. I should of sent her to jail or even beat her up but I had another idea in mind. Well, when she finally admitted she stole the money after being threatened with 11 felony charges, she picked up and moved out without telling anyone, not even her boyfriend which she left here. To make a long story short, I took matters in my own hands and decided 2 sleep with him as a little taste of revenge. It was supposed to be a one-time thing but somehow, I started falling for him and he told me the same thing and we became “boy/girlfriend”. After she found out we were 2gether, she did everything possible 2 cause me drama and he was acting as if he wanted her back. Soon after the girl got him, but in jail, and 3 weeks later, I found out I’m pregnant. It was hard telling my ex, who I was still trying 2 get back with that I was pregnant and he took it really bad he even called my parents and put it on Facebook but I can’t get mad at him. I broke his heart so many times but I still love him and want 2 be with him. My parents don’t want me 2 keep it. They say it will ruin my life and I’m not ready for the responsibilities. But I can’t get an abortion. I already had one b4 with my x and I always think about it. I used 2 try 2 get pregnant, just 2 somehow erase the mistake with the first one. I told the baby daddy I was pregnant and he wants me 2 keep it, but he is in jail and I know he is still in love with her. What am I 2 do? And plus I really miss my ex, right, and he will never speak 2 me if I have dis baby!! It’s a crazy situation and I just don’t know what’s best cuz the dad wants to be there, but he is in jail for who knows how long and my parents will cut me off and I will probably have 2 drop out of school.

I feel like my life is over!!! What do I do?

DISAPPOINTED

I have been reading a few of the stories on here and some girls can relate to me. I am 17, going to be 18 on Sunday. I found out that I was pregnant about 3 months ago. When I found out I was so happy, but scared at the same time. How was I going to tell my parents, would they be mad? Ugh, so many thoughts ran through my head. The day that I told my boyfriend he was calm. I will admit I wasn’t sure if he would leave me cuz we were still pretty new. But he didn’t, thank gosh!!!

Well, a week passed and I told my aunt, and me and her both told my parents. To my surprise, my parents were pretty understanding, and supportive. After I told my parents, I was so happy that I was pregnant and went to the store the next day and bought all of the little things like bottles and washcloths, etc. I didn’t buy any clothes cuz I didn’t know the sex of the baby. Later that day, my mom took me to the hospital to make sure that I was pregnant and because I told her that I was spotting. At the hospital, I had an ultrasound and the doctor said that everything was fine. I still went on and was happy as ever. Then I started having really bad cramps while I was in school.  So I called my mom and told her. She told me to come home and she would take me to the hospital again. This time when we went, they said everything was fine also. Then my first appointment came and me, my mom, and my boyfriend went. I was so excited to go. Then when it was time to hear a heartbeat, I heard nothing. I asked if that meant it wasn’t okay. The doctor said well we will get another ultrasound done to see if we see a heartbeat.

As I laid there, I saw nothing on the screen, just my “sac”. I was confused, where was my baby, was it hiding, where the heck was it? The person that did the ultrasound said she would take the pictures to my doctor. I looked at my mom, then at my boyfriend. I knew something wasn’t right. Since all of the chairs in the room were taken, I sat on the floor, and I started crying. My mom came over and she hugged me and cried with me. Then we all went to my doctor’s office and she came in and told me that my body destroyed my baby!!!! I started crying even more. I tried not to look at anyone. I felt alone although I wasn’t.

We then went to see when I could get a D&C….. which was the next day. After that day, I feel empty. So many thoughts going through my head everyday. I often think it’s not fair, there are women out there that do drugs while pregnant and still get to have their baby. Why not me? I’m doing everything I could but it didn’t make it. I also think, I never even got to see its face, who it would look more like, I never got to see my baby’s first steps or hear it cry, I’ll never get to hold my baby and just look at it while it’s sleeping. I cry everyday and I can’t look at babies.

I do want another one, but my boyfriend wants to wait. Maybe it’s the best thing to do…

This is why I am scared!

Well, I really just want to tell my story because I am the type of person who keeps her feelings in because I am so scared that people will think bad of me if they really knew anything that went on with me.

There are only a few people that I let in on my feelings and what I am thinking. Well almost a month ago, me and my boyfriend had sex and we didn’t use any protection. But I was on the pill so I didn’t really think about it until I got my period. My period is never really normal but it isn’t too abnormal and when it got how it was. I was a little worried then I talked to my mom about it and she asked me “Did you ever do anything with your boyfriend?” and I was scared to tell her, but then I did and she said, ” Well that could be why.” And then I wasn’t too worried about being pregnant or anything because I was on the pill, like I said before. But when I did this with my boyfriend, I was staying over at my friend’s for the weekend and I forgot that I didn’t take my pill. So now I might be pregnant! I am extremely scared because I am only 15 years old! But I am happy that I have my mom there to help me through this because she is still mad, but she is going to be there for me and the baby (if there is one). I go to the doctor on Tuesday but this isn’t the end of my story, there is more.

When I was talking to my mom about this, she told me well we have to move because we need to get better jobs so that we can take care of ourselves and especially if you are pregnant. So now I don’t know what to do. I am soo scared that I am going to be and I have to move in two weeks. But the good thing is that my boyfriend wants to be there for me. Well, I would really like some advice if anyone has any for me B) ♥