… i’m scared to lose my own life.

I was with a guy for about 2 months… We were basically living together and around the week of Christmas was when my baby was conceived… The guy and I broke up on Christmas day, having no idea about this baby… On Dec 27th, I was admitted into the hospital… The pregnancy tests came back negative and the doctors said I had a bacterial infection… I went home that day with antibiotics to take…

I remained having pains in my stomach after the antibiotics were over and I went to the doctor on January 14th to ask for painkillers… That was the day that I found out I was pregnant… My doctor was guessing I was about 2 weeks at the time, and that scared me because I didn’t want it to not have been my ex… I was admitted into the hospital 2 hours later… And they found out that on top of being FOUR weeks pregnant, I had PID… caused by bacterial infections, STDs, etc. and I was allergic to the medicines to cure it. I had 12 vials of blood pulled that night and two days later, all STD tests had came back negative… I was so relieved to had found out that, and that my baby HAD to have been my boyfriend’s, well my ex’s. My mother had been told by my doctor that I was pregnant… And after I was released from the hospital on Sunday, my mom informed me on Monday that i had to get an abortion or get out… This was the woman who I thought of as my best friend, and she was betraying me.. I’m now 6 weeks pregnant… The baby’s father is completely out of my life. I’m out of my mom’s house.. I’ve been admitted into the hospital a second time and the pains just continue to get worse… I do not like needles, the hospital scares me, and every time i turn around, I keep getting more sick, and not in the way of vomiting… I’m scared. I don’t want to kill my baby, but my abortion appointment is on Feb 6th… I do not know what to choose or what to think. I can’t do this on my own. I’m only a junior in high school… My father and his girlfriend have taken me in… She has a 12 year old daughter who I want to be able to be a great sister for…

Please help me. I am scared and confused. This baby is making me very unhealthy… and I’m losing all hope..

scared as hell

So I’ve been scrolling through the process I’m about to go through and I’m trying to get around it in my head what I’m about to do.

Tomorrow I will abort my child. I’m 9 weeks pregnant and 16 years young. I’ve never been more scared in my life. Today is Wednesday and I found out I was pregnant on Saturday. I’m amazed with the support I have had from my family and my boyfriend now even though it isn’t even his child. I cry every day because aborting goes against everything in my religion and everything I’ve ever really believed in.

I’m really scared and tomorrow, my mother or boyfriend cant come to the abortion.

Would anyone like someone to talk to?

Actually, I am not a teenage mom, but I am a mother of two toddlers. I recently was watching a show on TV and I started to realize how difficult that must be.

I really don’t know how to help except to offer my friendship and support to anyone who might need it. I live in the Orlando area and I am 29 years old. After having my first baby at 26, I realized what a wonderful thing it is to have a baby- a little soul who will love you no matter what. Shortly after that, when my daughter was 7 months old, I got pregnant again. I wasn’t ready for that and it was very hard at first. It’s only now getting easier! And I am almost 30- so I can imagine what some of the younger moms must experience. I would like to just talk to anyone that might need another mom to talk to.

Being a mom can be awfully lonely sometimes too which is something someone never told me either!

17 pregnant and scared

Hello, I’m 17 years old and a senior in high school. I’m also 1 – 2 months pregnant.

The tests were negative, but I know the signs and symptoms. I told my boyfriend, the father of the child, and a couple of days later, he dumped me. He told my friend it was because he didn’t want a baby. Now I am on my own to raise it. I’m scared to death. I don’t know if I’ll be a good mother or even if I’ll be able to raise it right. I have thought about adoption, but I don’t know yet. I want to keep my baby, but how will I be able to raise it? I start college in August. I wonder if this means I will have to put my plans on hold. I also have decided that I don’t want the father to have any part in my child’s life. He still has a lot of growing up to do. The father is only 15 years old. So I have no clue what I’m in for.

I’m looking for any help or advice.

Knowing…

I cried again this afternoon, cried that I had forgotten you, forgotten what I put you through and when I did it. What kind of mother forgets the day her children died? A mother who does not care? Or a mother who has started to forgive herself? I don’t know which I want it to be because either way, it makes me feel sick to my stomach.

I got so drunk this afternoon, drunk because I want another baby to replace you, replace you in my life, my heart, and my mind. What kind of mother am I? A mother who is out of touch? Or a mother who is ready to move on with her life and leave the past where it belongs?

Am I allowed to do that? Is it normal to forget the day you aborted your unborn child? To forget the year that you made the biggest mistake of your life? Or does that start to happen three years down the line or when things start going better? Does that make me a bad person? For wanting to move on and be normal again? For wanting to love a real child, a child I can see and touch?

I don’t know anymore… I don’t know what’s normal and right and good where you are concerned.

preggy or not?!!!

My OB-GYN doctor told me that it’s hard for me to get pregnant. The chances are very low, because my egg cells don’t get mature. They blast even they were immature cells still. And the lining of my uterus is very thin already…

This fact makes me very sad, but happy for a short time. After I gave birth with my first baby boy, I am very afraid to have another baby, knowing the fact that the father of my baby don’t love me anymore and he just sticks with me coz of our son. His family don’t like me at all, Likewise, his sister used to nag at me in front of many people. She always makes me realize that I am never welcome in their house. It makes me feel down and depressed… My mother and family do not know my real situation in my boyfriend’s house… I kept it coz I don’t want them to be hurt. Now, it’s been 2 months that I don’t menstruate yet… I have used a Pregnancy Test thrice and the result is negative. I am confused If I am pregnant or not…

Though I don’t have following symptoms:
nausea, breast soreness or enlargement, queasiness and food cravings… Except for my menstruation, which has been stopped for 2 months now..