My brother is three and a half years older than me, an age difference which constantly worked against me in my opinion. My ‘Graduations’ always seemed, to me at least, to be less important than my brother’s. When I was finally going into first grade he was moving into middle school and for my parents, that was a big deal. It happened again when I moved into middle school, but now my brother was going into high school. Eighth grade rolls around and my brother is going to graduate.
For a time, it seemed to be a never-ending cycle, but during my freshman year at high school, I realized that was not the case. My brother had gone into the workforce directly so my graduation would be overshadowed by nothing. It would be my weekend and undoubtedly my parents would do whatever I wanted to do. I dreamed up a bunch of different scenarios: Spending a weekend at the coast or going to Ashland, OR were my two favorites, but never once did going to the zoo with a two year old cross my mind as my ideal graduation weekend. Not even on January 27 when a little girl by the name of Kaylee was born three months premature. In fact, it wasn’t until four months after this when I held daughter for the first time that I decided that that is exactly how I wanted to spend my weekend. As of today, she is two years, two months, and two days and I cannot wait for June to roll around so I can take her to see the zoo.
When my parents first asked me what I wanted to do for the weekend, I didn’t have to think before deciding that taking my daughter to the zoo would be the perfect weekend. It was an idea they were hesitant to accept at first. When I first suggested it, she was just starting to walk. But the closer it came to my graduation and the older she grew the more she couldn’t wait to take her. This summer will be her very first visit and I can’t wait to show her all of my favorite animals just like my parents did when I was her age. We’ve been talking about it nonstop, practicing animal names, sounds and imitations and even picking out her clothes, even if it isn’t for another two months from now.
No, I never considered going to the zoo with a two year old as my ideal graduation weekend. But after I adopted my beautiful, smart, and wonderful daughter, I can’t imagine spending it any other way. So I would love to thank all those girls and women out there who when they find themselves pregnant do not terminate it, even if they aren’t ready to become parents and give someone else to love the child they created. It is the greatest gift imaginable and I can’t imagine loving any child any more than I do my little Kaylee Sue.
For the past week or so, my body has just been acting different. I don’t know how to describe it, but I just feel different.
I have a feeling I might be pregnant, but I really don’t know for sure. At first, when I thought about it, it worried me since I’m 18 and don’t have a job. Even though my very loving boyfriend (who is surprisingly excited about this) has a decent-paying job, I was still worried. But after coming to this website, I feel so much better. I’ve even had several dreams this week about being pregnant.
Now I just want to know if I am or not. I think I might be a little disappointed if I’m not because I think I’m actually looking forward to this. No, I know I’m looking forward to this. lol I don’t know what’s going on in my head. But my period doesn’t start for another week, so I’m just gonna have to wait.
I have an amazing boyfriend.
We had unprotected sex 4 days ago and he came in me by accident. We are both really scared that I might get pregnant because we checked an ovulation calendar online after it happened, and it said that the day we did it on was my most fertile day of ovulation. I told my mom about everything that was going on and I told her about the Plan B pill. But we didn’t actually get the pill until the 3rd day, and you’re supposed to take the pill within 72 hours of conception, or else it won’t work. So I took the pill with only 5 hours left to take it. And I’m scared it might not work because I was told that the later you take it, the less likely it is to work.
Then again, I was sort of excited about the idea of being pregnant and having a baby. But we were NOT trying to conceive. My mom was very supportive when I told her and she respects that I am 100% against abortion. And my boyfriend is adopted, so adoption is also not an option. So if it turns out that I am pregnant, we will keep the baby, and I trust him that he will be by my side every step of the way. I guess when I saw how supportive and understanding my mom was being, it got me to think that everything would be OK if I do end up getting pregnant. But if the pill worked, then I’m getting put on birth control, and we are for sure using a condom everytime. I don’t want to go through another scare like this ever again!
I know I will be a great mother [if I am pregnant].
Everything happens for a reason
This isn’t for the world, this is a journal for myself. But you’re welcome to know my story.
Friday, April 23 started the beginning of possibly nothing. My boyfriend of nearly 8 months and I decided to give it a try. We had been planning it for a while since we decided we were meant for each other. Well, it turns out the rubber broke. He about died he was freaking out so bad. Meanwhile, I decided he was freaking over nothing. But eventually, I started to worry. He couldn’t sleep or eat or even really concentrate. But he knows one thing, and that is that he loves me and nothing could tear us apart. Even though he blames himself for all the things that might happen, I see absolutely no fault. I just see a bright path, including a beautiful child we made together or another bright path leading to it when we are older and more prepared. I am 16 and a Junior in high school. He is 17 and a Junior in high school.
Yes, we are young. Yes, we have a small chance of making it together. But YES, I believe no matter what everything will work out. My mom supports us, however she is real laid-back. We’re waiting to tell his parents until we know if I am or not. There is so many cons to me being pregnant if I am. But there is so many pros.
Here begins the beginning of my wait. I will test in 9 days, wish me luck…
I am new here and I just want you girls to know that I know what it is like and I know what you are going through.
I was 18 when I found out I was pregnant. I was so scared and some people told me I should have an abortion. I didn’t though and I went to school. I didn’t have the father to support me, but I did have my family once they got over the shock. I thought about adoption but I really wanted to keep my baby. I went to college and it was really tough, but I did it. I now am married and have four wonderful children. My son is now 15 and he’s pretty happy I decided to keep him. If anyone wants to talk to me for support, I’m here. Don’t let anyone keep you down. I went to my prom 8 months pregnant and I was captain of my drill team till I couldn’t fit in my uniform anymore. I also graduated just a month and a half shy of my due date. You can accomplish anything you put your mind to, even when carrying your child.
Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t.
Only two weeks have passed since I found out I was pregnant.
I went to the Health Center almost positive I could not be pregnant, I kept telling myself I was stressed, or lacking something in my diet that was causing me to miss my periods. There was no way I, a 15-year-old honor student, could be pregnant. Needless to say, when the nurse told me it was positive, I was shocked. When I told my mom the same day, she was disappointed but was still very supportive of my choice to keep my baby. The father, on the other hand, was not and totally denied the baby as being his. My mom and I immediately made a doctor’s and ultrasound appointment. We only had to wait a week for the ultrasound appointment which went very well. My baby has no obvious deformities, and he is a boy! Seeing him suck his thumb during the ultrasound is a memory I will never forget. Also, I found out I was exactly 19 weeks along (as I am writing this, I am 21 weeks) and he will be due September 2nd.
When my other family members found out, they were horrified. They told me it was either get an abortion or you are “banished” from the family. Despite what they said, I am still keeping my baby. I knew I could never go through with an abortion, because even thought I was scared, from the moment I found out, I knew I was in love with my baby. Thankfully, I have the support of my mom and sister and a few of my cousins. I plan on staying in school so I can get a good job and provide my baby boy with everything he could ever need and most of his wants.
The thought of holding my baby (whose name I decided will be Caden Jacob, or Caden Thomas) in only 19 weeks keeps me going and being able to ignore what my family, and the father, has to say.
