So yesterday, my mum went & got me heaps of booklets on what to eat to promote a healthy pregnancy & I have to say I died a little inside. All these food products I know & love & treasure as dearly as my family & I’m forbidden from eating them. I am addicted to food. I love it. I eat when I’m hungry. I eat when I’m bored. I eat when I’m full. I eat when I’m watching TV, when I’m in class, on the school bus home, any place where you have the ability of both hands or a sitting position is when I’m eating. And the stupid list says I can’t eat anything with raw egg in it. Which is understandable, since raw eggs can carry salmonella, but if only it wasn’t in some of my favorite foods. Chocolate Mousse, or any mousse. Mayonnaise. Mayonnaise is one of my condiments. It goes on everything. & my favorite breakfast of all time is Eggs Benedict because there is raw egg in Hollandaise sauce.
Now normally, I would say “screw it, I’m gonna eat what I want.” But I can’t if I want to protect my baby, & isn’t that what every mother wants to do? So I have to buck it up & eat really good food for my baby. Today, I managed breakfast, which was a little short of a blooming miracle. I have lots of wholegrain sandwiches & fruits for my lunch today. As much as I enjoy every type of food, I’m not afraid to give the health buzz a try. Maybe it will improve my skin & hair & nails. Who knows. But it’s for my baby & that’s what matters. My sister, who has a 6-month-old little boy, has completely & utterly black-sheeped me for keeping the baby. I heard my mum & her on the phone last night. It’s kind of upsetting to know that my sister isn’t happy for me, but I know that she has every right not to be very happy. She knows what raising a baby is like, even though he is a very tough, moody little boy. But I can’t help but feel like dark clouds are closing in on me as it feels like my partner & I are the only ones over the moon that we created a beautiful little person through the true love we share. My partner- his mother is not ecstatic either. He told her we were keeping it last night & she said “I knew you wouldn’t go through with it. I knew you wouldn’t have the abortion” which really upsets me. If it’s a girl, she will be going crazy because she already has four boys. It feels so so so much better to be able to write this down & get it all out of my head. The only real obstacle I have is telling my real father. We have a great relationship. He didn’t walk out or anything. My parents got divorced when I was six, but he’s always been in our lives & been a great dad. He lives about two hours away so I see him often. He is the person I am afraid to tell. He has a violent past & I can’t help, but be extremely frightened of him. Then there’s his stupid new wife who is just the ultimate precious snob. I used to have great respect for her until she called me a whore because I was sexually active, even when I was the legal age limit of 16 & had been with the guy for quite a while. I don’t want her putting her 2 cents in, but I know she will & she will wind up my dad & all hell will break loose!
What should I do? Advice would be greatly appreciated!!!!
Lots of love
I’m finding myself in that place where I know what I want in life and I want it so passionately that I have no clue what to do. I want kids and it’s a feeling and desire that won’t ever go away until that chance comes along. I hate saying it because I know how people are about it, but I’ve had teens ask me for advice about it before and I feel like if you think you can do it, then prove the world wrong, but know it’s going to be hard. And I know I can raise a baby even though I’m 18 years old. I know it will be hard, but I’m prepared. I would adopt and be a single parent right now if I could, but of course, people want a family; a mom and dad that can raise a baby together, not an 18-year-old who wants to love and give a child the world. It’s gone through my head a million times over how I would love to adopt or have custody even if it’s just for a little while. I know I could do it. I’m taking a year off school because it’s not something I completely want right now. If anything, take a few classes online just so I don’t loose the habit. Focusing on me the past few months has made me realize so much and it’s hard being who you are when it seems the world is against you.
Cravings. All of them, all at the same time. Pepperoni Pizza. Chocolate Ice cream. Indian Butter Chicken. KFC wicked wings & Original Recipe chicken. Apple Pie with Whipped Cream. Medium Rare Steak. I’m just happy we don’t have Taco Bell in New Zealand otherwise I’d be there all day. Cravings are so annoying. I have a big old breakfast, carbs & fresh fruit with milk for extra calcium. Then I get to school & my tummy grumbles. how can something so small & so beautiful take all my food away? I sit here now in 4th period waiting for the bell to ring so I can go for lunch & i can feel how tight my uniform skirt is around my belly. I wish I could just wear my own clothes, but a uniform predicts that we are a team & together & blah blah blah, which is utter BS, I believe wearing this uniform shows dictatorship & makes us look like clones. Anyway, off the subject. I am in my last year of High School, but only into my second term, which I guess would be the second semester in America? (I don’t know your school ways) at school & I still have 6 months left of school, & I’m due in December. I can’t wait to meet my beautiful little gift. My mum always says that a baby is a gift. My baby will be beautiful. Blue-eyed with blonde curly hair. I’ve only just finished my first trimester & I’m already dying to meet him/her!
P.S. I’m new on this site & I was wondering if anyone would wanna be friends? Don’t worry. I’m completely normal (:
Lots of love
I am 17 years old and 31 weeks pregnant with my baby girl!! Right now, I couldn’t be happier. I have a wonderful man in my life, a great support group from my family and my boyfriend’s family, and that seems to make me just as happy as can be, so you’d think. The one thing that is holding me back from being the happiest I could possibly be is that I have pretty much lost my best friends of 8 years. Yeah sure they tell me that they’re always there for me, but when I see them in person and around other people, it’s a whole different story. But I guess I should be grateful that they came around finally. Now that I am so close to my baby shower and my baby being due, they’re becoming much happier with everything. But after my baby is born, it will be a different story on how much I get to see them. I am supposed to get my license at the end of June, but it will all depend on how big I am by then. :s Doubtful I will be getting it then, which kind of sucks, but I will be right around 37 weeks then and by then I will be waiting for my baby girl to give me a signal that we’re in labour !! I cannot wait for her to be here. It’s driving me crazy that I am already 31 weeks and every day seems to fly by! But all I have in the baby room is the crib and change table!! I barely have any clothes, don’t have any bottles, diapers, etc. And my boyfriend wants to wait till after my baby shower to get everything else we need!! Is that too late? My baby shower is June 17th and I am scared that that is too late 🙁
Please if anyone could give me some advice, it would be greatly appreciated!! Becoming a new mom is sure coming into effect quickly and I don’t know if I am ready for it all.
Hi Ya’ll, it’s me again. Been a long time.
A little bit of an update.
Will be 18 soon. YAY.
My son will be a year in less than a week! EXCITED.
My boyfriend and I have been talking about getting engaged. (NOT my son’s father)
I had Graves’ disease and now that is FIXED. Not happy that my doctors have not called me back and I called them on Monday. Doctors think that they are on the top of the world.
I have been looking into online college because it would be much much too hard to go on campus. I am looking forward to getting a job or going to school. I HOPE to be getting my license on June 6th. Wish me luck.
A little bit of backtracking to the health issues. I have a heart condition that causes my heart to beat really fast like 200+ beats per minute sometimes. My doctor wants me to go to a new Doctor because she wants me to have surgery. I ended up in the ER that same day that I had an appointment with the new Doc and he did not even come down and talk to me even though it was the reason why I ended up in the ER.
Thanks ya’ll!
LOVE
The thought of my baby being here with me now is very exciting. I wish I could hold him already. I want to see him and kiss him and tell him all the lovely things that can only be spoken with him there.
As much as I want him here with me now, I know that I need to wait. I really want him to be born with his full 40 weeks. :)) Though, really it doesn’t matter what I want. He will be here when he decides to come. :)) Which sounds cute!
I’m excited. This experience has been great. And I know there is still a lot to discover. I am only 28 weeks. Though, I will be 29 weeks in two days. Time is going by and I prefer it this way. I guess I just need to be more patient. Only 12 weeks left…. almost 11 weeks left. :))
Time really is going by rather quickly. :))
