So a couple days ago I found out that I couldnt have kids… I am 19 years old and this was a huge surprise, not that I am planning on having kids just yet, but one day I did want kids… anyways I am dating this guy and he has a kid.. he has a year and six month old boy.. this is great, only problem his baby mama… she is ugg i cant even describe her… she cares more bout her drug of choice then the bby… this drives me crazy because for one.. this little boy deserves so much better and secondly i cant believe god gave her a bby, it pisses me off that i cant have kids and she already has a beautiful bby boy that she takes for granted.. I dont get why god choose a mom like that for a wonderful child like this little innocent boy instead of one that knows how to take care of him and that cares and shows him everyday that she cares, it drives me absolutly crazy that she gets to have this little boy and that shes going to loose him because shes so stupid that she cant see whats right in front of her… See I grew up in a home that was broken and that there was always drugs and lots of drinking. It was horrible and I was put into foster care and then taken out and then threw back in, several times and that was hell.. at the age of 10 i was finally put into foster care permently and i was bounced from home to home… its no way to grow up and I really dont want that to happen to that little boy, I know my boyfriend and his mom wouldnt let that happen but that little boy deserves so much better and it makes me mad and sad that i cant do anything to help.. I would do anything to be able to have kids and it kills me that there are people out there that are so dense and self centered that they cant see whats right in front of them, til its to late…