I’m 17 years old.

When I was 16, I met my first boyfriend. He was amazing. I was totally smitten. Looking back on it now, I realize how he manipulated me within that month we were together. I was a virgin and within a month, I had gone from only having ever kissed a guy to everything but sex. I kept telling him that I wanted to wait and that I wanted it to be special. Then on the 20th of July, he changed. He took advantage of me. I was so scared and didn’t know what to do. I was frozen all night whilst he lay asleep next to me, showing no remorse for what he had done. In the morning, he left and completely ignored me. I never heard from him again. I was discarded and used like an old tissue and it’s how I felt. I told my mum, thinking she could help me, but she said how she was disappointed that I had let myself into that situation. After that, I lost all my self-respect and didn’t care.

Since that date, I have slept with 4 guys.. 1, I don’t know who he is. Recently, I got a boyfriend, but he means nothing to me. I have been cheating on him with someone who I am falling for. I’m so scared that I will become vulnerable. The guy who I am with behind my boyfriend’s back is 24, but the age gap doesn’t matter to us. When I’m with him, everything feels good. But last week, we had sex and I have suffered a few of the symptoms that have been mentioned. If I’m pregnant, my life will be over. I am so worried.

I saw this website and thought someone might be able to help.

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