wow thats so sad im so sorry for wat u went through ive never had an abortion but i had an ectopic pregnancy which is wen ur baby is stuck in ur fallopian tubes and i was heartbroken cuz if they dont remove the baby i would die so even though i didnt have a choice it still hurts me alot. and i think about it all the time. i think you should go to therapy to talk to sumbody about this because your never going to get over it, i bet its really hard. i think your boyfriends just really hurt and he will come back eventually i mean if he wanted u to go on with the pregnancy he should have told u so its not ur fault dont worry everything will get better eventuallyy.good luck!