Ever since I was like eight years old, I’ve known I wanted to find Mr. Right, travel the world, and then settle down and have a family. I’ve also dreamed of living in the city and partying every night with my friends *but just for like a year…I love the country wayy too much to stay away* …. I’ve wanted to start orphanages all over the world….and become a flight attendant that way
Most are wayy out there and SUPER life changing…like getting a job in a different state or even country….or falling in love n getting married….OR having a baby… It’s LIFE…. n it hurts and can crush you n make you question who you are and what you’ve become…but it can also be soooooooo beautiful… .I’m scared to death of what is coming down the road within the next five years….within the next seven months even. But I know that God wouldn’t make a mountain I can’t climb…not to say having a baby is easy, but I think it’s going to be okay. I know my life is going to change drastically… It already has… My life has done a complete 360. The way it was four months ago is soooooooooo completely different from the way it is now. But I’m expecting that it’s okay… it’s the way my life was meant to be…I’m going to be a young unwed mother working at MacDonald’s 🙂 lol Makes me sound pretty pessimistic….But it’s the truth…But I know ima be a good mommy
… It just wasn’t in my plans for right now…But that’s life huh… It takes ya by surprise…Sheesh, I feel like I’m mumbling and I’m not entirely sure what I’m really even saying lol. I have so many emotions right now…. They’re always between scared for my life to being sooooo happy and excited to being mad about the way everything is going… A baby was not in the plan, remember lol. But hey, I’ve always wanted to have kids…Sometimes I still think this is all just a dream, you know…Ima wake up n not be in the position I’m in. But I don’t think it is 🙂 N that’s okay… Cuz Ima be fine… My baby is gonna be fine. I might never be the CEO of some big company or live in some mansion on the good side of town, but that was never in the plan…
The New Plan *As of now*
1.Keep putting away some money for college *online is only $44 a month* YAY
2.Build up some credit that way we can buy a house in a few years YAY YAY lol
And keep pursuing my dreams… They aren’t too far out of reach…N I know I can do anything if I set my mind to it…And now I have to more than ever for my baby. I can’t let him/her down! 🙂
